okay. so, today is a special day. exactly 1 year from now, the 2012 "event" date will come. Not sure what is going to happen, if anything. But I found something amazing and wanted to share it as a present to all the people visiting my blog.
A few years back I purchased a book called "Out-of-Body Experiences: How to Have Them and What to Expect" by Robert Peterson. Then I remember on one night, last summer, I was sleeping with my Black Tourmaline stone. And all of the sudden I wake up with my whole body vibrating. I GOT FREAKED OUT and just shook the vibrations off. Then it happened again a few nights later, and again the next week. At some point I read a book on crystals and it actually said that black tourmaline strengthens Astral Travel! BUT... it happened after a few months of reading Robert Peterson's book. So both, the book and the stone, contributed to me having these experiences. But as much as I loved Peterson's book and exercises on how to induce OBEs, it was missing something... As a result, for about a year and a half I have had numberous OBEs, but they always happened sporadically. I wanted to be able to have OBEs by actually following some sort of a plan. And then... I found a book that actually has this PLAN to have conscious Out-of-Body Experiences!!! And the best part about it is... it is FREE!
I have only gone through 23 pages, the 'basics' of how to have OBEs, and already had 6 experiences! 3 OBEs and 3 Lucid Dreams. What is so exciting about this, is that I actually had more than 1 experience at a time. I had 2 Lucid Dreams in a row 2 nights ago, and 2 OBEs this morning. I LOVE THIS BOOK!!!
ALL I ASK OF YOU IS TO PLEASE PURCHASE THE HARD COPY IF IT HELPS YOU IN ANY WAY! It's only $50 on the website(don't buy the one from amazon, it's incomplete-missing around 200 pages. that's why it's cheaper). If you got any sort of questions, ask. Other then that, here is my gift to you. Happy travels!!!!!!!!! (o:
School of Out-of-Body Travel by Michael Raduga
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Married with Children is GREAT!
one of my favorite TV shows of all time, hands down. I don't even watch tv, but netflix just put this show up on streaming, so I'm going through all the seasons. 1st isn't all that great, but with 2nd season it starts to get REALLY FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you have netflix, check out
S2:E12 - Earth Angel
S2:E16 - Master the Posibilities
S2:E18 - The Great Escape
I should really buy some weed and watch this show, it's already funny w/out it. Too bad with all the stupid drug tests every other job I apply for requests. Otherwise, I'd be up in the clouds... someday........
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
1 Month Tantra
okay, so I been practicing Tantra for a few years on and off and I just got my biggest record ever. 1 month without cumming. I started on Monday, 11/7/11 and just released like 5 minutes ago on Tuesday, 12/6/11. That is 4 weeks and 1 day. WOW! I feel great. and I did NOT release by accident. it was intentionally and conciously because I wanted to do it. I could go on for another month but I felt like what the heck, 1 week was my record up until now so I may as well make it 1 month. Next one will be 2 months, or maybe 3.
getting passed the first week was the hardest. after that it got easier and I got to the point where I didn't even want to cum. cumming feels WEAK, not cumming feels amazing. it felt so good that I didn't want to cum ever again. but I am sort of a begginer so I'll just chill for now.
Also been working my PC muscle in between so that helped me to control my orgasm as well. Tantra rules. That's all I gotta say.
getting passed the first week was the hardest. after that it got easier and I got to the point where I didn't even want to cum. cumming feels WEAK, not cumming feels amazing. it felt so good that I didn't want to cum ever again. but I am sort of a begginer so I'll just chill for now.
Also been working my PC muscle in between so that helped me to control my orgasm as well. Tantra rules. That's all I gotta say.
2012... I AM SCARED!
okay so, I have been talking to my spirit guides for a few years now, and been asking them to bring me more and more information regarding 2012 and the truth behind it. I have been receiving a lot of it already, and reading a book with tons of 2012 research, but now I just watched this video and I AM FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A HUGE PANIC ATTACK RIGHT NOW, AND REALLY SEE THIS HAPPENING COMES THE GALACTIC ALIGNMENT! we will be going through the black hole gravitation center disk of our galaxy next year, and the guy said it will be pitch black for 30 hours!!!!!!!!! that means no electricity, no light, no stars!! NOTHING!!!!! PITCH... BLACK!!!!!!!!! AND I AM SCARED OF DARKNESS!!! I HAVE A REALLY HARD TIME BEING IN THE DARK FOR MORE THAN 10 SECONDS!!! OMG I AM REALLY FREAKING OUT! okay.. I gotta relax... I am going to practice this little by little. I can really see people dying from fear due to this. if everything I have learned is true, fear will take you out in the new eneriges that will come forth. if you are reading this... WATCH THIS VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
visual Waves in Meditation
this morning I started to see these waves about 15 mins into meditation. every time I'd breath out, I would see a wave coming from the top towards me. it wasn't anything colorful or visual but more of a subtle energy amongst the darkness. then at some point it started to move from top to left. *breath out* wave coming from top left towards me.. *breath out* more left... then at some point it started to come from my left and disappeared.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
my friend treats me like a Credit Card
so I just got back home from my friend's Thanksgiving dinner, and feel like shit. yesterday he calls me "hey man i need a favor". I'm like ok, whats up? "i need you to let me borrow $15 because there is this turkey that is on sale for 5 and i need to buy groceries worth $20. I'm like okay... he helped me with some approaches and being social with people, and I'll help.
