Saturday, May 3, 2008

I think i just pushed away my childhood friend

i sent her an e-mail weeks ago and haven't heard back. damn, i think i did it. i must've said something to offend her and pushed her away. why do i always do this? push people away from me. it's as if i dont want nobody to be close to me. and no matter how much i want the connection and the relationships with people, at some point i will do something on a subconscious level that will make them leave. it's like i'm doing it without knowing i'm doing it until it's over.

i hope this is not the case with her, but it could be. this is why i always think negative when i have any sort of connections with others. i know what is going on and it's just a matter of time before i say something or do something that will make them leave.

i just e-mailed her; hopefully i'll get a reply. if not then shit... guess there goes another one of my fucked up "relationships" that goes nowhere 99% of the time.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

you and trojanman should both kill yourselves

Paz said...

she's prolly doesn't go on the computer much.

Anonymous said...

you have no swag