Sunday, July 31, 2011

Cataclysmic dreams

for a few years I been having cataclysmic dreams which are scary as hell.

this morning I woke up from one. i was at work in a modern building, an unknown location i never seen or been to before, and my coworker was attacked by some huge dude. he wrapped his hands behind his back with a thin thread and i jumped on him. he comes running me into wall, I let go & he rams into it and gets knocked out. I cut the thread w/ a knife and free my coworker. then another coworker comes from the outside and locks us inside, but i got the keys so im not worried. then my mom shows up, the window is broken. i come out and tell her to call the cops. then I go back inside and lots of people show up. now it's a gathering/party/whatever, and all of the sudden... EVERYONE STARTS SCREAMING, and I hear a loud thunder like death is near. I was about to jump out of the window, and I wake up.

The other dreams are the same Tsunami nightmares. I have a dream, and then it ends up me turning around and seeing this BIG Tsunami wave coming at me. and it's like... i KNOW this isnt real, it isnt the real reality, but it feels so fucking real... and right before the wave swallows me i wake up. in one dream i actually leave my dream body and rise up out of it, but then wake up eventually.. i dont know if these are just my own fears of 2012, or they are prophetic dreams. either way, they are scary as hell!

Saturday, July 30, 2011

The YES man

wow... this is my life... i am the no man..


Friday, July 29, 2011

I make people uneasy

so im at a temp job for 3 weeks. and people here seem to be cool... but they all don't really care to talk to me because I make them uneasy, or what? I dont know. I am just tired of it. tomorrow I'll just sit and read my book. fuck them all. if they come talking to me, I'll be talkative. if not, fuck em. i am comfortable at being quiet. as long as i feel grounded, i dont care.

maybe its just how things are though. they are mostly philipinos and they all gather up and chit caht joking and being retarded. i dont wanna be part of their corny ass click anyway. this one fucker NEVER say shit to me.. and we are the only 2 people the last 2 hours there. like wow dude, you play like we're cool but you probably look down on me inside.

and i thought they were some cool people. but at least half of them are cool, and talk to me when I speak with them longer than a fucking minute... female boss is cool, phillipino guy with 2 kids is cool, and one other dude is cool. women are moody and/or quiet and the rest never say a word to me.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

David Wilcock on 2012

Even though I heard a lot about him (good and bad), I never heard him speak before

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Thursday, July 21, 2011

San Francisco Police Department

the most corrupted police department in our country. this is what happens when you dont pay your bus fair

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Hip Hop

this is exactly why I don't listen to it anymore.

THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, July 15, 2011

I am tired of life

I am really tired of it. that's all i can say right now. with 2012 on the way, i dont know where it will take us and especially i dont know where it will take me. but im fucking tired of life.