Red Corner MOVIE REVIEW

I want to talk about something really quick. It is about not standing up and facing the music. I'll use myself as an example.

All my life since I was a little kid I was always running away. I was running away from who I am. I was scared, but I would run away and deny it. I somewhat stood up for myself in a half assed way not understanding fear. But at the same time hating it and wishing it wasn't there. At some point when my family moved to America, I was 12, almost 13, I thought that this was my chance to completely escape. To run far away from all my problems and my past, and my fears. I envisioned a new life here in a new, unfamiliar, foreign land. I thought I would have an amazing future, an amazing fresh new start, and everything would be alright. Little did I know that when I came to this new land, all of my past that I was trying so hard to escape from manifested in different forms through different people. It all followed me here. And I found myself dealing with SAME EXACT THINGS! But this time, it was much worse. Not only did I not stand up for myself half assed, I had completely given up on facing my fears because of my 'run away' mentality. And things got even worse. My fear was so intense for 2 years straight, that at some point I have developed PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). I won't go into details on how and why and when. But I will say this. This movie, Red Corner, is about that.

It's about breaking that patter that many of us, if not damn near all of us, are stuck in. The pattern of blocking out our own problems, our own flaws, and running away from them instead of standing up and FACING THE MUSIC! And when you finally stand up and face the music to break through your flaws, fears, and imperfections, it's as if your spirit transforms not only in this world, but in many other dimensions or planes of existences. And when you make that decision to finally break the pattern, the loop that you're stuck in, even if it means your own death, nothing will ever be the same again.

This is what Red Corner is about. For all the people who understand exactly what I am talking about, this movie is for you. 5/5 stars.

47 Ronin MOVIE REVIEW

This has got to be the BEST movie I have seen in 2013, period. It has an amazing story, an amazing cast, an amazing action, and an amazing ending. It is very emotional, and has all sorts of elements a movie should have. Magic, sorcery, life, death, rebirth, transformation, oppression, discrimination (I personally relate to Keanu Reves character), love, and much more.

If you haven't seen this film, go out and see it RIGHT NOW! It doesn't matter if it's still in theaters or already out on DVD by the time you read this. I am so glad I went to see it in theaters tonight, 11/29/13, 2 days before the new years. I couldn't watch it in 3d because I missed the showtime by 30 minutes, but I am really thinking about going back now. I was meditating watching this film because I was completely lost in it. This movie makes me want to look up the REAL 47 Ronin in Japan.

5/5 stars. A MUST SEE for any real movie fans who love a great story, depth, and adventure of what every great movie should be.

New Music, December 2013

So, I have been searching for new music since I don't listen to tv or radio anymore. Anytime I find something I like I will post it here on my blog. and if I find more stuff in December, I'll edit it in this post.

Josh Butler - Got A Feeling (Bontan Remix, Pleasurekraft Edit)

Music Genre: Deep House

so I'm listening to Nick Phoenix - Speed of Sound album...

and some of these songs are fucking awesome while high. I started 420ing again just a few months ago. this is fucking amazing. I feel like I'm living in the future space age on this first song

Two Steps From Hell - Planetize


Two Steps From Hell - Raxez 19



not bad stuff from Two Steps From Hell. I always shun away from them because their name is fucking stupid, but they make some amazing tracks. gotta give respect where respect is due.

Date with a BBW, part II

okay, so I had a date with that same BBW I blogged about previously. and it was a good, and it was bad. I am going to talk about good first because that's how it appeared to be at first.

I picked her up at subway and we got some tea and blended drink. we drove to a park, parked the car, and just chit chatted. I told her I wanna make out with her but she mentioned she may have a cold so I can't. then I suggested we move to the backseat so we can get closer. We did, and I started touching her all over, her thighs, arms, etc.. we talked a little bit and she is open to fooling around with me. Long story short I end up feeling between her legs, and the next thing I snuck my hand from her back and got inside her pussy. She started moaning and was worried people would see us. There was 2 cars parked, one eventually left and the other was still there but they didn't notice us since it was a family with kids doing their own thing. I finger fucked her really good, and she appeared to have a small pussy.

Now here is the bad part... her ass... smelled... like SHIT! After I was done, I smelled my fingers and OMFG!!!!!!! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I was disgusted. I finger fucked the shit out of her, literally. And I never even tried to go for her asshole! She smelled like she took a dump before she came, and didn't even shower. Then as she started sweating, she was smelling with sweat. It was really appalling. Now, she can't host since she lives with her mom. And this is ironic because I am in the same boat, but she is way older than me. I told her we can get a hotel and fuck and she was open to it. But the more I kept thinking about it, the more turned off I got.

