this Music feeds my Soul

the amount of suffering a certain tribe put German people through, who soon will become minority in their own land... is beyond some peoples' comprehension. once you see this truth, your life will never be the same. I don't know why, but that's all I keep thinking about when listening to this song.

why isn't there more masterpieces like this?




Paganism for life! I was always a pagan, but more of a mutt. I got my Goddess from Egypt. she's been with me for quiet some time. I think it's obvious who she is when looking at my blog... I really need more help, but I feel like I need to take action. She's waiting for me to do this. But it's so hard, especially when you're conditioned to be a certain way. anyway, this song is amazing. even if you don't care about what I just said. there needs to be more traditional music like this of all people. everyone should get in touch with their roots. and white people shouldn't be demonized because they're trying to do it, like everyone else.

My situation

Today, I had a realization. I am living in a very similar environment as I was living when I was living in LA. Life is not as chaotic as it was back then, but it is still a big mess.

So I got back into playing World of Warcraft on a vanilla server. I hit 20 on Elysium

And Then I thought to myself, "there are too many people here, and it's hard to level." Plus, server went down every single day for almost 2 weeks. So, I rerolled on the less populated server-Zeth'Kur. I hit level 13

Then, after learning about all the drama on Elysium, I tried to make a suggestion. But then, I read in the suggestion section, that the staff would not even hear my suggestion. I wanted to suggest they create a separate 15x server. The staff said not to even bother asking for this, and that they will always be "true 1x Blizzlike server". I thought to myself "I can't take this anymore." I barely have any time, and any free time I have I end up spending in this game trying to level to 60. On top of that, blizzard could just come in and shut down the server at any moment, like they did Nostalrius. And all of those months if not years you spent into your character, would go down the toilet. So, again I rerolled on VanillaGaming, which is a much less populated server but at least they are 15x. So you spend 15 less time leveling and grinding. So, with the limited amount of time I have, I hit 60 within about 2 weeks

I played so much, that every free time I had I spent in this game. It got so bad, that tendons in my hands started to hurt. I was actually trying to recover from this, but playing this game made it 10 times worse. I'm officially on a one week sabbatical starting today from playing this game.


The realization that I had, was that if I keep doing what I'm doing, I will never recover from my real-life problems. I keep trying to escape my life, whether it's playing WoW, or having out of body experiences, I always end up being here in my body, miserable, lonely, and complaining about my circumstance.

I live in in-law, and sometimes all the walking that happens above me gets a little overwhelming. I keep trying to want to be left alone in peace. But today I realized that if that happens, I will always be poor. I will always live in cheap places, with noise problems, and ghetto people. Like my roommate for example. After she and her friends heard me listening to Trump speeches, as well as some Red Ice Radio interviews (I am a member), she and all the people that come by to visit her started to act really weird. She's Mexican. Instead of asking me or talking to me about Trump, she automatically put me in a box, judging me and looking down on me. These are the type of people I will always be around, unless I get off my ass and do something to change my life.

I even posted on the things that I can do to make lots of money, but all I do is watch these law of attraction videos fantasizing about the good life, instead of working hard to get there.

So, the realization today was that I have to create a Long term goal plan, write it down, and work every single day to achieve it. I want to start small. I really want to get a certificate this year. I'm thinking between a Mac, Network+ (I heard that you automatically get A+ -mine expired), or Windows 10. At the same time, I should start reading books that I always wanted to read. I have two books that have been laying around for two years. Plus, one Seth Book that I have been reading for almost one year! I need to find a way to create a plan where I read little by little everyday, instead of surfing the Internet and wasting my life in this dead end game.

For anyone that is still reading my blog... Wish me luck, because I sure as hell need it.

Nerve wrecking OBE

last night I was stuck again. it went from me falling back asleep 4 hours after my nap, and then hearing this annoying sound, to hearing people chatter, to seeing this social gathering very clearly. I tried to project there to see what was going on, but... stuck in my body. keep hearing this loud sound and some sort of buzzing sound. I think it was my shield that I visualized before bed spinning around me. it was really nerve wrecking.

I tried rolling out, nothing. getting up, couldn't. then I see this tunnel in my right vision. not going through it but just witnessing it spinning. then see purple clouds. I felt like I could be in this stage forever. but my fear and nerves got enough of this, so I woke self up. couldn't sleep for 10 mins, cuz I had to calm down first. so I jotted this down in my journal. man I am so frustrated being stuck in my OBEs. it's like, I don't know what to do. I guess I need to practice, but I'm tired of all the Astral Noise when I'm stuck. sometimes it get overwhelming.

I lost my virginity

Technically, I already did with a tranny when I blogged about it. But since some people say that the only way you can truly lose your virginity is with an opposite sex. Today was that day. October 30, 2016. I was jerking off all day practicing my "tantra", and was so horny I busted within a few strokes.

Not gonna go into details, but let's just say that... there was a "price" to pay for the pussy. There is always price you pay for the pussy, cuz pussy is in high demand. Men start wars over this shit, and some men go out and blow themselves up and take 100 people with them. Because in the end, they believe in their mind that will get pussy. Crazy. Well, on a good note, I am not one of those psychopaths or lost souls willing to hurt and murder people. Thank god. It could've technically be me. Anyone lost and needing purpose in life could get brainwashed enough to do the craziest shit... for pussy.

