Sunday, May 24, 2015

Lucid Dreaming Tea

I ordered the "Guayusa & Coconut" one, since I love coconut. And surprisingly, it tasted awful. Not the Guayusa itself, but the coconut, which was grinded into a powder. I found myself dipping the bottom part of Guayusa in the hot cup, trying my best to leave out the coconut mixing in with the tea. I drank it every morning, and even before bed, and I don't remember any significant differences of having any sort of Lucid Dreams. I had Lucid Dreams or Out-of-Body Experiences only when I took naps (was doing reality checks every 15-30 minutes). I also googled Guayusa, and didn't seem to find any of its properties being 'inducing a Lucid Dream', or anything like that. Maybe the guy just created the "Lucid Dreaming Tea" name as a business slogan. I don't know. I got a free sample of "Guayusa & Rooibos", which tasted much better. I wish I would've ordered that initially. Anyway, this herb wasn't anything where it induces dream like trances or even helps you to be more awake in your dream. This was at least my experience. If you tried this tea before and had different outcomes, please share them. Thanks.

Saturday, May 16, 2015

The Greatest Prison Story I've Ever Seen

Taken from Locked up Abroad, this has got to be the greatest episode I have seen on that show. Saw it coincidentally last night. It was so good, that I found it, and watched it again today. Didn't even know there is a movie based on this guy's life, which is based on his book. Funny how he wanted to write a book, and he got the story of his life. Like he was pre-destined to experience everything he had. Unbelievable story, and it had me hooked on it like I was watching a movie. Will go out and watch Oliver Stone movie soon.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Geert Wilders

...always speaks the truth! I can't believe how fucking stupid some politicians are today. they'd rather sound politically correct, than say it like it is. Growing up in a Muslim country, I felt this hate, and ignorance first hand from muslims who are bread on Islam, and I was only 8 years old. 8 years old! How the hell do you manage to fill so much hate in your young kids' hearts that they would go out messing with other little boys (in groups of course), because they are non-muslim? Islam is a plague to our planet. People need to wake up, and understand what we're dealing with here. If I had to describe Islam in one word, it would be a virus

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Kanye West's latest form of Ignorance

so Kanye's new song is out named "All Day". Great musical piece, but lyrics are ignorant, as always. What else did you expect from Kanye West? Let's look at how many times he uses the word "nigga"

Here is a clean version, because I cannot for the life of me listen to the ignorance more than once on the explicit song. Lyrics posted below the video... let's count...

All day, nigga

[Theophilus London:]
Dead, ayy, ayy ayy ayy

All day, nigga (added. wasn't on the site, but is part of a song)

[Kanye West:]
How long you niggas ball? All day, nigga
How much time you spent at the mall? All day, nigga
How many runners do you got on call? All day, nigga
Swish, swish, how long they keep you in court? All day, nigga
Take you to get this fly? All day, nigga
Tell your P.O. how-how long you been high? All day, nigga
You already know I’m straight from the Chi, all day, nigga
South, south, south side! All day, nigga

This Ye, nigga
Shoppin' for the winter, and it’s just May, nigga
Ball so hard, man, this shit cray, nigga
And you ain't gettin' money 'less you got eight figures
For that Jesus piece, man, I've been saved, nigga
Just talked to Farrakhan, that's sensei, nigga
Told him I've been on ten since the 10th grade, nigga
Got a middle finger longer than Dikembe, my nigga, uh
I don't let 'em play with me
I don't let 'em talk to me no kind of way
Uh, they better watch what they say to me
Niggas still gettin' popped on the day to day
Though I still got the 100 with the small face, nigga
Might spend 50 racks on my off day, nigga
You a fake Denzel like the Allstate nigga
If you run into me, better have Allstate with you, uh
You a Rico Suave, nigga
Ride around listening to Sade, nigga
If you ain't with us, you in our way, nigga
You an actor, you should be on Broadway, nigga
Cause you do shit the broad way, nigga
Your bitch got an ass, but my broad way thicker
Late for the class, in the hallway, nigga
Yeah, the dropout at it as always, nigga, as always

