ahhh shit. I just thought of it after making a comment on graduation.. and family. FUCK! it was horrible. I was there with my folks and they were emberrasing as HELL! I wanted to DIIIIEIEEEEEE. BUT.. it was inevitable. my mom made me wear this gay ass GREEN shirt like WTF!??!?! i swear to god that this is what I need to listen to right now
but on the real note. I had this CRAZY ass Lucid Dream right. it was about 2 months ago, and I woke up in my dream. I saw a mirror on my right side. I was in some sort of old apartment. the furniture there was light mahogany brown but kinda dated. anyway, when I saw the mirror I came closer to it, and when I looked inside to look at myself, there was an elderly black male. he was about 50, and my size and shape. now this black male... was ME. but his eyes were closed and I couldnt look inside of them. now.. I know that dreams carry meanings, but what if these 'dreams' is when I am lucid and totally AWARE of what is happening? would that mean that these messages would be more precise? I was reading Seth Speaks at the TIME!!! omg.... it was the book that I was driven to to find out what could be my parallel reality! it talked about the same structure and meaning in dreams, and Lucid Dreams. both of dream type is when we are OUT OF OUR BODIES! in other words, when we are dreaming we are travelling so to speak in other times and realities. but when we wake up, we completely forget because part of our consciousness is kinda blurry and stuck in this world. but the reason why we always see things like they are in our waking day life, is because that is the best way we know how to process information in this HUMAN FORM. that's just my own interpertation of it. anyway, I really think there is a strong chance that I am living as a black male somewhere.
Here is why I think I may be a slave. I am in this fucking house, having family gay ass meetings cuz of family therapist went rambo on my ass to show me he is in charge (piece of shit man, he is what's wrong with our society). anyway, now mom's bitch ass b/f told my mom to be military style and i have to report back to her what i did every day. I must have a schedule to do 3things every day, and more hopefully. and If I dont something she gonna do or put me out, etc.. So... after taking a few hits it got me thinking. I AM A SLAVE IN THIS BITCH! my mom's b/f is my massa... YESSA MAASSAAA YESAAA SIR. I DO EVERYTHING YOU SAY SINCE YOU KNOW HOW TO BE A CORPORATE WORLD LEADER AND I SHALL AGREE TO EVERYYYTHING YOU SAY. YES WE WENT TO THE MOON. ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK NOT ARE 'CRAZY AND SCARY' CONSPIRACY THEORISTS' I SURE AS HELL NOT ONE OF THEM!!
anyway, you get the point. they are, mainly my mom's b/f bitch ass, trying to put me to sleep and in either way even if i am 'OUT ON MY OWN IN THE "REAL WORLD"' i should still be a good boy, go back to sleep, and think like everyone else that the world is a happy place, we really DID go to the moon, and how about we go and mingle and have happy happy times. so, anyway.. yeah.. I am in HELL and am a fucking SLAVE on this fucking plantation. I just wish to knwo more about my parellel life or LIVES because I am in this hell and need to figure out a plan to get out of it.