Anyway, I'm smoking weed tonight for the last time in a while. Damn I talk a lot when I smoke. It's good therapy. I don't talk enough. I need to smoke some and go out every week. Soon... I'm working on a plan to turn my life around, get money, pussy, and grow as much as possible before I go.

But I'm thinking of moving. My landlord and his fam really walk a lot and that shit cuts deep and get on my nerves. We'll see. I'll talk to him tomorrow when I pay my rent. Maybe they can tone it down, or if not I'm outta here. fuck that shit. I don't need stress. When I don't nap, I hear them stumping for HOURS. I already talked to him, it got better but still it's really bad some nights. One of my goals is to go out after work and find a good vibe coffee shop. Study on my A+ and a Mac certificate. And come home at around 10pm. maybe do that 3x a week. Plus, finish another Seth book I am ready. I been reading it for like 6 months. So yeah, going out of my basement could really help me and no more naps so much. I take naps cuz I try to have Out-of-Body Experiences, when I completely forget and abondon my In-Body Experiences.

Anyway, I am out for now. Gonna go eat, shower, and get ready for work tomorrow. I really need sleep.

Meditation and Music helps

I really need to get back into pick-up. I haven't done any approaches in so long, I feel like I lost all my power. I need to keep approaching women. It gives me energy, and makes me feel alive. It's really weird. Approaching women to get with makes me feel confident and amazing as a man.

But anyway, meditation helps to clear the mind. I have been doing it daily for about 2 weeks, and can actually remember my dreams every time I wake up, at least some of them. Even after I stopped smoking weed, I couldn't remember 90% of my dreams anymore. It's like I didn't care. I stopped reading my Seth book, and forgot all about that 2nd life. I also read that people who meditate every day, have Lucid Dreams on the regular basis. I remember back when I was trying to Astral Project, but didn't realize it's a constant work. Working on yourself as a person. Meditation is like food, spiritual food. Just like music

OBEs could be scary

I haven't had an OBE in a good minute, because I haven't tried. And also because I am focusing my attention in THIS world, getting all the things I need to survive and be happy. But last night, I was able to induce one.

Lately, I have been able to take naps regularly, and yesterday was no exception. Then a few hours later when it was time to go to bed, I meditated for about 5 minutes, followed by a numbing of my limbs exercise, and some protection visualizations. Then out of nowhere, I hear something falling to the floor on my right. I was about to get up and check, but then realized it's the vibration stage. So I am laying there stuck, can't move and can't see. Everything is black. I could sort of move my astral arms out, but barely. So I ask my guides to please help me with this. And before I know it, I start seeing my room with someone shining blue light towards the direction of my vision. Then I take a look at the ceiling where my window drapes are, and there is a monkey looking right at me! It scared the crap out of me. This is like if you are sitting there in your room doing something on your computer, you turn your head, and see a monkey! a freaking monkey!!! I mean, it's one thing to see a giant spider, but alive animal?? This isn't the scariest OBE I had, but I really need to get used to them, especially when they are very vivid. I used to think that once I learn how to OBE, I would be flying around everywhere, go to Mars, go to other planets, meet aliens, travel inter-dimensionally. But it's not so easy. Fear always gets in the way. And in order to progress, you must face it head on.

This is why I admire Robert Monroe, and how far he went in his Astral Projections. The man is a LEGEND! I will soon read his 3rd book, if time permits.

late Sunday night...

I was LMFAO at this interview last night smoking some good shit

i’m about 98% done with my move, and man.. i don’t even have internet here. I need to talk to my landlord and ask him to use his for a while. I don’t really play games anymore or even watch netflix. basically it’s youtube, google, news, and checking out books. speaking of books, ever since the founder of Amazon tweeted that comment about Trump, I boycotted that side. and instead of using Kindle, I am reading a book on Nook app. it’s pretty good. i was so fucking mad seeing Kindle’s location number instead of pages. i was looking for an alternative ebook reader ferociously. couldn’t find it. but Nook has pages!!! and they have lots of ebooks. i think as much as Amazon. I’m already gonna read another history book right after this one. Truth, how I will always search for you, no matter where I go, in this body and out. maybe that’s why I got into Astra Projection. I wanna know how everything works. I NEED to know or I feel weak and scattered. When I know, I feel grounded and confident, knowing who I am and where I am going. I guess if you really wanna know the truth and live your life well, you gotta understand the world, and then understand yourself. without neither of these, you are nothing. you are lost. a stranger in a foreign land, still trying to learn its rules.

this is why these liberal pussies destroy each country they take over. with liberals you get the worst ghettos in America, with all the people on welfare, which gives them 0% motivation to get off their ass and learn a skill or get ahead. but these folks still vote for libs. so it’s sort of a trade off. liberals are just using blacks as slaves… for votes. and they keep voting for them. it’s disgusting. but this goes back to people not understanding the world. I guess James Manning was right when he said that “you can teach a black man how to be a doctor, you could teach a black man how to be a lawyer, you could teach a black man how to be a physisit, but you could never teach a black man how to understand the world.” but people are waking. actually a lot of black Americans today support Trump. they are tired of all this shit. I even saw a video of black folks in South Side of Chicago mad as hell talking about how Obama hasn’t done SHIT for them. he cares more about muslims he’s bringing in destroying this country, then help out the black folks. this guy is a DISGRACE to America. how did this immigrant from Kenya fool everyone? but I guess anyone who has George Soros, the son of Satan, is backing them up, could be the president. with all that money it takes to win, you just need the right rich guy to fund your campaign.

