Wednesday, August 9, 2017

headache woke me

cluster headache woke me 50 mins ago at 2am. went up so severe to 8-9 that eventually my whole left sinus side was full. sometimes I wonder if headaches are caused due to so much energy of a person's soul it cant hold it within one body so it leaks out through headaches. just a thought not sure is based in reality. im just glad af its over, bit i still feel 2-3 scale remnants. this pain hurts so much omfg.. dun wish it on my worst enemy.

Thursday, August 3, 2017

I can't get enough of Kevin McDonald

a man of truth and integrity. not a lot of people you could find these days..

No Porn No Fap

I managed to do this April 22nd to August 2. 4 Months, 1.5 weeks. No Porn No Fap is POWERFUL! Porn is the biggest toxic filth on the planet. If I was a dictator, I'd ban it and throw (((everyone))) behind it behind bars. It's really disgusting how they're destroying our society from every angle, but I digress.

After 2 months, I actually started to get horny again. I was literally numb down there. had no sex drive cuz I was a pornaholic and spending my pathetic lonely life viewing porn and fapping was the only sort of 'love' I ever received. so it filled the void, but it destroyed my life and libido.

No Porn No Fap helped me to study for certificate cuz I wasnt thinking about sex all the time. I mean I was but it didnt matter. I forgot how it really felt. now Im trying to get ahead and wanna start Pickup soon.

I only broke my No Porn No Fap cuz I started to go insane. I even managed to have a conscious release through Lucid Dreaming. but that wasnt enough. I started to think about hurting people and even beat the shit outta my pillow as therapy but still I needed a real release. Anyway, thanks to The Golden One for all the motivation on this No Porn No Fap program. He really motivated the hell outta me.

Now I hope I wont need sex for a while cuz thats how it usually goes since im older. hard to stay focused when I go out to clubs being all horny. Anyway, Im prod of myself, and I just moved too. will blog about this when I get time. the release was amazing too. was 2.5 longer and more intense. Sex is actually amazing and sacred, but when you abuse it, it will destroy your life and your mind.