Friday, December 10, 2010

I may die tonight

im not even joking or anything like that. i may die tonight or possibly this weekend.

i feel really bad. i mean REALLY REALLY BAD. i can hardly inhale all the way cuz it hurts. my heart area hurts. i fell asleep at 12:30ish and woke up at 4am. could not sleep after that. took 2 melatonins, 1 before bed and one when woke up. didnt work for shit. i felt like shit the whole day. i never felt this bad before. so if i die then nice knowing all my haters and fans and all that other stuff.

just make sure when you come to LA make sure you got money, stability (real job), or family support. otherwise youll be looking to save rent and live in shitty places where noise and moving energy does not stop until it kills you, literally. but maybe thats just my story.

driving home i saw SSS on lincense plate, and then SS on another. let me look that up real quick..... blah cant find anything. who cares anyway.

i was actually lookin gforward to living through 2012. may not happen. some night when i try to sleep i have this CRAZY RUSH like wtf!?!?!!??! I GET UP ALL SCARED AS HELL. whatever it is, it is not good. and it happened at lunch when i was 'trying' to sleep. never works though.

la is a city of toxic waste and noise. unless you rich, stay away from this shit hole

peace

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7 comments:

Paz said...

get your ass to the hospital asap. we need you, dude.

Anonymous said...

:(

Sp said...

went to bed at 10:30pm friday, fell asleep around 12. had 9 hours of sleep.

prayed at 11:11pm and i saw 11:11:11 on clock. went to bed at 11:15pm saturday 12/11, it is now 12/12 3:07am. i am fucked. my heart recovered a little bit from the sleep. now i dont know if ill sleep more than 5 hours. took 2 mellatonins. did not work. teeth grind, hard to fall asleep on back.

Anonymous said...

Good to see you're still alive. Still, you should definetely go to a doctor, there are some medicines that could help you sleep.

Or worst case scenario you could use some weed, but I'm not sure if you kept smoking it or what.

Take care!

Paz said...

not trying to be funny but you should jerk off more often, dude. that shit will actually help you.

Anonymous said...

why the fuck did you move out to la. i mean what was your plan? northern cali is so much nicer

Sp said...

my plan was... come out to LA, get a job, enjoy the hot weather, get a ganja prescription and get high for 1 year. so much for that huh..

and it isnt docs who will give me meds.. its noise and clicking noises, loud neighbords, loud dogs, rude neighbors with cars outside (alarms go off for 10+ mins without owner doing shit about it)... wtf will meds gonna do other than knock me out so that i will only wake up again to this nightmare an hour later. a doc will say "get some sleep".. no shit...