Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

a Girl Asked me out...

this just happened a few hours ago. I am a floating tech going building to building working with computers, and I was helping this new girl a few months back. So today I ended up in her building again cus I get sent there a lot. She's always been nice to me, and recognizes me, which is strange cuz most women in the corporate world environment are different and aloof. so today I see her in an elevator, and I say hello. she asks me some computer question and we just chit chatted. then as we get off I ask her where she's going for lunch. she says here to get something real quick. and then she goes "we should have lunch sometime so you can teach me about IT stuff". I said sure but since we were walking separate ways and she got me so off guard (this never happened before in my life!), I didn't know what to do. I thought about giving her my #, but we just parted ways with her going left and me going straight. not sure where this is going to go, and since I got red-pilled I am 100% against race-mixing (she looks Japanese and you know how Asians love white guys). but I don't want kids; still it could happen. either way. I'll post the update here if anything comes out of it.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Duterte is my hero

We need to do the same in America and the rest of the world.

Hitler was the last wall of resistance against these parasites, and for that they have destroyed Germany, and brainwashed the entire humanity into beLIEving he is the most evil man to walk the earth.

Tom Torero-the best Pick-Up teacher I found

after meeting all the disgusting douchbags like Tyler Durden and his RSD crew, I have been turned off by most of the "PUAs" in the community and took a long break. I really want to get back into pick-up, but finding an instructor that matches your style is no easy task. So far, this is the best guy I found, even though I haven't seen him in-field yet. but if you can find a better teacher, let me know.

I am doing a lot of studying, getting back into reading books, and setting goals. And once I'm ready, I'm going to start doing Pick-up. I don't want to be a miserable and lonely old man thinking about what I could've done in life. And if I let life pass me by, I may just end up that way...

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Love You Zindagi (Club Mix)

Heard this song on the Bollywood radio station. Love it!

Thursday, April 6, 2017

if Trump starts war with Syria...

he is gonna turn out to be just another globalist controlled puppet to install a Central Bank in Syria. I guess that's the result of hiring some unknown clueless amateur named Jared Kushner as a "Senior Advisor". His business' address is 666 Fifth Avenue. That alone is a bad sign. I really hope this is just one of those Trump tactics where he keeps people guessing, and he isn't really serious when he talks about the propaganda of Assad using "chemical weapons on children."

Who knows... only time will tell... but this will be the biggest backstab to Trump supporters if Trump sells out and goes to war with Assad. We just have to wait and see.

*Edit* just look at this shit

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

My situation

Today, I had a realization. I am living in a very similar environment as I was living when I was living in LA. Life is not as chaotic as it was back then, but it is still a big mess.

So I got back into playing World of Warcraft on a vanilla server. I hit 20 on Elysium

And Then I thought to myself, "there are too many people here, and it's hard to level." Plus, server went down every single day for almost 2 weeks. So, I rerolled on the less populated server-Zeth'Kur. I hit level 13

Then, after learning about all the drama on Elysium, I tried to make a suggestion. But then, I read in the suggestion section, that the staff would not even hear my suggestion. I wanted to suggest they create a separate 15x server. The staff said not to even bother asking for this, and that they will always be "true 1x Blizzlike server". I thought to myself "I can't take this anymore." I barely have any time, and any free time I have I end up spending in this game trying to level to 60. On top of that, blizzard could just come in and shut down the server at any moment, like they did Nostalrius. And all of those months if not years you spent into your character, would go down the toilet. So, again I rerolled on VanillaGaming, which is a much less populated server but at least they are 15x. So you spend 15 less time leveling and grinding. So, with the limited amount of time I have, I hit 60 within about 2 weeks

I played so much, that every free time I had I spent in this game. It got so bad, that tendons in my hands started to hurt. I was actually trying to recover from this, but playing this game made it 10 times worse. I'm officially on a one week sabbatical starting today from playing this game.

The realization that I had, was that if I keep doing what I'm doing, I will never recover from my real-life problems. I keep trying to escape my life, whether it's playing WoW, or having out of body experiences, I always end up being here in my body, miserable, lonely, and complaining about my circumstance.

I live in in-law, and sometimes all the walking that happens above me gets a little overwhelming. I keep trying to want to be left alone in peace. But today I realized that if that happens, I will always be poor. I will always live in cheap places, with noise problems, and ghetto people. Like my roommate for example. After she and her friends heard me listening to Trump speeches, as well as some Red Ice Radio interviews (I am a member), she and all the people that come by to visit her started to act really weird. She's Mexican. Instead of asking me or talking to me about Trump, she automatically put me in a box, judging me and looking down on me. These are the type of people I will always be around, unless I get off my ass and do something to change my life.

I even posted on the things that I can do to make lots of money, but all I do is watch these law of attraction videos fantasizing about the good life, instead of working hard to get there.

