OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so today I couldn't read my book on the way home because I DID talk to the girl i saw on Monday.
I was a nervewreck when I got on the train. I sit in the back and I kinda knew she wasn't gonna be there since it was an early train. But a few minutes before doors close, there she is. She sits at the sit in front of me facing the same direction. I knew right there it was either now or never. So... I take my shit and move to the seat next to her and said hi. long story short, she is single and I got the digits. HAHA! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As I was walking home I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs and I couldnt stop smiling :) DAMN IT FEELS GOOD TO FACE YOUR FEAR!
Thank you to all my ancestors and my spirit guides who have been guiding me up to this point, and most of all thank you me for actually doing what I said I would do. FUCK FEAR! in fact, no. I love you fear. Thank you for teaching me valuable lesson(s) in life.
After I moved back to my seat and it was her stop, she actually turned and said bye to me. didnt expect that. maybe she likes me. who knows.. WHO CARES!?!?!
I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Dark Matter?
man im watching this movie and it just hit me. is Dark matter the next world that we just may witness post 2012? all of dark matter is invisible, so could there be another world? another dimension that lies in this "dark matter" invisible dimension? is this what the ancients referred to as the "Golden Age"?
@1:02:54
or maybe im just high
@1:02:54
or maybe im just high
Monday, June 18, 2012
I need to learn how to be observant
so i was just thinking about my previous blog and what mistakes i made. i could've came up to her with "hey, whats your name?" or... the second.
One thing I need to improve on, is not be afraid to look. like looking at that girl on the train. i looked at her, she looked back (even though she had shades) sat in her seat, and moved over to the window spot. then took out her make up and started putting it on. now.. that right htere is an opening. in fact, she could've made it for me. but i was too scared thinking of approaching then to actually realize it is a sign, a signal. if not, who cares!? do it especially since the universe opened the door for you. you just have to walk through it and have a seat next to this woman and say hi!
so yeah... that is one thing i need to work on.
One thing I need to improve on, is not be afraid to look. like looking at that girl on the train. i looked at her, she looked back (even though she had shades) sat in her seat, and moved over to the window spot. then took out her make up and started putting it on. now.. that right htere is an opening. in fact, she could've made it for me. but i was too scared thinking of approaching then to actually realize it is a sign, a signal. if not, who cares!? do it especially since the universe opened the door for you. you just have to walk through it and have a seat next to this woman and say hi!
so yeah... that is one thing i need to work on.
Facing my Fears
Saying hi women is one of, if not THE scarriest thing in my life. One of my fears that I need to conquer in this lifetime is this, approaching women.
So today I am going home from my internship. I enter the train station and think to myself "hmm.. I haven't seen a women that I was REALLY attracted to in a while"... as I go downstairs and turn left; there are people waiting. And on the concrete bench this girl is sitting. I was going to sit there but there were like 2-3 kids around 10 or 12. She turns her head to the right and looks at me. I don't know what type of look it was because she had 1) dark sun glasses that don't reveal the eyes, and 2) ipod white ear plugs. I didnt think much of it. looked her up. Her face was oval but her body was thick and she had nice toes. I thought to self "hmm.. I can just come up to her and say hi right now". but what did my big ego do? "nahhhh" my excuse was "those kids are there next to her. that would be weird"
I am one of those sensetive guys that cares greatly what people think of me. in fact, I think that certain things are rude or weird when they are not. Like saying hi to this girl with kids next to her. then I'm like whatever.. no biggie. We get on the train and i sit in the back. She sits in middle (looked back at me before sitting down, btw) and when I look at her body real good... I was like DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fear KICKED IN! on a scale from 1-100, it was about 85% (10-15% when I first saw her-the BEST time to approach). Then I'm like oh shit! I should go sit next to her since she took the window seat and say hi. Ego: but you live with yo mama, and you are 32 years old. Me: yeah, true. but she is THE girl I wanna talk to.
So I had this battle with my ego for about 30 seconds and the ego won. Now what really fucked me up was that how it effected me. I feel like part of me just died. In fact, I was reading a book and after this happened, I could not focus on it at all! I just sat there thinking like "woooooooooooooooow" at how attracted I was to her and at how I DIDNT say hi. I couldn't read... I kept thinking that if i just said hi it would've have been over already (95% chance of rejection), and i would've felt like I smoked pot all day or did the most amazing drug to ever exist in the Universe.
This happens to me not a lot. but when it does, I do not do anything 85-90% of the time. And I feel like shit at the end as a result of me not doing anything.
And I been thinking on the way home how I shouldn't even worry about me living with my mom, not ever having a g/f, or having a career, having a life, etc.. I must do it, because I really want to not because I have to, and if I get a #, throw it away. in fact, I must start saying hi to girls I am attracted to, get a bunch of #s and throw them ALL away. Who gives a shit!!! and by me approaching say 50 women or get 15#s, I will grow spiritually more than if I were to meditate 50 days in a row for 100 hours.
So yeah, I just wanted to blog about this because I haven't seen a girl that fine in a while; her body anyway. I dont know if she is a mean bitch or has no personality. But if I never say hi to women I am attracted to, I will never know and will just be left thinking about it the rest of the freaking day.
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time i see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time i see her, I will say hi!
The next time i see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
THE NEXT TIME I SEE HER, I WILL SAY !