oh well. I was laughing so hard at this interview. Trump is just speaking common sense, and the world treats him like an idiot. we have all the technology, the smartest people in the world!!! and our leaders are like ‘we don’t know what to do. let’s continue what we’ve been doing and bomb ISIS’. hey dumb ass, how has that been working for you for the last year? can’t believe we have such utter idiots running our countries. I give the western civilization 20 years, MAX! if we don’t get Trump and more like him into our governments, say bye bye Constitution, say hello Sharia. but just watch England, and Sweden, and Germany as well and see what happens to these experiments that have been going on for quiet sometime. the lawsuits they have with muslims playing the victims will make you laugh out loud. it is the most disgusting freak show you will ever witness. it’s 100x worse than lawsuits in America. but it’s always muslims who are the poor poor victims. fucking hilarious. it’s gonna go nowhere else than down for them. i feel sorry for the people, though. no Europeans deserve war, or get their children be raped by a pack of animals or their young boys beat up in the streets. but that’s exactly what’s happening, thanks to the liberals and socialists who brought this into their own lands. what fucking pisses me off, these libs all live in all white areas that are safe and quite. would they ever have to live amongst these muzzrats, they would’ve screamed and yelled how horrible it was!! but they don’t, because they have never lived among these muslim animals, and never will. we need to get some tough conservatives elected, and put these pieces of human trash on trial for treason. then execute every last one of them. or simply kick them out to the countries of these “refugees”, and make them live there among the population as a European. make them “#FeelTheBurn”…

TRUMP 2016!!!!!!!!!!!

cold from Marijuana

so, I was sick with fever, and soar throat from weed AGAIN. Could not even go to work on Wednesday. was going through my blog and turns out this happened about a year ago. it's almost as if I haven't learned my lesson yet, or I simply forgot about it. so I had to re-learn it.

I was smoking weed a lot lately. some weeks almost every day. one good thing about it is, i developed a high tolerance for it. but my body still seems to reject it if I do it on regular basis. my throat starts to hurt, and then i eventually get a cold. or maybe only during cold seasons since everyone is sick now. it's really weird but that's how my body works. as a result I am quitting weed for the most part. I do wanna smoke it every Sunday, though. because Sundays are the worst. I get insomnia on Sundays like no other day because the next day is work. couldn't sleep last night for some reason until 4:30 in the morning! had an OBE when finally falling asleep. it's weird but OBEs seem to happen more naturally around that time.

I am actually thinking of getting a real vaporizer after reading a suggestion in that thread i linked above. the problem is, why would i need it if I wouldn't smoke that much? I already bought one for my friend, but after talking with my co-worker, turns out that it's not really a vaporizer. it's a pen with a coil. i thought that's how all vaporizers are, but that's the first one i spent money on. and it wasn't even for me.

Here are pros and cons about marijuana, and how it effects me.

Cons:

Laziness
Apathy
Unable to focus
Unable to study
Unable to read
Unable to get anything productive done

Pros:

Relaxation
Stress relief
Focus better (some traits actually go backwards in certain trips)
Become more social - When I smoke, I tend to keep on talking without going back in my head. This helps me with people. but problem is, I've had horrible panic attacks doing it in public. So I try my best to socialize sober (whenever I grow enough balls to go out to socialize. in other words, almost never)
ABLE TO SLEEP!


The main reason why I even smoke weed, is because it is the only thing that helps my insomnia. But when I do it so much, even weed stops working. So, I need to smoke it in moderation. I do wanna try magic mushrooms next, as it helps with cluster headaches and I've been into psychedelics for some time. As of now, though, my main focus is on MONEY.

bought a Wii U, found this site.

Bought a Wii U on Friday. The best decision I have made in a long time. Plus, I also bought this DELL monitor, which is the best monitor I've EVER owned. So the timing was perfect! Bestbuy had this sale, so I had to take advantage of it, as console are never on sale. And fuck Black Friday! I hate the crowd . I used to work retail on Black Friday. Luckily, it wasn't Walmart where people are like fucking animals, grabbing anything they could get their hands on.

Anyway, I got Super Mario Wii U and Luigi Wii U in one. Came out on the same day I purchased it, 10/16/15. Luigi game is stupid! It's basically the same thing as the Mario one but levels are slightly altered, some of them, and there is a timer so you gotta rush. But Mario Wii U is awesome! I also got the Mario Kart 8, so I'm gonna go play that and go to bed.

But found this website while browsing on my Wii

http://beforeitsnews.com/beyond-science/2012/01/redux-terrified-woman-from-another-universe-wakes-up-here-1575265.html

This makes me want to get back into Astral Projection. I had one a few days ago, but I mostly smoke weed now. It's hard to sleep for me. Something about this place or the energy here. I never lived in a calm, relaxed, and grounded place. And I am very sensitive to energy, so things in the air are always disturbing me. I remember once there was this being or something watching me. I know because I had an OBE, and once I snapped out of it, I heard this real loud crack in the ceiling, and a second later a car's alarm went off. it was as if this being jumped to ceiling and then flew out to escape and hit the car. This other time, I have this OBE and I open my astral eyes. I see this giant being, looks like a 6'5 feet elf looking at me. He was more curious but freaked me out, so I start blowing air at him so that he'll disappear. I'm all freaked out unable to move. But yeah, all of these parallel realities exist and I've experienced some worlds beside this one. I just need to learn how to sleep without weed, get some money, and travel a little. I wanna see more places here in America and move somewhere where I like the energy. So far, this place has been gotta weird to me. People here are different, not very grounded, and very stand offish.

