I had the BEST Date of my life...

I just got home from my date; first one this year. It was with a big girl I met, from cl of all places. It's funny because I just got some weed, and I haven't smoked in a long ass time. I am still doing my 60 days no fap challenge, but since I smoked a few days in a row I was like 'ehhh, let me look on cl', even though it was against my challenge. So I did, and found this girl's ad. Her ass was fucking AMAZING! And she liked my pics, so we ended up having a date.

She pretty much told me she is a weirdo, like me. And she has no friends, like me. WTF? That really shocked me. These two things mos def are huge things we have in common. I tried talking about sex asking what she likes when she brought up polyandry, but it went downward from there. I was so fucking horny for some reason. I usually have a really bad sex drive since all this porn and fapping I've been doing throughout a big part of my life. It almost put a mute on my sex drive. My boners weren't as strong, my climax was weak, and after the first orgasm I didn't care to go for the second round. But after seeing all the ass on this girl, and not fapping nor porn watching, I started fantasizing about BBWs and was almost on a mission to bone her after the date. I was surprised too because I thought I only like Trannies this much. But I guess BBWs, and other sorts of women are all a part of me, as much as Trannies are a big part of me too.

I came home with blue balls. It was painful, and still is somewhat. My nuts are officially red, but my 60 day challenge is still on. It's a good thing the girl gave me feedback on how forward I was sexually and that isn't a good thing on the first date. Many girls would just walk out and the date would be over. Anyway, I can see the future with this girl. I was just checking out her curves and HOT DAYMN I WANTED TO RAVAGE THAT PUSSY RIGHT THERE!!! my god... but if anything happens with this chick, I'll make another post.

Kanye West getting sonned

I just gained a whole lotta respect for this dude Charlamagne. He was keeping it real 100%! Kanye West doesn't know wtf he is talking about. Big ego, mouthing off, throwing random shit on the wall and seeing what sticks. STFU Kanye. Please just shut up. You embarrassing yourself. stop changing the subject because you have nothing to say. He can't even look Charlamagne in the eyes.

Palestenian girl, pt. 6

So I am at work today and step out to get some candy from the store across the street. I was about to take a regular exit, and guess who I see... my Palestinian girl standing there talking to a co-worker. I'm like GREAT... so I go around and sneak out the employee entrance. She saw me... I don't think much of it and go in the store browsing for some candy to buy.

I get my Calypso drink and some dried mangos, turn the isle, and GUESS WHO I SEE! I was like hey! what's up? long time no see.. she is like yeah, blah blah and I just talked to her for a few minutes. Then I'm like okay, well it was nice seeing you again. she says yes me too.

here is the thing.. at this point... I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! she seems very interested in me, but I am at a point where she either asks me out, or this will not happen. I got too many issues and my biggest fear is letting anyone, or especially a girl who is a co-worker into my life, letting her see my flaws and especially predicaments that I'm in. but if she gets at me... I'm down to hang out. I am just tired of being the only one doing all the work. I feel like she needs to face her fears. If she likes me, she should say so and go from there. If she won't, oh well...

a Bird Shitted on my Head today...

so I was sitting in a mini park downtown doing what I always do, people watch, and this one little fucker flew over me and sat on the tree above me. I didn't even notice him until I felt some liquid drop on the hair that is right at the base of my forehead. I touched it and HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!! it was yellowish and mixed with some white dots. I was like great! I grabbed whatever was left of it and it was bird shit. Thank god I always carry around a napkin with me.

This is the 2nd time this happened. First was when I was a little kid when I was around 6...

Palestinian girl, pt. 5

So, yeah. A strange thing happened on the way home back on Monday from a long day of work.

I get on the train and see the Palestinian girl co-worker that I had some history with. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK EVER! and completely ignore her walking behind her. She was standing next to a stand looking at her phone. I was like okay whatever. I go waaaaaay back. I'd say 3 trains at least. It's crowded. And I'm thinking, well I'm glad that's over. Then I get on the train, grab a seat, start reading my book. 20 seconds later... I look up... guess who I see. This girl is standing there looking all foxy. High heals, see through dark yellow stockings. I am like WTF? I guess she really like me. no fucking way she would come rush 3 trains ahead within like a minute. So, I'm like okay whatever. Keep reading my book. A seat becomes available next to me... She doesn't take it. I'm like hmmm... okay I guess this is a coincidence. If you like me, this your perfect chance to come sit next to me and say hello. I mean we are co-workers. Another seat becomes available to the front right perpendicular to me, right next to exit. She sits there. I'm like okay. My stop is next. I get up and go towards the door. She has her head in her right hand like she's nervous or something. I am like okay cool. No eye contact. See ya!!! Get to the door, wait like 20 seconds which seemed like 20 minutes standing right next to her on my right.

