I am back from the retreat almost 2 weeks ago. don't really feel like talking about it, but to summarize it this whole Judaism really isnt for me. one thing that was amazing was how accepting i felt there. just by me being Jewish they all accepted me and treated me like family. it is very interesting how cultures are. and Jewish culture is no acception. I can have free Friday dinner every Friday by going to Shabbas dinner. I can just pick any Shabbas get together in any state or city and go there, say that I am Jewish and get free food.
anyway, I had a surgery on my scrotum on Tuesday and it is still sore. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be but i still cannot believe i went through it. doc opened up my scrotum and removed a what appeared to be a cyst. it wasnt bothering me for the most part, but it would hurt periodically. I didnt have to remove it but it was my choice. I chose to have a surgery.
Lying there on the table was so freaking nerve wrecking. Funny thing is, all the people in the surgical room were females. 1 doctor, and 3 nurses. I wasnt all that emberrased cuz I honestly dont give a fuck. I was more scared than anything. she gave a shot into my nut and i could barely relax my body parts. now I am wearing this jock strap and I got a 1 inch incision with thread on my testicle. But I am really really glad I did this. Now I can put all of this worrying behind me and move on with my life achieving what I want to achieve.