It was so bad, that when driving from the park to bring her to the subway station, it smelled like shit in the car. I opened up windows and was trying to avoid being close to her. Then when she left, it turned out that both of my hands smelled like SHIT. I was disgusted driving home sitting waaaaaaaaaaaaay back in my seat so I won't smell my hands on the steering wheel. I was afraid touching the steering wheel so that I wouldn't contaminate it with shit. I drove back home, parked, and almost the entire backseat smelled like SHIT!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGG. I had to take some cleaning detergent and clean the back seat really good. I took off my jeans, and they too smelled like shit because I told her to sit on top of me with her ass and then dry humped her from the back. Those jeans were washed a few weeks back and I wore them for the first time today! Then I washed my hands 4x and I still smelled the nasty ass odor I picked up from her. Then I realized that my lower arms smell bad too since she touched me there after I touched her hands with mine when they were smelling really bad. I just took a shower and I am still appalled at how this night turned out. I was thinking of telling her this and say something like, "I can meet up with you again, but only if you shower really good and clean your ass". But would that be super rude? I mean DAMN! I feel it was super rude of her to come see me with her stank ass. Jesus Christ it was nasty. I made her cum 5 times but I was stinking like shit afterwards. Not sure if it was even worth it.

Let me say this. The Tranny I blogged about was 10x cleaner! When I was laying on bed with her, I touched her asshole with my right middle finger, and when I smelled it, it was as clean as if my hands were just washed with soap! My finger was cleaner than it is now after washing my hands 4x, and showering! Man... I really don't know if I want to see this stank bitch again. I understand if you a big girl, it's hard to wash back there but DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLEAN YOUR STANK ASS BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU GO OUT ON A DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

had a Date with a BBW

so with Black Friday I was working the grave shift till 8am. had a few hours of sleep and met up with this BBW MILF with no children. we met from badoo and she knows I want to fuck her. it went okay and actually she likes me. we set up a second date with us going to the beach. I will mos def make out with her or even maybe if it gets dark we can do some car play, but I am not sure where to take it to close the deal. I live with my mom. she, ironically, lives with her mom. And the only thing I could think of is getting a hotel room.

I can see us being fuck buddies having fwb sort of thing, but I don't see me and her together in a ltr. Damn I want to fuck her. I hate it not having my own place. otherwise, it would be much easier.

gotta think on how I can get some money to be able to afford having my own apartment. even having your own room with roommates is not as nice, but it beats living with your parents. I guess I'll get a hotel room if she is down. we'll see what happens. I'll keep you guys updated.

The Future of Humankind

I'm just done reading some of the parts of this essay "The Law of Accelerating Returns", which I found through The Zeitgeist Movement. If you don't know about the TZM, here is what this movement is all about...

The Zeitgeist Movement is a global sustainability activist group working to bring the world together for the common goal of species sustainability before it is too late. Divisive notions such as nations, governments, races, political parties, religions, creeds or class are non-operational distinctions in the view of The Movement. Rather, we recognize the world as one system and the human species as a singular unit, sharing a common habitat.


 and I was thinking about what is going to happen in a few decades. We are heading towards singularity. The computers will get so fast and so smart, they will surpass our limited brains' views and understanding. That 1 hour would be equivalent to one thousand years of history in our current thinking evolution. Computers that will get so smart that they'll create other computers to thinking faster and better. I'm gonna stop now and post a part of this essay. The whole thing is HUUUUGE so it may take you a while to read it. But here is what I'm talking about... Let me know what you think.

The Singularity Is Near

To appreciate the nature and significance of the coming “singularity,” it is important to ponder the nature of exponential growth. Toward this end, I am fond of telling the tale of the inventor of chess and his patron, the emperor of China. In response to the emperor’s offer of a reward for his new beloved game, the inventor asked for a single grain of rice on the first square, two on the second square, four on the third, and so on. The Emperor quickly granted this seemingly benign and humble request. One version of the story has the emperor going bankrupt as the 63 doublings ultimately totaled 18 million trillion grains of rice. At ten grains of rice per square inch, this requires rice fields covering twice the surface area of the Earth, oceans included. Another version of the story has the inventor losing his head.

It should be pointed out that as the emperor and the inventor went through the first half of the chess board, things were fairly uneventful. The inventor was given spoonfuls of rice, then bowls of rice, then barrels. By the end of the first half of the chess board, the inventor had accumulated one large field’s worth (4 billion grains), and the emperor did start to take notice. It was as they progressed through the second half of the chessboard that the situation quickly deteriorated. Incidentally, with regard to the doublings of computation, that’s about where we stand now–there have been slightly more than 32 doublings of performance since the first programmable computers were invented during World War II.

This is the nature of exponential growth. Although technology grows in the exponential domain, we humans live in a linear world. So technological trends are not noticed as small levels of technological power are doubled. Then seemingly out of nowhere, a technology explodes into view. For example, when the Internet went from 20,000 to 80,000 nodes over a two year period during the 1980s, this progress remained hidden from the general public. A decade later, when it went from 20 million to 80 million nodes in the same amount of time, the impact was rather conspicuous.

As exponential growth continues to accelerate into the first half of the twenty-first century, it will appear to explode into infinity, at least from the limited and linear perspective of contemporary humans. The progress will ultimately become so fast that it will rupture our ability to follow it. It will literally get out of our control. The illusion that we have our hand “on the plug,” will be dispelled.