I'm out. Gonna go play some Mario Kart, and look for other Wii U titles. I wanna find something I could play with other people online. That new Splatoon game seems nice but it's an utter trash since Nintendo doesn't even allow you to voice chat with people. Not the best console for online games, I guess. But I don't have much time anyway. This is my 1st Nintendo since I had SNES 20 years ago. I had the best times with it. And I can see me enjoying the fuck outta this Wii U. I love Nintendo. The only console that makes me enjoy games like a kid, and love every second of life while playing them.

Seth, Dreams and Projections of Consciousness - BOOK REVIEW

It's hard for me to review this book after just finishing it, because I have been reading it for almost a year! I started for a while, then put it off. Picked it back up, and put it down again. Just recently, I really pushed myself to finish it. I haven't been reading books lately, and this is the latest one I read.

Starting Seth, Dreams and Projections of Consciousness, really reminded me how much I miss Seth. I really enjoyed Seth Speaks, and remembered how pleasant, comforting, and comprehensive Jane Robert's writing is.

The beginning of the book familiarizes you with Seth, and it gets deeper and deeper. Like many other Out-of-Body Experience / Astral Projection books, this Seth book indicates that you become more psychic as you have more OBEs. You could get insights of people, family members, strangers, etc.. in the OBE states, which you can't get in ordinary life. This has been my experience.

Dreams and Projections of Consciousness isn't a book you read through quickly and easily. This is one of those books that makes you think. I will have to go back and re-read it some day, because many of its ideas and concepts are hard to grasp for the human brain. It is like this part in the last chapter that said something to the likes of; when you have an Out-of-Body Experience, and you go into a really deep multi-dimentional place, as you come back to the physical body, your physical mind is not able to interpret the complex information you were exposed to. It's sort of like people who go deeply into meditation, or drink ayahuasca, and when they come back to this reality, they are not able to explain what they have experienced in words. This book is like that. It really makes you think, and you will find yourself going back and re-reading the same passage multiple times in order to fully grasp its meaning. Here is a good quote:

All experience is basically simultaneous, as I have told you. The dreaming self is aware of its experience in its entirety. You, obviously, are not. You are hardly familiar with your dream experience and barely aware of its significance. (Ch. 18, Probable Selves; Kindle location 4383 of 5610, 78% finished)

I got a little bit confused at some point, asking myself "Is this being written by Rob or Jane?" But Seth touches on a lot of subjects in this book like...

• The Dream World
• The Boundaries and the Confinements of the Dream World
• Dreams and Health
• How to Remember Your Dreams / Develop Dream Recall
• How to Have Out-of-Body Experiences / Astral Projections
• The Rules of the Physical World vs The Rules of the Dream / Astral World
• Hallucinations vs Astral Projections; How to Distinguish Them and Clear Hallucinations out of the Way
• Probable Realities and Probable Selves
• Thought Forms
• Different Bodies (Dream Body, Astral Body, etc..) Seth Calls these 1st Form, 2nd Form, and 3rd Form
• Astral Projection Stories

and much more.

Seth answered my main question, and the question of many other OBE travelers, "Is it safe to leave your body?"

You are safe as long as you do not meddle. You may explore, and freely, and that is all. (Ch. 20, More on Dream Projections; Kindle location 4820 of 5610, 86% finished)

If you are interested in Out-of-Body Experiences / Astral Projections, if you have lots of questions about it, as well as about the Universe beyond our physical world, this book is a must read! I highly recommend reading this book in a chronological order. It starts out slow, especially if you aren't familiar with Seth, but it gets better, and better, and then it just explodes in an orgasm at the end. The end is the best part where Seth goes into detail about Out-of-Body Experiences / Astral Travel. The last chapter was excellent, and the very last paragraph was poetic and an absolute classic way to end the book. I have never read a book with this good of an ending. 4.5/5 stars. A book MUST HAVE for Out-of-Body travelers and explorers, right next to Far Journeys.

False Awakening & OBE

So, just this morning when I woke up, I had my first false awakening. I had a long dream, and then... I wake up. I check my computer, and it says that it's snowing outside. I think WTF!? can't be real. I look outside, and there is Arizona desert like mountains, with snow around them! I do a reality check, and it feels blurry. I realize I am dreaming. Then I woke self up to prove it to myself. But once I did, I regretted it realizing I could have had a LD and went flying somewhere.


Now, I had an OBE a few days ago, in which I was stuck as usual. I normally don't share my OBEs because in 95% of them I seem to be stuck like this. But here it is, word for word from my dream journal on my tablet.


Can't seem to separate no matter what I do. At first, laying in bed repeating 'I will have a lucid dream'. Then I have a feeling like my legs are floating but I'm stuck. I hear 2 men talk in some alien language I never heard before. it was like listening to the radio. I got scared at first when I started thinking about vast emptiness, darkness, and nothingness that stretches across the universe, and how lucky I am to be here on earth where I actually experience colors, shapes, sizes, forms, and most importantly light. Then I calmed self down, visualizing my REBAL.