So, the realization today was that I have to create a Long term goal plan, write it down, and work every single day to achieve it. I want to start small. I really want to get a certificate this year. I'm thinking between a Mac, Network+ (I heard that you automatically get A+ -mine expired), or Windows 10. At the same time, I should start reading books that I always wanted to read. I have two books that have been laying around for two years. Plus, one Seth Book that I have been reading for almost one year! I need to find a way to create a plan where I read little by little everyday, instead of surfing the Internet and wasting my life in this dead end game.

For anyone that is still reading my blog... Wish me luck, because I sure as hell need it.

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Sicario, the Greatest Movie possibly EVER!

this type of films is why I used to watch movies in the first place. too bad most of them are nothing like this today...

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Shia getting Trolled

lol@these shitlibs. AltRight, bitch. you can't stop it...

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Thinking of playing WoW

So they just opened a new vanilla wow server, Elysium project. and I'm thinking of trying one character. I just want to see how far I can go and if I even enjoy it. Contemplating of not playing because my hands are messed up and I need to fix my life. I'm still suffering from the same issues of self-esteem not having friends and never having a girlfriend. I am almost 40 but at the same time... My life consisted of a lot of work coming back home , and watching YouTube videos. I mean I hang out with my friend and we go out a lot when I am with her but outside that I stay home. So maybe I should have a little bit of fun while I'm not doing nothing. I mean I do a little bit of Photoshop when I fix my photos and I'm learning how to edit videos too. But maybe I should take a break in between Play some WoW.

I am not sure if I'll go through this but if I do we will be for like a few days to about a week. After that I'll either quit or playing moderation. We'll see what decide. But I never actually experience vanilla wow. I join a private server in BC and had lot of fun in a world PVP. Maybe if I do like it, I'll see if I can purchase a 60 on the Phoenix server. But most likely I am not going to join for serious purposes. Because that requires a lot of dedication. And I just don't have that kind of time anymore.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Funniest Youtube Channel


and Richard Branson is a piece of useless shit that said he will do everything to stop Brexit. fucking cuck.

Friday, February 3, 2017

when is Obama going to jail?

so I know this is old, but seems like (((the media))) just swept this whole story under the rug. we had a Kenyan muslim running America for the last 8 years, and his supporters still think he did a good job not even realizing he was destroying this country until his last day in office.

I don't get it. what happened to this country? where is the justice? how could someone who wasn't even born in the U.S. get into the most powerful position in the whole world, and all his democRAT pals are mad at Trump because he wants to put America and its citizens first?

2 months later, I still can't believe at how under the radar this whole scandal went. the entire system is skewed to protect the leftist communist scum, and vilify conservatives who dig for and try to uncover the truth. but know one thing, the truth ALWAYS comes up to the surface. the harder you suppress it, the more it will blow up in everyones' faces...

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Internet is for PORN!!

lmao! I can't believe I didn't know about this till now. I just found it somehow by someone mentioning this was the #1 most famous videos. man, it brings back some memorries in WoW. Beta testing vanilla for 2 weeks was the most fascinating 2 weeks of my life. I barely slept on weekends, and is why I did not buy the game at launch. I knew it would consume my life and I needed to focus on college. then when I came back in BC, it was the best thing ever. I used to gank Horde sometimes with a few friends for hours outside of Black Temple. PvP was exciting. I ran Stealth Raids into Orgrimmar with Rogues and Druids. We would take a mage with us as decoy, and all of us Stealthed so no one can spot us. then we'd lure one or 2 Horde attacking our Mage into a secluded spot. then BAM 10 US JUMP OUT AND GANK THE SHIT OUT OF THEM!! and then relocate. we did this for hours till Horde organize and get a group of 20 and wipe us. then we'd regroup and go again. man... the excitement and then the World PvP was AMAZING! the community was my favorite aspect of the game. it felt MASSIVE. evrybody is helping each other an come out to PvP Horde when you call foe hlep. now this game is shit. everyone is always Busy. No one ever wants to help. The game today is shit. It's more of a single player game. You do everything alone. And the queues combined servers together. So the people you do dungeons and PvP with you never see again. Blizzard completely ruined this game.

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

If The Left Ever Regains Power, We Are Fucked

The best and most accurate article I read in 2017 so far.

From these leftist communist scum celebrating White Genocide, to laughing at Richard Spencer, a Right-wing race realist patriot, getting sucker punched by an Antifa fag, the liberals will show no mercy to any of us once and if they ever get into power again. The way America will head, is the way South Africa of today is going-White Genocide. And the death and extermination of whites will be celebrated for decades to come by communist pieces of human garbage.

Trump's victory is indeed a miracle, like the article says. I just hope he does all the right things-dismantles Common Core, throws these Frankfurt School parasites in jail, keeps attacking MSM until their inevitable death comes, bans 3rd world immigration, etc.. If not, we are truly fucked.