I get my ass there within a few hours and then the $5 turkeys are gone, and now there is $10 turkeys. so the $15 favors turns into a $50 favor. and I feel like i just got used again.. by him.
at the dinner today I couldnt eat ANYTHING because everything was meat, I paid for his turkey, his chicken, his cheese, and since I am mostly a vegan, i just sat there stared at the food. I am so fucking mad. I feel like he calls me when none of his other friends can help and hes like "oh, i know exactly who to call". like im a fucking credit card that he can just access whenever his friends wont help. and the most fucked up part about it is, I DONT EVEN WORK! i am using my savings to help him while his friends with JOBS dont want to do shit for him. and the most fucked up thing about it is, whenever i go around HIS friends he talks to them 90% and me 10% of the time. it's like he changes completely and his attention gets divided 90/10 when his friends are around.. i mean like... WTF!?!?!?!? and I'm supposed to keep helping him when he is in need? FUCK YOU! I will never buy anything for him anymore, ESPECIALLY meat since I dont even spend $ on meant myself.
THIS IS JUST........ STRAIGHT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the even more fucked up thing is, when he was helping out in public teaching me how to approach people he said he is planning on making a free workshop to help guys on being social and he needs $40 for a sylabis he will print at Kinkos or wherever the fuck... and I was like 'ok, ill pay for it since it will be free for everyone' on some.. ill sponsor that shit. but now that he got a job and starts on monday, most likely THERE WILL BE NO FREE WORKSHOP. so I just paid him $40 for absolutely NOTHING and $50 that was supposed to be $15.. WHAT TYPE OF BULLSHIT IS THIS!??!!?!
and even worse thing is, he thinks he is my best friend since he is my ONLY friend. but he treats me like shit. like whenever he needs a credit card he just calls my ass and charges me or some shit.. i didnt wanna ruin his thanksgiving and not said anything, but the next time hell call me for ANOTHER favor ill be like FUCK YOU, you are a really bad friend.
thank GOD his girl (friend) was a vegan so i could at least talk to her, but his male friend was all joking with us like "how do you know they [chickens, cows, etc..] dont like it [being tortured, boiled alive, etc..]" and im thinking like.. "i know im not the best socializer or the one who understands social things but that shit is just RUDE!" how you gonna make jokes like that when we feel so strongly against all the animal cruelties and try to be funny. i dont know. i just think its rude and tacky. im gonna fucking post a lecture by Gary soon on what really goes down in the meat industry for however little people visit my blog. i am tired of all the sheep consuming energy that is stolen from nature without its permission. humans make me sick sometimes.
there is so much more i wanna say about my friend, but ill leave it at that for now. fucking TIRED of his ass using me and ill tell him next time when he asks for yet ANOTHER favor. THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get my ass there within a few hours and then the $5 turkeys are gone, and now there is $10 turkeys. so the $15 favors turns into a $50 favor. and I feel like i just got used again.. by him.
at the dinner today I couldnt eat ANYTHING because everything was meat, I paid for his turkey, his chicken, his cheese, and since I am mostly a vegan, i just sat there stared at the food. I am so fucking mad. I feel like he calls me when none of his other friends can help and hes like "oh, i know exactly who to call". like im a fucking credit card that he can just access whenever his friends wont help. and the most fucked up part about it is, I DONT EVEN WORK! i am using my savings to help him while his friends with JOBS dont want to do shit for him. and the most fucked up thing about it is, whenever i go around HIS friends he talks to them 90% and me 10% of the time. it's like he changes completely and his attention gets divided 90/10 when his friends are around.. i mean like... WTF!?!?!?!? and I'm supposed to keep helping him when he is in need? FUCK YOU! I will never buy anything for him anymore, ESPECIALLY meat since I dont even spend $ on meant myself.
THIS IS JUST........ STRAIGHT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the even more fucked up thing is, when he was helping out in public teaching me how to approach people he said he is planning on making a free workshop to help guys on being social and he needs $40 for a sylabis he will print at Kinkos or wherever the fuck... and I was like 'ok, ill pay for it since it will be free for everyone' on some.. ill sponsor that shit. but now that he got a job and starts on monday, most likely THERE WILL BE NO FREE WORKSHOP. so I just paid him $40 for absolutely NOTHING and $50 that was supposed to be $15.. WHAT TYPE OF BULLSHIT IS THIS!??!!?!
and even worse thing is, he thinks he is my best friend since he is my ONLY friend. but he treats me like shit. like whenever he needs a credit card he just calls my ass and charges me or some shit.. i didnt wanna ruin his thanksgiving and not said anything, but the next time hell call me for ANOTHER favor ill be like FUCK YOU, you are a really bad friend.
thank GOD his girl (friend) was a vegan so i could at least talk to her, but his male friend was all joking with us like "how do you know they [chickens, cows, etc..] dont like it [being tortured, boiled alive, etc..]" and im thinking like.. "i know im not the best socializer or the one who understands social things but that shit is just RUDE!" how you gonna make jokes like that when we feel so strongly against all the animal cruelties and try to be funny. i dont know. i just think its rude and tacky. im gonna fucking post a lecture by Gary soon on what really goes down in the meat industry for however little people visit my blog. i am tired of all the sheep consuming energy that is stolen from nature without its permission. humans make me sick sometimes.
there is so much more i wanna say about my friend, but ill leave it at that for now. fucking TIRED of his ass using me and ill tell him next time when he asks for yet ANOTHER favor. THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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