I keep trying to separate as the 2 men talk, but I'm stuck. I move head side to side, and hear my hair rubbing across the bed head board. Try rolling out. Can't move at all. See room in grey with a little bit of light, as always. See a black object on the top right. Tried seeing what it was but no luck. Eventually, when started thinking about how long more this will last, I could feel it fading. Next time I won't think about end.

Trippy Tunnels & Spirals

I'm gonna check these out after smoking some when I get home. Terrance McKenna was talking about these when he took 2 really strong hits of DMT, going through a tunnel, thinking that he died.

Fear and OBEs

so I haven't had an Out-of-Body Experience in over a month. I did have one that I didn't even write down in my journal about a week ago. I woke up from my nap, opened my astral eyes, and saw some creature jump across my room, from my window exiting my door. it looked like some sort of a demon at first, but I think it was a monkey. the fear kicked in right away, and I woke myself up shortly after that.

so today I come home from work, eat, and go to take a nap. most times I am unsuccessful due to my insomnia, but I guess my body hasn't been getting enough sleep lately so I fell asleep after about 10 minutes. Then another 10 minutes go by, and I am walking into my room from the outside seeing my bed. At this point, I know I am starting to have an experience. Then I am laying down in my pitch black room, and I'd say about 10% of the light is there that seems to be coming from my window. It is dark outside, but MAN IS IT DARK IN MY ROOM! My fear gets so big, I could feel it penetrating in every part of my body. Vibrations are also there. Fear stops the experience just a little bit, but I get back into it feeling the vibrations still buzzing.  I feel my legs being pulled upwards trying to separate from my body. I haven't been able to separate for months successfully. Then I think to myself "is this my spirit guides pulling me out, or is it me?" I freak out again. It's so dark, and spooky, I freak out even more thinking someone is in the room I can't see and am afraid of being attacked.

I used to think that OBEs are so fun. I used to think that once I start having them, I'll be visiting other planets, and flying through space and time, etc.. but when I actually started to have them, there is so much fear involved, it isn't even funny. I think I just have to get over my fears somehow. I just don't know how. Every time I have an OBE, it's always dark, spooky, and in many cases it's pitch black. All I see is blackness. I also think this will keep on happening until I get over my fears. It's just like stage fright. When I had it, I had nothing but public speaking come up in work or school. Once I got over it, all the public speeches just went away. I wish I could do them more often, but I almost never have to do them for some strange reason. I just hope I get over my fears of darkness, and encountering other beings. Because it's really preventing me from experiencing the spirit world, even when I'm not trying to.

reason why I stopped trying to Astral Project

the reason why I stopped trying to have OBEs, Out-of-Body Experiences, Astral Projections, Out-of-Body Travel, and whatever you want to call it, is very simple. I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH IN-BODY-EXPERIENCES!

I gotta say, all my life I have been fascinated with Astral Travel. Ever since the first time I found out about it, I was hooked. What is it? Where can I go? Can I visit other worlds, or other planets? Can I meet aliens? Can I visit my ancestors? The possibilities are endless. But the problem is, I haven't lived HERE. I spend all this time thinking and trying to go THERE.

Let's see. I am 35, I have almost no friends, I just lost my virginity, I still live at home with my mom, I don't have a career, I do drive and have a car so that's a good thing, I don't have a girlfriend, I have so-so social skills, I don't know how to make enough money to move out on my own and get my own place. And after all of that, I am trying to escape this reality? Sounds like I am just running away from myself and my circumstances. Now, all of these things I am dealing with are changeable and doable. BUT I HAVE TO LIVE HERE IN THIS REALITY!!! I can't accomplish any of these goals I want to if I spend all my energy studying how to go out 'there' instead of learning how to be 'here.' This is why I stopped trying to have OBEs. Ironically, though, I still have them from time to time. I am half way of reading my latest OBE book, and I haven't touched it in months.

The thing with Astral Projection is, once you have one, you will always have them. you could have Lucid Dreams, or even regular dreams, but once you have an actual Out-of-Body experience, which is quiet different, you will keep having them. Whether you'd have one every week or every month, that all depends. But you will have them. Ironically, I had one last night without even trying. The thing, naps are crucial. And I tend to have an OBE when I take a nap during the day, and fall asleep a few hours later.

But yeah, as I said already. I am focusing my consciousness in THIS reality from now on. I have so many things I need to learn as you could already tell. It's impossible to attain all these needs and desires, if you spend all your time trying to learn what it's like to be in the spirit world. Robert Monroe had his first OBE when he was 43, and correct me if I'm wrong, he already had a house, a wife, and was a successful businessman. Now, if I had my life put together like that, HELL YES I WOULD TRY TO OBE! I would try to OBE every night. But I can't be putting all my energy into this, when my life here on earth, in the 3 dimensional space, is out of order. I spend more time trying to leave my body, then to learn how to be in it and find ways to make money. I need money. I really do. At this point in my life, I never thought I would ever care about money. I always knew that money isn't everything, and that money can't buy real friends or real love. But boy is money important in our world. How am I going to survive without money if I want to move out on my own?