Monday, January 2, 2017

my first Ayahuasca experience

I have been wanting to drink ayahuasca for years. but after seeing Metamorphosis, I didn't want to go near that brew with a 10 feet pole. It was hands down the scariest documentary I have ever seen. and believe me, I have seen them all. It was like watching the Exorcist happen in real life. that film completely made me abandon and forget this tea for over a year. I had so much fear just thinking about sipping a cup, it was like my 2012 doomsday scenario all over again.

The hardest part of the experience was the waiting time after singing up for the ceremony, and the counting down of days to the last minute of me drinking that first cup. It was as if time slowed down, and I was being tortured by my own ego with fear and paranoia. I'd wake up in the middle of the night to use the restroom, and then being frightened to go back to sleep, thinking about how my first experience was going to be. The entire reason why I really wanted to do this, was because I needed healing. I felt like I needed to suck it up, and go through with it. Because if I didn't, I may be fucked up for the rest of my life. And my entire goal in life, is to grow as much as possible before I leave this place.

I drove quiet a bit to get to the location, and once there I was the scariest person in the room. There was only one other person at the circle who was drinking it for the first time-a lady a little older than me. Everyone else seemed calm, including the lady herself, and relaxed. I was talking about my fears and concerns with everyone I met. What really made me just a tiny bit less scared, was the fact that this wasn't a traditional Peruvian ceremony-which is done in the dark. it was a Brazilian circle instead, with lights on and constant singing. I am very sensitive and was really freaking out by all the crazy visuals I may have been experiencing. That was my biggest fear-going to hell and stuff like that.

1st Night

One guy was assigned to me to be my guide, just in case I get freaked out. And I was freaking out quiet a bit. I was actually quiet calm until it was time to drink the first cup. Then I was getting more and more scared. When it came time to actually drink it, I was frozen, scared like a little girl. I asked for half a cup, and even then it took me about 5 minutes to drink the entire thing, sipping little by little. The taste was bitter and unpleasant, but not as awful as all those people described when going to Peru. I didn't feel anything until I drank the 2nd cup an hour later. 30 mins into the 2nd cup, it really hit me. My first thoughts were "I will never do this again". I felt this sudden rush with ayahuasca going from my hands to my head, until I started to get really woozy and drunk.

I wanted to throw up right away, but it was really hard so could not. I started to moan while suffering. I laid down and started seeing a dark field, with green molecules everywhere with eyes closed. Got really scared of seeing freaky things, and opened eyes. I did not witness anything after that, as we were in a circle singing songs with bright lights on. It was impossible to have visualizations with bright lights, even with my eyes closed. Part of the reason was because I did not purge. The 3rd glass was only half full (not by choice), and I didn't feel much. Music at the end was too loud; impossible to sleep or relax.

2nd Night

The second night was way easier to experience ayahuasca, as I didn't have as much fear but was a little nervous. I realized that I was freaking out for no reason. My fear was of all the crazy stuff I thought would happen to me, but none of it ever did. I just did what my guide, who was absent this time around, told me-"whatever you experience, go through with it."

I was nervous and afraid a little, but drank my first cup without a problem straight away. About 30 minutes later, I could feel ayahuasca flow through my arms, body, and brain. A little further into the ceremony, I got drunk on this vine; it was hard to focus on singing or even seeing and reading the lyrics. I laid down & eventually left the room to get away from everybody and especially lights.

I vaguely saw patterns, but no memorable visualizations. I didn't want to purge at all this time, but cried a little while was in the room with everyone. I gotta say that on ayahuasca, time doesn't exist. At some point, I got lost in the inner world; was laying there for 40 minutes or so without realizing about my body. I was going back and forth like this, escaping into myself having no clue on where exactly I was upon coming back into my body. Just laying there on the couch, with pain and suffering escaping me with each breath I exhaled.

I received the biggest dose on my 3rd cup, and at some point my vision got blurry when I left the room to lay on the couch with dimmed lights. It was hard to see, so I closed my eyes and was just trying to have visuals. But they never came. Once ayahuasca gets into your blood stream, and into your brain, you get intoxicated, and it becomes really hard to focus. All you want to do is lay down.

Ayahuasca was definitely not what I expected. The best way I could describe it, is a warm blanket. It feels hard at times, but cozy in the end. I did not go very deep, but feel like I really needed this. I asked the brew to go easy on me, and it did. A month later, I felt like it cleansed my brain of all the chaos. I was feeling a little crazy at around the summer, like I was on the verge of going insane. Ayahuasca took that away from me completely. After this ceremony, I now understand why Shamans in the Amazon drink it in the dark. It's not because of how some may think that the Shamanic world is "dark" and "evil". But it's mostly because in complete darkness, you could go far more deeper into the experience, and into yourself. I just wish the people at this Brazilian ceremony explained some things to me, like to close your eyes and try to visualize and then hold onto your visualizations. Because if you don't, you won't have any, which was my case. It was as if you were on your own, unless you got assigned a helper like in my case. But it was good for my first time, and I am proud of myself for facing my biggest fears, doing exactly what I wanted to do.