Monday, May 4, 2009

I really hate living here

living around my family is like living in a conditioned house where everything is the way it is because of the people you live around. the furniture is like from Medieval times, there is nothing about this place that screams technology other then the 40 something inch LCD they bought recently. like i bought this device for measuring energy for this fucker and he used today for the first time. he just plugged it in. lmao i was like wtf? is he ok? you supposed to plug in the other device into it, measure the energy, and plug it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omfggggggggggg!! everything is old fashioned here. even the fucking dishwasher is disabled and i cant do dishes like normal people!!! we had an old one but they unplugged it, took it out and threw it away! got a brand new one just so it looks nice and not even plug the damn thing in!!! using their hands to do dishes like a bunch of old farts!!! they think they save water that way.

we were eating today and my mom's b/f starts talking about cat poop, then how kitties poop is diff from reg cat poop. then my mom started saying the difference and how they dig holes and shit so im sitting there thinking WTF!?!?!!? ARE YOU ALL FUCKING STUPID, RETARDED, OR BOTH? FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!! IM EATING HERE YOU MORONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i swear, living here is like being in a nut house. we got insects in the house because they keep windows open as well as the front door (minus the metal gate thank GOD!) so it "clears out the house" when this fucking city is cold as fuck and when i wake up i feel like i come outside when i leave my room. huge mosquitos, moths, spiders, even found an ant last night crawling on a fucking door!!! shit!!!!!!!! this place is horrible to live in.

then the asshole boyfriend always trying to impress me and shit. like yesterday i was saying how alcohol screws me up and he's like "well, not marijuana apparently" like he knows about me and shit. next time he brings it up again, and he always does, ill tell him wtf he talking about always trying to impress me. fucking idiot. just when i gain respect for him thinking gee this guy really cares about me.. he says some stupid shit to make my respect jump down back to zero. he's an ego driven maniac. a "stand up guy".

and my mom is so socially awkward. when i punish her for being socially awkward she gets mad at me and her b/f is all "what an asshole" so im supposed to reward her for being socially awkward and when i go out into the real world in social settings im as fucked up as her in social situations. i really fucking hate this place but one day death will set me free. that's the only thing i can really think of when ill truly be free. i mean ill be better when i get my own place but ill need to do a lot of work on myself to recover from this shit hole im in right now.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

lmfao

Paz said...

it's time you move out. you graduating in like a month or whatever... but it's time for you to move out. i have the sense that you'll prolly feel lonely when you do and might be depressed. but homie, hold your head though. it's a fucking recession going on out here. the summer ain't impressive as they say it's gonna be. hold your head and stay up.