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Social Momentum - Week 1 + Asking an Aryan Girl out

Social Momentum

So, I stopped going out to clubs for the most part and drinking. At some point, my body started to reject alcohol. What I did on the weekends was the following:

• Prepare alcohol - I first started out with Corona, later on started preparing Vodka
• Go to a new/different club on Friday and/or Saturday
• Park my car and drink the alcohol - at first I'd drink 1 Corona, and then buy more liquor inside the club to get lose. Later, I prepared 4 vodka shots mixed with cranberry juice. This really saved me money. I'd drink the whole 4 shots right away. This really helped with PTSD and to calm my nerves

But at some point, what started to happen was my body started to reject alcohol. My body isn't of someone who drinks or can drink too much. So I cannot handle liquor like certain men. I first started to throw up literally each time I drank my 4 shots of vodka approximately 2-3 hours afterwards. And then headaches started to hit me, and hit me hard. I thought it was because I got cheap alcohol. I had about 20% left of Sobieski (Polish Vodka), so I dumped it all. Then bought Stalichnaya (very popular and more pricey Russian Vodka), but then the result was the same!

And what I'd do after the club is beat myself up "why didn't you approach so and so girl! She was your type! You could've said something you idiot!" But then the problem was this. I didn't talk to any strangers throughout my day. And when it was time to go out, I tried to talk to people to warm up, and then girls. It was like going from nothing, to everything. Unfortunately, this is how most men are (minus even warming up with strangers). They think by going out to a club, they'll find the right girl. But if they haven't warmed up for the day, week, month, etc.. socially, nothing magical is going to happen at night. Unless they are good with women already. And from my experience, most men aren't.

So, this whole week I have been warming up as much as I could. It really opened my eyes after watching this video (mainly the part where he mentions starting to form a habit of being social with strangers




It's still really difficult, as I am not used to it, but I am trying my best and hopefully will stick with it.


Asking an Aryan Girl out

So at my current job, there is a party each month. And all the people come with their co-workers. There is liquor, music, food, and all for free. I have been going there almost each month by myself. It's really nerve wrecking for me, but I go anyway. I warm up with people and managed to approach some girls a few times this year. But never closed the deal (this is my sticky point).

So yesterday, I go to the party by myself as usual. Then after having food, drink water, and chit chatting with some strangers here and there, my coworker spots me. I was like holy crap! You're the first coworker I've seen at these gatherings. He takes me where the rest of them are, and I join them. There is this really pretty Aryan girl there (not with the group, but with another group literally next to us).

I saw her before, but didn't say anything. I chit chat with my co-workers and 2 guys are drinking beer getting drunk. Then I end up talking with one of these guys, as others form another group amongst themselves talking with each other. We start talking about women, and for like 15 mins I am eyeing this girl but make sure she doesn't spot me. She was dressed casual, jeans, sneakers, and nothing fancy, sexual, or revealing. Then I'm like holy crap, she is so my type! Tall, nicely built, Scandinavian looking. I was really nervous cus I was thinking to approach her but didn't. Then finally, I tell my coworker to hang on for a sec. I open her up and start with a chit chat. Then introduce myself and him. Then this dude.... HIJACKS THE WHOLE CONVERSATION! He already has a g/f, but he's a good talker. So, he was like ME ME ME! I this, I that, etc.. I talked 20% of the time with her, and him 80. But the girl seemed really laid back, and open minded. Like she's really easy to talk with and not weird or socially awkward.

She was from Canada, and was just at our company for the summer. Finally, when he broke away to chat about something with our group I asked her if she dates shorter guys than her. She was about 6'0", I am 5'10". She was like "no". And then she followed up with "I am not looking. But I am flattered". After a few mins, she says nice to meet you, etc.. and goes back to her group. This was literally the first time I asked a girl out at these parties. I will keep going, though. It's much harder to do this alone. If I wasn't there with our group, I would've left 30 mins before I did. I'd feel creepy af standing by those girls by myself. Maybe my inner game is something else I need to improve.

Russian Rap

Wiggers in Russia... who could've thought. I thought Timoti that black wanna be faggot was the only one. Jews dont even have to take control of the nation and pour the poison of Cultural Marxism into the Russian television, these kids practically brainwash themselves. their brains are fried by this disgusting trash of black thug culture. they hate their own heritage, abondon tradition and family values, and become low life thugs obsessed with sex, drugs, money, cars, and being hard. I dont think most even realize how much poison this hip hop culture spreads throughout the world. It is BANNED in China. Smart people. the rest nations need to do the same. If i had a son (or daughter), he wouldn't go anywhere near this filth



PHARAOH – BLACK SIEMENS (PROD. BY FROZENGANGBEATZ)

found more hip hop poison from Russia

FACE - БУРГЕР (prod. by PackMan)

