strip club and a bar

my extended family cousin came from Maryland, and me and his friend went out to a bar first, then a strip club.

so we went to a bar and had a few beers, i had one because i was driving, and then hit up a strip club. i was wondering how this whole thing is gonna go because this guy is very out there with people. he knew everybody in his dorm in college, and has a lot of friends. he ran through a shit load of fine bitches and i was wondering how his reality is in a bar. and to my surprise he was just there with us looking at women, commenting on how hot they were and then saying how much he loves it. so damn, i'm real confused because he was telling me when he goes out he throws out his vibe to 18 or so different women. but i guess maybe he didn't do that out of respect for us or something, i dont know. i don't think he was lying. but he was telling us how he was going out with this girl for 6 months and she was one of the most boring, annoying girls ever. the only reason why he stayed with her was cuz having sex with her was the greatest thing on the planet earth. i guess thats how some girls are. they are shallow as hell and dumb as a rock but guys put up with their shit because when it's time to bone these broads know what time it is and it's like the best pussy ever. there was this extremely thick blond girl at that bar and i was eyeing her for a little then stopped cuz i had no idea what to do. she looks back but i don't know whether it's to look or cuz she was feeling me. should i eye her then come up to her or should i not do that because i'm with friends? the guy who is all social and extroverted not even doing it. should i? i didn't know what the fuck to do so i did what i always do-nothing!

then we hit up a strip club. it was a dirty place one girl offered sex to him. a few girls approached me asking if i want to go with them (in other words the stupid bitches wanted money) and yada yada yada. omg strip clubs are amazing because the rules change completely opposite from a club/bar. it's funny as hell seeing these desperate bitches run around the club coming up to every guy trying to get that extra dollar. sort of reminds them and makes them see how it is for a guy in an actual bar. funniest thing to me is seeing these rules all of the sudden change. it's my second time in a strip club too. still kinda feel weird about that atmosphere and i was nervous as fuck when i was sitting there thinking any of these women may approach me. i'm not used to talking to females especially the ones that look this good.

then we came home and got high with my bong. my cousin went on facebook showing us pics of girls he fucked and thats when he told us about that crazy psycho girl who wouldn't stop on red lights and giggle afterwards. and she was this skinny Asian girl. i mean she was fine as fuck but she was skinny as hell! i was thinking to myself "ok man i see why you liked getting that ass but damn she looks young like a teen and skinny." anyway, i was just thinking about my life and shit and after they went to sleep got depressed. now it's almost 6:30 am and i can't sleep. it's like my cousin has good parents, comes from a good home, has brothers and sisters, and he's so well off in life. comparing myself to him makes me feel suicidal. it's like damn i'm no different then him but yet i'm all alone and shit. i mean of course my upbringing and surroundings were completely different then his, in and outside of home. but he's surrounded by so many cool people and many of them are fine ass women. and this guy doesn't even have nice clothes, and his hair cut looks like shit! it's crazy how much language is important in this world. people take it for granted and those who are in his situation think that people like me are some weirdos because we have a hard time using language when around others (i personally have a really hard time asking others what i want.. whether it's a raise, to be somebody's friend, or to tell a woman i'm really feeling her.) we are the less fortunate, whether we are locked up behind bars and dont know how to behave in public or whether we don't cause any trouble but yet have a real hard time functioning in this world. it's all the same shit. misguided youth looking for a way to reprogram ourselves but yet we don't know where to look for help or should we even look at all. some don't want to change though, but i do just don't know how.

but anyway im gonna go to bed i wanna get at least 6 hours of sleep. wanna talk to my cousin tomorrow about some serious shit and hopefully his friend won't be there. or if he is i'm gonna get his # and call him up later on.