All day, nigga

[Allan Kingdom:]
I took a deep sweet breath, and I reached into my head
Gave him what I had left
At that moment I dispersed
At that moment I dispersed

[Kanye West:]
All day, nigga

How-h-how long you ball? All day, nigga
How much time you spent at the mall? All day, nigga
How long it take you to get this fly? All day, nigga
Tell your P.O. how-how long you been high? All day, nigga
Pour some Hen out for my niggas that died, all day, nigga
And I keep a bad bitch on the passenger side, all day, nigga
You already know that I’m straight from the Chi, all day, nigga
South, south, south side! All day, nigga

I could do this all day, boy, I'm finna turn this bitch out
They need that Ye in the streets, boy, there's been a motherfucking drought
Don't really matter what I make, boy, you know I still go wild
Like a light skinned slave, boy, we in the mothafuckin' house
Right now, lookin' real sus right now
I swear I've been on this flight like a month right now
Stupid niggas gettin' money, Forrest Gump right now
Shout-out to Jackie Chan, I need to stunt right now
They've been lookin' at the Gram, I've been lookin' at the Grammys
Like, woo, that's us right now
24/7, 365 days, everybody gettin' paid
Niggas lookin' at me like I'm worth both MJs
People saying, "Ye, Ye, take it easy"
20 Gs for the Yeezy's off of eBay
Niggas do the most and they ain't done shit
Only way I can sum it up, son of a bitch

[Theophilius London:]
(Hands up, hands up)
Some want you dead, ayy, ayy ayy ayy

[Kanye West:]
All day, nigga

[Allan Kingdom:]
I took a deep sweet breath, and I reached into my head
Gave him what I had left
At that moment I dispersed
At that moment I dispersed

[Kanye West:]
Get low, alright
Get low, alright
What up? Alright, alright
Stay low, alright
Stay low, alright
South, south, south side, all day nigga

[Guitar Interlude: Paul McCartney]

Well, well, well
Let me run
Let me run to see who came undone
You've been right in my face
Let me run 'til you're off my case
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

45 times Kanye West says "nigga" on All Day, which should technically be named All Day Nigga, 46th time.

And what is he rapping about? killing people? getting bodied? going to the mall? shopping sprees? fucking hot bitches? is he trying really hard to appeal to real gangster crowd to gain more street cred? I have absolutely no respect for this self-absorbed ego maniac. I remember watching his interview with Sway. Don't remember which one it was, but Sway kept asking him questions, and Kanye kept going off on tantrums and off the subject completely because his precious ego was hurt. It was fucking pathetic and really hard to watch. It was cringe worthy. This man just set the black community 20 years back with this song. How can he have fans that aren't ignorant themselves? They gotta be some ignorant asses or just blind to ignore such fuckary coming out of Kanye's mouth. Somebody please link me the instrumental version. Even the clean version fries my brain.

Listening to this song, make me wanna say nigga. Nigga... Nigga nigga nigga! I'm gonna go replay the song and rhyme "nigga" to every rhyme he spits saying nigga. Because saying nigga is so cool. Damn this nigga is talented! His rhymes are fucking classic, nigga! Like illmatic my nigga! I really don't know nothing about illmatic, or don't even like most of the album. But it's just so cool to say that, my nigga. Aiight  nigga. I'm out my nigga. Gonna smoke a blunt, nigga. Then go call my girl, nigga, and eat her cunt, nigga.

LMAO@black people being mad at everyone using nigga, especially whites. Thank your boy, Kanye, and others like him in the rap game for making this word what it is. You got all the young people, young boys and girls, of every race, acting ignorant being brain dead zombies that people like Kanye creates. Can't get mad at anybody but rappers like this who help to perpetuate stereotypes.

aiight. peace, niggas! I'm out this bitch right now, nigga. Fo real this time, nigga. Gonna go edit some movies on Adobe Premier Pro, my niggas.