And without money, how am I going to travel? I want to travel. I want to visit other states. I want to make friends. I want to explore THIS world. I want to learn Portuguese real well and travel to Brazil at some point. I want to visit the Amazon. I want to go to Thailand. I want to visit New York, which has been a dream of mine for so long, I almost feel like it will just be that, a dream. So many things I want to do on this planet, that I waste all my time trying to not be here. I understand I am miserable and not happy, but I can change all that. I know I can. But it won't happen if all I do is spend my free time trying to leave this reality, when I never perfected it. Once I perfect it, then I'll have an excuse to learn lessons in the Astral World. Until then, I need to find how to learn my lesson in this one. After all, that's why we are all here, to learn the lessons we came here to learn.

IAC 4 Week Workshop Review

This is a review of the IAC (International Academy of Consciousness) workshop I have taken. It lasted 4 weekends, which was taken place on Saturdays and Sundays.

I didn't really want to take this worship because I am one of those people that stays home most of the time, and has no life. It's hard for me to go out there, try things, and "live". But, coincidently, it happened through someone linking me with IAC people. So, I decided to take the workshop.

It started out being intriguing, but what I didn't like was that there was too much talking, and not enough practicing. The first weekend was just sitting there listening to the lecturer talk talk talk talk talk talk talk. It was hard to stay focused, considering I have ADD. And with all that talking, there was a lot of new jargon I did not understand. That was the first sign to me that I wasn't going to like this.

Here is the thing, there are universal terms in OBE/AP community that are used to describe Out-of-Body Experiences. Terms like Astral Body, Energy, Sleep Paralyses, Spirit Guides, etc.. In IAC, all of these terms are replaced by totally different, and may I say confusing, terms that basically mean the same thing. Astral Body means "Psychosoma", Energy means "Thosene", Sleep Paralyses means "Projective Catalepsy", Spirit Guides means "Helpers", etc.. This class really confused me, to say the least.

I remember the second, third, and fourth week we started doing exercises. One of the exercises was to lay down on mats, and practice projecting. But before doing so, we had to stand up straight, close our eyes, and do a bunch of pre-OBE exercises that were lead by the instructor. One of the main terms that really confused the heck out of me in this IAC workshop, was the term "vibrations". Here is the thing, I've had over 200 OBEs, and I can tell you from experience what "vibrations" are. The term "vibrations", is a pre-OBE state. Right before when you are about to project, your body goes into the vibrational stage. It feels almost as if your whole body is being shocked with electric current, except there is no pain. It is the same thing people experience in Sleep Paralyses, except they already wake up consciously without remembering the vibrations. This is because their body went through this stage when they were asleep, and when they wake up, they cannot move. This stage is there so that your body stays safely still in this world, while you explore the other world(s). In IAC, "vibrations" has two meanings. First, it is what I described, and second is when you feel tingly, and numbing of your body parts. If you ever laid down to practice leaving your body, you already know that after 15 or so minutes of laying still, you'll start feeling numbness in your body parts, or may even feel tingles. According to IAC, those are "vibrations", which are NOT in my book. But it is just that, numbness in your body parts, and tingly sensations. So, from there I was really confused when students were saying "I was laying down, and felt the vibrations". After a few minutes, it was obvious they were talking about the numbness, and NOT the vibrational stage.

As I was saying, we were standing up with eyes closed doing the exercise. Now the instructor would say something like "feel relaxed, and try to induce the 'vibrations'". The first thought in my mind was "HUH!?!" You cannot induce the "vibrations" by standing up. You must lay down! But I guess she was talking about the second meaning. Either way, every class these terms confused me more and more.

I remember thinking "what about protection? Don't they have any technique for that in IAC?", and boy do they. They have this thing called the VELO, which stands for Voluntary Energetic Longitudinal Oscillation (are you confused yet?) It's when you move energy up and down your body. Here is what it looks like. Fast forward to 2:48 to see what I'm talking about.





Here is what I don't like and don't agree with. What will VELO gonna do when an entity is going to grab you? Even Robert Monroe, that has his own unique terms, has the same exact protection shield that everyone seems to use in the Occult community. But instead of terms like "Shield", "Psychic Shield", etc., Monroe calls it "REBAL", which stands for Resonant Energy Balloon. In the end, it's the same thing as the shield. And Monroe talks about being attacked in one of his OBEs by some sort of animal in his first book. So, I trust this man with knowledge of how to protect yourself in the OBE state. And since Monroe's method of protection is exactly the same as what the universal method for protection is in the OBE community, it's as good as gold in my book. But what is VELO? In my opinion, you need that space inside the balloon/shield to protect you from what's out there. VELO does not provide this sort of protection. But I am sure it works for many IAC people. It just doesn't work for me.

Another reason why I was so bored in this class, was because a lot of the material covered I was already exposed to. There was nothing new here for me to learn. They talked about reincarnation, and it was so boring I almost fell asleep on several occasions. If you really want to save $500 on this IAC workshop, just read Journey of Souls, by Michael Newton. This book will teach you about the reincarnation process in the most simplistic terms, and you wouldn't have to learn all these confusing jargons which you wouldn't be able to use outside of the IAC community.

I was actually going to purchase Waldo Vieira's (CEO of IAC) first book, but after thinking about how bored and confused I was in the classes, I thank myself now that I didn't. You can actually check out the reviews of Luis Minero's (an IAC instructor) 'Demystifying OBEs' book on amazon, and the few 1 and 2 star reviews are saying the same thing I am saying here. All these jargons are confusing and redundant. I mean, I sort of I understand because they are all translated from Portuguese, but even then, it makes me feel like I part of a cult or something. Like no one would understand what I'm talking about except for the people in my group.