South African Boer escaped to China

This was so good, I had to post it. Those disgusting black communists killing White African farmers, torturing families and even children to death, after raping a wife in front of her husband. Boiling whites alive in some cases. Really sick shit. And then they wonder why the world hates blacks. The biggest rude assholes i have ever seen and had the misfortune of dealing with. Yeah, I guess I am racist for pointing out the truth. Anyway, watch this video! The LIGHT at the end of the tunnel for Boers. First, Russia takes them as refugees (God bless Putin!), and now China

Russian Hard Bass

I am glad Russians are creating their own music culture now. Proud of my brothers! I remember in 2009 after college i got real home sick, and wondered what it was like... All I could find was a bunch of wigger wanna bes making rap. it was pathetic. I came across one American white dude living in Moscow. he had a blog, and in it he said "Since perestroika, Russians seem to be having some sort of an identity crisis. A rapper named Timoti is a good example. He is some sort of a rich rapper guy. etc.." And Timoti is a big time wigger tough guy. like Eminem basically. And all else i could find was some Fascist, Nazi bands cuz in the 90s, lotta immigrants from neighboring countries and even from Africa were coming into Russia to 1) study in college or 2) work for low wages. so, many Russians were pissed (blacks were practically scared to go outside after dark. Russians aren't cucked like American whites. so blacks and other minorities know their place in the society. and if they act out or have a chimp out moment, Russians will beat them up pretty bad and even kill them.) Russians were getting no jobs, and invaded by non-Russians at the same time. Russia for Russians sort of Fascist movements came outta that, like in Europe among whites today.. even in Ukraine. anyway...

good shit. keep it up! glad real Russian music is taking off among young slavs. I wanna hear Poland Hard Bass next...





*Bonus Track*

I can't get enough of this. probably listened to it 100x at least

My Date with an Indian Girl

so today, I had a date with the Indian girl I last blogged about. I thought she was gonna flake and not respond, like most of my female interactions, but she didn't. We met up at our work's cafeteria. I was really busy, and had another appointment with a user at 1pm. She wanted to meet at 12:30, so I was in a rush.

I had doubts about asking her out over the weekend. I didn't really take a good look at her, and kept wondering if she's my type. But when I got there I was like damn she's pretty! But again, I still don't know. I am a Libra and we are picky af! Anyway, I got my food already, found a seat, and told her where it is while she stood in line.

As she joined me, we chit chatted and then it happened. Me being me-inexperienced, and haven't had a date in close to 5 years (if not longer). We had awkward moments but they didn't last that long. She filled them up with movies she watched, and I filled them in with some other crap I don't remember. All in all, I don't know. I think she likes me but you can never be too sure. Girls are weird. They act interested and flake, or not call back, and all just to be nice and not make you feel rejected. Even though that is exactly what they are doing.

How do I feel about this whole thing? Like I feel about everything in my life. Ashamed. Ashamed of not having experience with women, ashamed of not being exciting and fun to be around, ashamed of revealing this side of me to her. But I can't say it was that bad. I think I am just too hard on myself. I was doing what I usually do on dates, hiding. I am afraid what people around may hear when I speak, so I don't speak loud enough. It's really bad, but I guess it comes from feeling shame about everything in my life. I used to be a lot worse, though. I would be this way ALL THE TIME, EVERYWHERE, WITH EVERYBODY! I have at least improved a lot when it comes to people, and improved a little bit when it comes to women where I managed to ask this girl out. 99% of the times I don't, even though there could be all these signs of interest. I am too afraid of what others around will think, and I prevent myself from living my life.

Towards the end I said "We should do this again sometimes" before leaving. She said sure. I added "outside of this place[work]"... If anything comes out of it, I'll blog about it. If not, then even better. So that I don't have to deal with this shit. I feel like I am a 16 year old stuck in a 38 year old body. Can't even imagine how bad I will be at sex, if it ever gets to that...

I asked an Indian Girl out at work...

I know, I know... after getting red-pilled, I am 100% against race-mixing. But I am not planning on having children, so I think I am good.

I did not think I was going to do this. I haven't asked a woman out in a loooooooong ass time. And frankly, I am frightened to show any woman my lonely world. Which is why I don't ask any women out. But today at work I was helping this girl out, and she is so my type. Big girl, curvy, BBW kind. I am in IT so I was setting up her laptop. There wasn't any social pressure since we were in a private room. Then I lead the conversation to eventually bringing out the part that she is from India (took me like 3x ffs). Then it was Bollywood > Padmavatti (my favorite movie of 2018) > Shiva Goddess, etc.. and from there she was very cool. Showed me I.O.I.'s and everything. She was very surprised about my knowledge of Indian culture.

I really felt the tension, and was thinking about asking her out but hesitated 2x. Then finally I ask "Would you like to have lunch sometime?" She paused for 2 seconds...... then said yes. Then before leaving, she said "yeah, email me so we can have lunch". I guess she really likes me. She is kinda short, though. I think 5'2", or even shorter. But DAMN she is thick!

I don't know. I am really afraid about race-mixing, but not like we're going to have sex next time. It may not even work out. I just hope she won't try to use me to get a green card cuz her VISA expires in 2020. Will post more details soon...