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Saturday, May 9, 2015

False Awakening & OBE

So, just this morning when I woke up, I had my first false awakening. I had a long dream, and then... I wake up. I check my computer, and it says that it's snowing outside. I think WTF!? can't be real. I look outside, and there is Arizona desert like mountains, with snow around them! I do a reality check, and it feels blurry. I realize I am dreaming. Then I woke self up to prove it to myself. But once I did, I regretted it realizing I could have had a LD and went flying somewhere.

Now, I had an OBE a few days ago, in which I was stuck as usual. I normally don't share my OBEs because in 95% of them I seem to be stuck like this. But here it is, word for word from my dream journal on my tablet.

Can't seem to separate no matter what I do. At first, laying in bed repeating 'I will have a lucid dream'. Then I have a feeling like my legs are floating but I'm stuck. I hear 2 men talk in some alien language I never heard before. it was like listening to the radio. I got scared at first when I started thinking about vast emptiness, darkness, and nothingness that stretches across the universe, and how lucky I am to be here on earth where I actually experience colors, shapes, sizes, forms, and most importantly light. Then I calmed self down, visualizing my REBAL.

I keep trying to separate as the 2 men talk, but I'm stuck. I move head side to side, and hear my hair rubbing across the bed head board. Try rolling out. Can't move at all. See room in grey with a little bit of light, as always. See a black object on the top right. Tried seeing what it was but no luck. Eventually, when started thinking about how long more this will last, I could feel it fading. Next time I won't think about end.

Friday, May 8, 2015

Running in Circles

Story of my fucking life

Tinashe - Indigo Child

it's funny how one song could mean 100 different things to 100 different people. Some person who is into the whole new age is gonna listen to this and think 'wow! I am an indigo child too! I have special abilities' etc.. Whether or not that is true, that is what that person is gonna think. For me... I have been running in circles since I hit 18, the so called "age of independence" where many teens get kicked out of their homes in America. But I come from a different culture, and so my mom let me stay. And on top of that, she made all the decisions for me. She made decisions from anything like paying my rent, and supporting me, to what I would eat in the morning. It got so bad, that whenever I go to a grocery store, I don't even know what I want. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF A STORE FILLED WITH FOOD!!!

Running in circles. That's what I've been doing damn near all my life. I have improved tremendously, and I am grateful for that. But I have been stuck in this situation of not having anything of my own, I don't know how to break the cycle. This song just really resonated with me, at least part of it, and I just wanted to post it.

Sunday, May 3, 2015

last week I ate Meat

so my lazy ass been meaning to blog about this, and I finally got around to do it.

I have been having sexual problems where I am completely impotent, and not care about sex whatsoever. The irony is, my incel ass can't get laid for shit, but at least I wanted to feel good I still have a sex drive. I tried many things like taking ginseng herb, drinking pomegranate juice, and eating figs, and nothing worked. So, I thought maybe it's because I haven't eaten meat for so long. Being a pesciterian and only eating fish every now and then could take its toll on you.

So, as I was hanging around my tranny friend on weekends I ate cheese because of her. She eats dairy products sometimes, and meat as well. Then about 2 weeks ago I said fuck it, let me experiment. I did the whole ritual of praying over the dead animal I was about to eat, apologizing for all the pain the humans have caused it, then consumed it like there was no tomorrow. I ate beef a total of 5 times. But my sex drives hasn't really improved. I mean, it did but only because I been practicing tantra by myself spanking my monkey without cumming for days at a time. It sort of builds up and it feels like it's the best nut ever that you never really bust. Sexually energy comes in waves. The high when you feel amazing and horny, and low when you don't even have any sort of pleasure doing the act. I guess that's how it works when you get old.

Either way, life goes on. I am stopping eating meat again. I really need to detox and get rid all the poison in my body and especially my mind. Eating meat is not my primary problem, even though it could be a part of it.