Another thing I did not like about IAC, was how against they were using additional tools to project. Tools like stones, binaural beats, etc.. Even though they were very open, the conversation would go something like this. "You can use stones, BUT...", or "you can use hemi-sync, BUT what if you project and you won't need it anymore?" After having countless OBEs, I gotta say that once you project, you won't be hearing what you are hearing with your physical ears, but you'll be hearing what you perceive in whatever world you are in at that moment. I also use sage to cleanse my space, but I am sure IAC would find something wrong with that too. And stones, along with binaural beats, have helped me to have my first experience. But do not rely on stones and hemi-sync to do all the work for you. In the end, use all the tools you can, but you yourself have to do the work. IAC seems to promote this idea that "your mind is better than any tool that could help you to have an OBE." Yes, your mind is more powerful than a rock, or a binaural beat, but it doesn't mean you have to shut out all the tools that are available to you in this age and time.

Now let's talk about something very important, naps. At this point in my life, I could have an OBE any night, as long as I take a nap first, which is hard to do since I have insomnia. Naps are KEY in Astral Projecting. But in the IAC workshop, naps weren't covered even once!


So, if you feel like being part of something 'unique', if you feel like being 'different', and completely separate yourself from the rest of the OBE/AP community, go ahead and take this workshop. I gotta warn you, though. You will have to re-learn everything you already know about OBEs, at least terminology. I didn't even have this hard of a time learning Robert Monroe's terms, because they at least made sense and were simple.

Looking back, I really should've signed up for just the first week instead of all four. But I am glad I did it because I learned a lot about the company and what the people there believe in, and also met like minded people who are interested in Out-of-Body/Astral Projection Experiences and exploring consciousness.

I give this workshop 2 out of 5 stars. 2 because people behind IAC aren't bad. They won't lead you astray. IAC is not really a cult, and won't brainwash you. They'll just confuse the crap out of you, and teach you the basics of the process of life and death. This stuff you could learn from books, or having your own OBE experiences.

But which books? Can you recommend me some? The first one I already linked. And the other book that really helped me to have my first Out-of-Body Experience was Out-of-Body Experiences: How to Have Them and What to Expect by Robert Peterson.

Lastly, I want to say this. Peace and Love to all the people at the IAC institute. I liked all of the instructors, but just don't resonate with your methods, and your jargons. A lot of the stuff you teach is the same thing, just described with different terms. I'd rather stick with what I know, because I don't want to be that guy that no one understands except for one community I am part of. God bless.

IAC Website: http://www.iacworld.org/

Far Journeys, Robert A. Monroe - BOOK REVIEW -

So, I've had high expectations for this book because I read that it was the best one out of the trilogy by Robert Monroe. Far Journeys started out slow, but it was getting more and more interesting. Then it slowed down again, and was hard to follow. The terminology was sort of vague and confusing, but then I understood why. Robert was trying his best to translate from the 'language' of energy in various energy systems, into the language of words. It isn't an easy task, and I think he did the best he could.

Some chapters in the beginning made me wonder why this book was so hyped up by a few people, until I started reading the part about reincarnation. This was when Monroe met 2 beings whom never incarnated before, took an interest in the physical experiences, and asked Bob to tell them how it works. Monroe saw how curious one of them got about life in the physical, that he got 'sucked into' it. It was the most fascinating chapters I have read in a book, possibly ever. But then again, I always wondered, and sought out answers about the process of reincarnation. By observing it all in the Out-of-Body state, Monroe saw exactly what happens, and how a soul goes through the process of its first incarnation, to its many more to follow, to finally, after thousands of lives, the last one called "graduation". He goes into so much depth that I just could not put the book down. I got lost in it, and didn't want it to end. For a while I was meditating reading this book. Here is Robert Monroe talking briefly about the process of reincarnation. But he goes much deeper on it in Far Journeys. This is like a summary, and a good summary at that.




Far Journeys is a lot more heavier and interesting than his first book, Journeys out of the Body, which I did not review but read it a while ago. I am so looking forward to buying his third book, it's not even funny. In due time...

I give this book 4.5/5 stars because even though some chapters were slow and hard to follow, the ones about the process made up for it 10 fold! I love this book, and I love Monroe. I have gained a lot of respect for this man. Because he is all about finding out the truth, rather than trying to brainwash people or instill fear into them just to have them follow his teachings.

Amazing Astral Projection

Earlier this morning I had the most amazing Astral Projection aka Out of Body Experience aka OBE.

Long story short, for all of you who have followed me for a while, you know that I had an OBE blog. But I made it private. I felt that once I started having OBEs, some of them were pretty personal. I remember blogging about one where I witnessed my death in one of my incarnations at a concert. So, I felt like many of my discoveries are for me, and me only. When I first started my OBE practice, I was using Robert Monroe's Gateway Experience tapes. After a few months, I gave up and sort of felt it was pointless because I did not even have 1 OBE. Then I had my first OBE back in 2010. Then as I had so much fear, I found myself being stuck. I got to a point where my fear has become so strong while I have an Astral Projection, that I automatically eject, and get back into my body. I put this hobby of mine to a side as life took a toll on me and I really put my focus into getting a job and living HERE, in the NOW.

