Thursday, October 20, 2011
I'm tired of youtube always changing shit
today it looks like this, tomorrow it looks like that... STOP CHANGING SHIT EVERY WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, October 17, 2011
Friday, October 14, 2011
CompTIA A+ certificate
I am now officially certified in A+! I busted my ASS for 6 weeks every day. read a book that is 1,000 pages, and studied 768 questions for part 1 which I passed 2 weeks ago, and 865 questions for part 2 which I passed today.
man... I am just gonna chill out for the weekend and beta test TOR and then start looking for IT work on Monday. I am so happy. Now I can finally get a nice job and get PAID! MO MONEY MO MONEY MO MONEY!!! haha
seriously though, I got a 4 year college degree and the most I could get from it was $15 per hour. nowadays companies care more about certificates than a college degree. crazy, aint it?
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
it's over, pt. 2
"good that stubborn fool left. surprised your mom stayed with him for that long if he was acting like that."
man... he DIDNT leave. he convinced my mom yet again to let him stay here. the first time it was when she told him to go and "make a decision on whether or not you wanna marry me. if the answer is no, its over." he left to LA. then the poor baby did not want to marry my mom and got real depressed. so depressed that he had his friend call my mom telling her in how much of a bad state he is. my mom... took him back in. he didnt wanna marry her, yet... they were still together. now he keeps nagging mom about how imperfect she is, and she finally said you either stop and accept me, or leave. he said what he said and then asked my mom if he could have this home as a "base" to come back to from his long vacations. like if he goes to LA or wherever, comes back here. and he'll pay the rent. so now its like.. WTF? he is still here and ... *scratches head*... its back to my mom taking him back, pt2? i dont know... i am REALLY tired of him. he thinks i got problems and need to fix myself, and i do and not denying that, my mom got problems and need to fix herself, my uncle needs to change, EVERYONE is "coocoo" and needs to change themselves for him, but he is PERFECT... like seriously... what type of bullshit is that?
so like i said.. chaos in the mind. they split up yet he is still here. i dont know what to say at this point. this will either have a part 3 to it, or my mom will simply die from stress of him killing her. i dont know... ill talk to my mom when he is not around to see what she says. until then..........
man... he DIDNT leave. he convinced my mom yet again to let him stay here. the first time it was when she told him to go and "make a decision on whether or not you wanna marry me. if the answer is no, its over." he left to LA. then the poor baby did not want to marry my mom and got real depressed. so depressed that he had his friend call my mom telling her in how much of a bad state he is. my mom... took him back in. he didnt wanna marry her, yet... they were still together. now he keeps nagging mom about how imperfect she is, and she finally said you either stop and accept me, or leave. he said what he said and then asked my mom if he could have this home as a "base" to come back to from his long vacations. like if he goes to LA or wherever, comes back here. and he'll pay the rent. so now its like.. WTF? he is still here and ... *scratches head*... its back to my mom taking him back, pt2? i dont know... i am REALLY tired of him. he thinks i got problems and need to fix myself, and i do and not denying that, my mom got problems and need to fix herself, my uncle needs to change, EVERYONE is "coocoo" and needs to change themselves for him, but he is PERFECT... like seriously... what type of bullshit is that?
so like i said.. chaos in the mind. they split up yet he is still here. i dont know what to say at this point. this will either have a part 3 to it, or my mom will simply die from stress of him killing her. i dont know... ill talk to my mom when he is not around to see what she says. until then..........
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
it's over
so a few days ago my mom told me "looks like we're splitting up" after her b/f left alone to some event and she didnt feel like going. then yesterday he called her and told her that he needs someone who can be on his level.
to make things short, this dude been killing my mom through nagging her constantly regarding her imperfections. "why you do things like this?" "how come you dont understand that?" " why do you say things like this? you should say them like that." he been doing this since they've been together telling her that she isnt perfect enough for him to marry her. and that has been stressing my mom for quiet sometime. she has irregular heart palpitations, and has had chest and stomach pains. a few days ago she said "i cant live like this. you either stop nagging me or leave". he was like uh oh.... im not ready to make a decision yet. she was like well, take your time........
whats really fucked up on it all, is that this guy has been talking sooooooooooooo much shit to me how i stress her out. he is the main fucking reason for her health problems and stress, while this dude takes out his anger on me acting like i contribute to it. im not saying i dont. i dont got a job, still live with my mama, have no career, etc.. but i dont fucking nag my mom telling her to be a certain way.