So today I am going home from my internship. I enter the train station and think to myself "hmm.. I haven't seen a women that I was REALLY attracted to in a while"... as I go downstairs and turn left; there are people waiting. And on the concrete bench this girl is sitting. I was going to sit there but there were like 2-3 kids around 10 or 12. She turns her head to the right and looks at me. I don't know what type of look it was because she had 1) dark sun glasses that don't reveal the eyes, and 2) ipod white ear plugs. I didnt think much of it. looked her up. Her face was oval but her body was thick and she had nice toes. I thought to self "hmm.. I can just come up to her and say hi right now". but what did my big ego do? "nahhhh" my excuse was "those kids are there next to her. that would be weird"
I am one of those sensetive guys that cares greatly what people think of me. in fact, I think that certain things are rude or weird when they are not. Like saying hi to this girl with kids next to her. then I'm like whatever.. no biggie. We get on the train and i sit in the back. She sits in middle (looked back at me before sitting down, btw) and when I look at her body real good... I was like DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fear KICKED IN! on a scale from 1-100, it was about 85% (10-15% when I first saw her-the BEST time to approach). Then I'm like oh shit! I should go sit next to her since she took the window seat and say hi. Ego: but you live with yo mama, and you are 32 years old. Me: yeah, true. but she is THE girl I wanna talk to.
So I had this battle with my ego for about 30 seconds and the ego won. Now what really fucked me up was that how it effected me. I feel like part of me just died. In fact, I was reading a book and after this happened, I could not focus on it at all! I just sat there thinking like "woooooooooooooooow" at how attracted I was to her and at how I DIDNT say hi. I couldn't read... I kept thinking that if i just said hi it would've have been over already (95% chance of rejection), and i would've felt like I smoked pot all day or did the most amazing drug to ever exist in the Universe.
This happens to me not a lot. but when it does, I do not do anything 85-90% of the time. And I feel like shit at the end as a result of me not doing anything.
And I been thinking on the way home how I shouldn't even worry about me living with my mom, not ever having a g/f, or having a career, having a life, etc.. I must do it, because I really want to not because I have to, and if I get a #, throw it away. in fact, I must start saying hi to girls I am attracted to, get a bunch of #s and throw them ALL away. Who gives a shit!!! and by me approaching say 50 women or get 15#s, I will grow spiritually more than if I were to meditate 50 days in a row for 100 hours.
So yeah, I just wanted to blog about this because I haven't seen a girl that fine in a while; her body anyway. I dont know if she is a mean bitch or has no personality. But if I never say hi to women I am attracted to, I will never know and will just be left thinking about it the rest of the freaking day.
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time i see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time i see her, I will say hi!
The next time i see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
The next time I see her, I will say hi!
THE NEXT TIME I SEE HER, I WILL SAY !
Thursday, June 7, 2012
I feel bad for wild cats
I really do. I feel like humans are the worst animals on the planet. they kill everything, blow sacred bhudda temples like the one in Afghanistan, and just kill each other as well as all the animals that live in sorrounding areas. they do it with no respect for life, and as long as they make a buck. I think 2012 is about this crazy world changing completely 180. it will go from mostly bad, to mostly good. how that is going to happen i dont know. but this is sad. Bali and Javan tigers are now extinct. Lions and Cheetas and now pushings towards their direction
"Bali preyed on most mammals that lived within their habitat. Their major sources of food were wild boar, rusa deer, Indian muntjac, red junglefowl, monitor lizards, monkeys and possibly banteng (the last now also extirpated on the island). The only known predators of Bali tigers were humans."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bali_tiger
fucking sick. Poor cats. my heart goes out to you. I love you, now and always.
Humans need to wake up on what they are doing. I seriously hope they do, before it's too late.
I cant find the clip but in Wild Cats documentary there is a section on how they go out and just straight hunt a Tiger, and in less than 30 second, a Tiger gets converted into a pile of bones and skin. fucking sad as hell. and then they sell tiger boans for medicine. some Chinese sell tiger bones illigally in their stores in SF, and other cities. holy sh!t man. this is just sad on all levels.
WAKE UP YOU STUPID HUMANS! YOU ARE THE MOST COLD HEARTED ANIMAL ON EARTH RIGHT NOW! WAKE UP BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!!!
"Bali preyed on most mammals that lived within their habitat. Their major sources of food were wild boar, rusa deer, Indian muntjac, red junglefowl, monitor lizards, monkeys and possibly banteng (the last now also extirpated on the island). The only known predators of Bali tigers were humans."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bali_tiger
fucking sick. Poor cats. my heart goes out to you. I love you, now and always.
Humans need to wake up on what they are doing. I seriously hope they do, before it's too late.
I cant find the clip but in Wild Cats documentary there is a section on how they go out and just straight hunt a Tiger, and in less than 30 second, a Tiger gets converted into a pile of bones and skin. fucking sad as hell. and then they sell tiger boans for medicine. some Chinese sell tiger bones illigally in their stores in SF, and other cities. holy sh!t man. this is just sad on all levels.
WAKE UP YOU STUPID HUMANS! YOU ARE THE MOST COLD HEARTED ANIMAL ON EARTH RIGHT NOW! WAKE UP BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!!!
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Leopard cubs annihilate King Cobra
bwaaaaaaaaaaahahhaahhaha... King Cobra. big deal... I am a little cub and I pwn your ass, haha
Leopard raping 4 Lionesses
Hopefully these Lions have learned their lesson; NEVER FUCK WITH A LEOPARD! or you just might get PWNED
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