Very recently I started using Robert Monroe's GE tapes again. But this time I am doing it differently. Instead of using them 2-3 times each before moving to the next. I am using them 7+ times. The last session I have been practicing for at least 20 times. They really help me now because I already had my first OBE.

So, this is the Astral Projection I had this morning, which was my biggest break through. Every time I would have an experience and have it not last, be stuck for whatever reason, or due to fear, I get back into my body. And I just could not have another experience. The only thing I could do was to fall asleep. But this morning was different :)

What happened was I got into the trance where I am in my Astral Body, but am stuck in my physical body again. I could only move my Astral Hands, but could not even roll over to separate. I try the rope technique, which NEVER worked for me btw, nothing. I try opening eyes, and opened my physical right eye. Shut it back up real quick, but the OBE fades shortly after. So, I am thinking "great! guess that is it for today". I lay there waiting to fall asleep. But I remembered that when I am in this half asleep, half awake stage my visualizations would take me out of my body and into another place. This is where I am not flying, and not exploring the universe in my Astral Body so to speak. I mean I AM, but instead of me flying and being completely free, I am somewhere walking on land. I don't know what to call these OBEs, but it is where I am in either mine or someone else's body and I am at a different place. Robert Monroe described this experience in his first book, where he was talking about visiting either a different planet of a different civilization, or a different parallel reality in a physical body. I feel like this is what happened to me today.

So, as I was just about to fall asleep. I started to visualize. I visualized all sorts of things and right at the moment of when I was so drowsy, I knew I was slipping into the sleeping mode, I visualize separating from my body. And BAM!!!!!!!!! I AM OUT!!! I get up from bed, and find myself in some unfamiliar room. I look at the bed, but my body is not there. I have been practicing Tantric sex in real life, so I am still horny in my OBE (lol). I go from room to room looking for a girl. I see one, but as she sees me she disappears into thin air. Then I end up in this room where some party is taking place. Now at this point, the vividness isn't that strong. I am guessing it is because I am still new at this and 'phasing', as Robert Monroe calls it, isn't as strong and as focused as I am still new and inexperienced. So, I end up talking to one lady and she ends up telling me whether I am real or a spirit. It was strange because she knew that I could be either, and I was the latter, someone just passing by that can disappear upon wakening. Long story short, I meet these 2 tall African guys and ask them how I could find a club or a place to meet women. They tell me yeah, you gotta go to so and so place. And lead me outside. I follow, but missed them as they hop on a bus. It was snowing, so I start walking the streets. I end up finding a park with this man who was nuts. So I ask him "what city is this?", as I asked that lady in the room of the party, he tells me and the name is strange. I mean, really strange. Back at the party I thought that this is Earth, and US, so I ask this man "America?". He says "NO!" and repeats the name, then tells me the state of the city. I repeat it, then he says it again, I repeat it again. I do this over and over, being sort of glad this guy is nuts (btw, the names sounded the same as the lady told me earlier). So, we go back and forth repeating the names as I needed to remember them upon wakening. And I knew it was soon. After maybe 15 seconds, I wake up.

HOLY BALLS!!! THIS WAS MY LONGEST AND MOST EXCITING OBE I HAVE EVER HAD! I must've been gone for 30 minutes. Honestly, I feel a lot better having these sort of Astral Projections where I seem to be in some other body or am among other humans, be it another planet, or a parallel Universe. Because OBEs where I am flying, or projecting to some other place is scary to me as of right now. But I am working on conquering my fears, and so far I am very glad I picked it back up. I am really focusing right now on perfecting my Astral Travel, and at some point learn how to visit Akashic Records, so I could find more about my life mission and how I could get better at living this life that I chose this time around.

This was so amazing to me, I am going to practice again tonight! :) So much to learn, so many places to visit in this infinite universe. I just want to thank my spirit guides for helping me along in my journeys.

Seth Speaks: The Eternal Validity of the Soul - Book Review

Just finished reading this THICK book. 1 word.... WOW! It is about multiple realities/dimensions that you are living in, been living in, or wll eventually be living in . The book is so deep, that I am still puzzled by many of the concepts and realities of reincarnations, and other realms/dimensions of existences. I highly recommend to read "Journey of Souls" by Michael Newton before you touch this book though. Because many of the basics are touched on in that book. This book is like an ADVANCED version of it on the realities outside of this 3 dimensional one we experience in 4d..


Also, this is a good book for anyone going through lots of craziness in their life needing some answers. It is thick, 427 pages, and took me 3 weeks to read, but it was worth every page. You can get it for cheap at amazon with free shipping, get it at the library (what I did), or in the worst case buy it in a store. For the lazy readers you can find the audio book on youtube.


All the info in this book was channeled, and I have read somewhere that Jane Roberts was one of the pioneers of the New Age movement.

some of the subjects covered in the book: Aliens, Atlantis, Egypt, Africa, Rome, Jesus Christ, consciousness, God, Devil, other dimensions, multi-dimensions of yourself, OBEs, dreams, time, ESP, psychics, mediums, past lives, symbols, evil vs. good, reality, etc.

There are portions of alien history. It's about the times where this planet was visited by other beings who have created us, and left. There was a lot of experimentation done on a DNA level before they departed, and I have also heard this from various of other sources. Michael Tsarion is one of the people who have been saying similar things, by the way.

4.5 / 5 stars bitches!

















Seth channeled through Jane Roberts