what really pisses me off is that EVERYONE must change for this man. i must change, my uncle must change, my mom must change for HIM. but he stays the way he is... a perfect being in his own perfect image. what type of shit is that? this whole house has been catered to his needs. he demolished top half of our kitchen wall, and replaced it with small pillars (now people could see me through the living room window when im in the kitchen. I HATE IT!) replaced a kitchen floor, bathroom floor, bathroom sink, and many more changes he has done to the house. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THESE JOBS HE DID. it was all for him. every fucking year he remodels the kitchen, or does some other shit in the house that no one but him cares about. brought all his 200 year old looking furniture that no one but him cares for. and now what... he'll just leave and find his own place.
this reminds me of that book I read-New Earth. chaos in the mind... 1 man thinks that the world should evolve around HIM because of that chaos. never did he step out and realize that it is just his own thoughts, ideas, etc.. in his mind.
he didnt leave my mom for 9 years for the main reason. its easy to stay together and get cooked food, a woman to take care of you, etc.. but its hard to leave and start your own life by yourself. i just feel really bad that my mom had to suffer for this the most. always worrying about what she says, how she says it, etc.. she is not an American, you can hear a fat accent from her, she doesnt understand certain humor and slang that even her b/f from Orange County can. why you gotta be a dick head constantly nagging on her telling her she must change to cater to you? just fucking LEAVE dude. should've left a long time ago.
but anyway, that's all i gotta say. i wish him luck and hope he finds his happiness, but i doubt it. everyone he ever meets has flaws and all he does is point them out. this woman is a foreigner, this man has a crooked eye, this person is crazy, etc.. like only himself is perfect, and everyone is weird or "coo coo". i can see this guy being alone for the rest of his life. every woman he'll ever meet he'll just disregard because of whatever flaws she has.
to make things short, this dude been killing my mom through nagging her constantly regarding her imperfections. "why you do things like this?" "how come you dont understand that?" " why do you say things like this? you should say them like that." he been doing this since they've been together telling her that she isnt perfect enough for him to marry her. and that has been stressing my mom for quiet sometime. she has irregular heart palpitations, and has had chest and stomach pains. a few days ago she said "i cant live like this. you either stop nagging me or leave". he was like uh oh.... im not ready to make a decision yet. she was like well, take your time........
whats really fucked up on it all, is that this guy has been talking sooooooooooooo much shit to me how i stress her out. he is the main fucking reason for her health problems and stress, while this dude takes out his anger on me acting like i contribute to it. im not saying i dont. i dont got a job, still live with my mama, have no career, etc.. but i dont fucking nag my mom telling her to be a certain way.
what really pisses me off is that EVERYONE must change for this man. i must change, my uncle must change, my mom must change for HIM. but he stays the way he is... a perfect being in his own perfect image. what type of shit is that? this whole house has been catered to his needs. he demolished top half of our kitchen wall, and replaced it with small pillars (now people could see me through the living room window when im in the kitchen. I HATE IT!) replaced a kitchen floor, bathroom floor, bathroom sink, and many more changes he has done to the house. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THESE JOBS HE DID. it was all for him. every fucking year he remodels the kitchen, or does some other shit in the house that no one but him cares about. brought all his 200 year old looking furniture that no one but him cares for. and now what... he'll just leave and find his own place.
this reminds me of that book I read-New Earth. chaos in the mind... 1 man thinks that the world should evolve around HIM because of that chaos. never did he step out and realize that it is just his own thoughts, ideas, etc.. in his mind.
he didnt leave my mom for 9 years for the main reason. its easy to stay together and get cooked food, a woman to take care of you, etc.. but its hard to leave and start your own life by yourself. i just feel really bad that my mom had to suffer for this the most. always worrying about what she says, how she says it, etc.. she is not an American, you can hear a fat accent from her, she doesnt understand certain humor and slang that even her b/f from Orange County can. why you gotta be a dick head constantly nagging on her telling her she must change to cater to you? just fucking LEAVE dude. should've left a long time ago.
but anyway, that's all i gotta say. i wish him luck and hope he finds his happiness, but i doubt it. everyone he ever meets has flaws and all he does is point them out. this woman is a foreigner, this man has a crooked eye, this person is crazy, etc.. like only himself is perfect, and everyone is weird or "coo coo". i can see this guy being alone for the rest of his life. every woman he'll ever meet he'll just disregard because of whatever flaws she has.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
I know its the next day after my b/d...
but it really amazes me at how little my mom listens to me or understands me. I told her time and time again... MOM.. PLEASE DONT BUY ME CLOTHES OR SHOES! because I am so picky that I never buy anything 9 out of 10 times when I myself go shopping. so when YOU buy me clothes, 10/10 I won't like it. what did I get for my birthday you ask? a pair of ugly dress shoes. and my mom was like "SEE, and they are Clarks. the best and most comfortable! :)" I was standing there faking it pretending I like them. oh well.. at least I like the white ts she gave me. I can put them to use and donate the shoes when i move out. as much as I love my mom and the support she shows me, I hate her at the same time. some things will never change I guess.
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