Day 6 - OBE

This is getting really complicated. Tape 4 is unorganized as fuck! Monroe is saying "do the following 4 steps then ill join you after you do them all", so i edited the tape cuz thats way too much info to remember and in the end it ended up being 1 hour long. Then he starts talking about visualize a bubble im like ok, i do that. Then when he starts talking about taking the fear out of the box and letting it go i got real confused. First it was fear, cool, visualized it and let it go. I had a real hard time doing this cuz fear kept sticking around, its like it wouldnt leave! I got a huge problem visualizing sometimes cuz thats what happens, i just cant visualize it perfectly and there is always this resistance of my visualizations for some reason.

So anyway, then he starts talking about "now look in the box and perceive the emotion the fear covered" so im thinking, 'oh thats happiness cuz fear covered it so its real hard to be happy cuz fear is always there'. then he starts talking about "let it go" so im like wtf? isnt the emtotion supposed to be positive, how am i supposed to let happiness go? fuck that!

I'm gonna review tape 5 today and see if it gets even more complicated cuz this is getting on my nerves.