Can the pace of technological progress continue to speed up indefinitely? Is there not a point where humans are unable to think fast enough to keep up with it? With regard to unenhanced humans, clearly so. But what would a thousand scientists, each a thousand times more intelligent than human scientists today, and each operating a thousand times faster than contemporary humans (because the information processing in their primarily nonbiological brains is faster) accomplish? One year would be like a millennium. What would they come up with?

Well, for one thing, they would come up with technology to become even more intelligent (because their intelligence is no longer of fixed capacity). They would change their own thought processes to think even faster. When the scientists evolve to be a million times more intelligent and operate a million times faster, then an hour would result in a century of progress (in today’s terms).

This, then, is the Singularity. The Singularity is technological change so rapid and so profound that it represents a rupture in the fabric of human history. Some would say that we cannot comprehend the Singularity, at least with our current level of understanding, and that it is impossible, therefore, to look past its “event horizon” and make sense of what lies beyond.

My view is that despite our profound limitations of thought, constrained as we are today to a mere hundred trillion interneuronal connections in our biological brains, we nonetheless have sufficient powers of abstraction to make meaningful statements about the nature of life after the Singularity. Most importantly, it is my view that the intelligence that will emerge will continue to represent the human civilization, which is already a human-machine civilization. This will be the next step in evolution, the next high level paradigm shift.

To put the concept of Singularity into perspective, let’s explore the history of the word itself. Singularity is a familiar word meaning a unique event with profound implications. In mathematics, the term implies infinity, the explosion of value that occurs when dividing a constant by a number that gets closer and closer to zero. In physics, similarly, a singularity denotes an event or location of infinite power. At the center of a black hole, matter is so dense that its gravity is infinite. As nearby matter and energy are drawn into the black hole, an event horizon separates the region from the rest of the Universe. It constitutes a rupture in the fabric of space and time. The Universe itself is said to have begun with just such a Singularity.

In the 1950s, John Von Neumann was quoted as saying that “the ever accelerating progress of technology…gives the appearance of approaching some essential singularity in the history of the race beyond which human affairs, as we know them, could not continue.” In the 1960s, I. J. Good wrote of an “intelligence explosion,” resulting from intelligent machines designing their next generation without human intervention. In 1986, Vernor Vinge, a mathematician and computer scientist at San Diego State University, wrote about a rapidly approaching technological “singularity” in his science fiction novel, Marooned in Realtime. Then in 1993, Vinge presented a paper to a NASA-organized symposium which described the Singularity as an impending event resulting primarily from the advent of “entities with greater than human intelligence,” which Vinge saw as the harbinger of a run-away phenomenon.

From my perspective, the Singularity has many faces. It represents the nearly vertical phase of exponential growth where the rate of growth is so extreme that technology appears to be growing at infinite speed. Of course, from a mathematical perspective, there is no discontinuity, no rupture, and the growth rates remain finite, albeit extraordinarily large. But from our currently limited perspective, this imminent event appears to be an acute and abrupt break in the continuity of progress. However, I emphasize the word “currently,” because one of the salient implications of the Singularity will be a change in the nature of our ability to understand. In other words, we will become vastly smarter as we merge with our technology.

When I wrote my first book, The Age of Intelligent Machines, in the 1980s, I ended the book with the specter of the emergence of machine intelligence greater than human intelligence, but found it difficult to look beyond this event horizon. Now having thought about its implications for the past 20 years, I feel that we are indeed capable of understanding the many facets of this threshold, one that will transform all spheres of human life.

Consider a few examples of the implications. The bulk of our experiences will shift from real reality to virtual reality. Most of the intelligence of our civilization will ultimately be nonbiological, which by the end of this century will be trillions of trillions of times more powerful than human intelligence. However, to address often expressed concerns, this does not imply the end of biological intelligence, even if thrown from its perch of evolutionary superiority. Moreover, it is important to note that the nonbiological forms will be derivative of biological design. In other words, our civilization will remain human, indeed in many ways more exemplary of what we regard as human than it is today, although our understanding of the term will move beyond its strictly biological origins.

Many observers have nonetheless expressed alarm at the emergence of forms of nonbiological intelligence superior to human intelligence. The potential to augment our own intelligence through intimate connection with other thinking mediums does not necessarily alleviate the concern, as some people have expressed the wish to remain “unenhanced” while at the same time keeping their place at the top of the intellectual food chain. My view is that the likely outcome is that on the one hand, from the perspective of biological humanity, these superhuman intelligences will appear to be their transcendent servants, satisfying their needs and desires. On the other hand, fulfilling the wishes of a revered biological legacy will occupy only a trivial portion of the intellectual power that the Singularity will bring.

Needless to say, the Singularity will transform all aspects of our lives, social, sexual, and economic, which I explore herewith.

http://www.kurzweilai.net/the-law-of-accelerating-returns