It's really interesting. My other co-worker told me that this girl is passive. I didn't understand what she meant cuz she couldn't give me a good example. But now I see why. You can't even say hi to me first? Wow... well, there is nothing I can do baby. If you like me, you're just gonna have to grow some balls and initiate a convo at least... face your fears.

I saw her linkedin page and she is going places. I am just surprised she still works at retail that is like a shit job, which pays you not so well.. but yeah, if anything else happens with this girl, I'll post it.

I feel bad for Ukraine

Russians wasted no time to take over Ukraine while the country is very unstable and in turmoil. can't even imagine what those Ukrainian soldiers felt when their flag was taking down...

One thing I couldn't stand about certain Russians when I was growing up in the former Soviet Union, is their arrogance mixed with their patriotism. I remember we used to play volleyball outside of our apartment complex. We would tie a volleyball net to a roof of the storages on one side, and to a branch of a tree on another. I was tying the net to the branch of the tree, and one Russian who was around 21 years old, I was around 9, said to me "you not tying it right. not like the Russian way." And of course I am Jewish, and part Ukrainian. The guy knew this so he had to say that comment to make me feel inferior. Small shit like that always made me want to be Russian. It's sort of how certain black kids in America wanting to be white, and certain white kids in America wanting to be black. It all depends on their environment, and the ignorant men these kids are around who constantly put down their culture. But I digress..

Cats > dogs

That's just the way it is...

Headache #2 2014

Just wanna document this for my record. Second cluster headache in 2014 from the first one a day ago. I think it's the aftershock. Woke up after an hour point 5 nap cuz I had to piss really bad. Headache started coming up. I started to do breathwork, and felt I needed oxygen (couldn't be water since I drank enough for me to piss at 3am, and I usually don't wake up at night for that unless it's 2-3 hours from falling asleep.) Opened window since my candle was burning that could've eaten a lot of fresh oxygen. I either didn't get enough air, didn't have enough fresh air in my room, or both. It worked and headache went away in 10 mins...

3 hours later of not able to sleep... another one. this time it lasted 15 to 20 mins from 6ish am to 6:20. it can't be lack of water cuz im pissing all night. it could be either seasonal cuz I usually get cluster headaches in spring. it could be cuz of sinus cuz I been sneezing, or it could be I need to use the restroom cuz I got gas but I tried and I just can't go. either way, I'm glad it's over and I just hope I get a few hours of sleep since I got work in the morning.

3.5 hours later at 9:30ish am another mini headache but it was milder and lasted only 10 mins

The Boondock Saints MOVIE REVIEW!

The Boondock Saints has got to be one of the funniest and action packed movies I ever seen. I am not sure, but I guess this is what they call black or dark humor? Correct me on that one, but I absolutely LOVE IT! Willem Dafoe plays a homosexual FBI agent; he is fucking hilarious!

This movie sort of reminds me of Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels. Everything starts happening in a synchronistic, funny, and a genius way that no one could've predicted. And at the end, you can't help but laugh at the cohesiveness of it.

Isn't it funny how I just looked up The Boondock Saints on Rotten Tomatoes, and it got 20% from the critics? Yet the movie got 92% from the audience. This just shows that the critics' opinions don't mean SHIT!!! They are people just like you and me who have taste. Why the fuck should I listen to the critics, when they rate movies I love so low? But I know what would be a good thing to do; it is to find one critic who you agree with and follow him. I need to do that one of these days when I find some time. But I digress. 5 STARS OUT OF 5! Must watch if you like thrillers with dark comedy.

How to prevent Cluster Headaches

I have been having cluster headaches from around the age of 15, and found ways to reduce them by about 95% or even more. And this is without using an oxygen tank. I have maybe 2 to 3 cluster headaches per year, and they are usually seasonal. I know this guide may just be working for me, since we all have different bodies, but following it won't hurt if cluster headaches run your life.

How to prevent, stop, reduce, or alleviate Cluster Headaches:


1) Water - this is THE main reason why I would get cluster headaches. In fact, I just had one a few minutes ago. I woke up at 7am with a very mild cluster headache, and remembered right away that I didn't drink enough water throughout the day. I got up and drank a full glass of water. Headache lasted for 15 minutes. It went from very mild, to mild, back to very mild, and it disappeared. You got to drink enough water so that your piss is white throughout the day. So maybe about 6 to 8 full glasses of water throughout the day. I am approximating here. You got to use your own judgment. But be careful, drinking too much water too fast CAN kill you. So, drink a glass every hour or 2, and about 3 to 5 hours before going to bed you could stop.

2) Oxygen - I have personally never used an oxygen tank, but it is true that oxygen intake can lessen the headache. But that doesn't matter if you don't drink enough water! So, If I were to wake up just now from the headache and do heavy breathing, the headache would get worse and worse because I don't have enough water in my system, which also btw contains oxygen. I do martial arts. And the type of martial arts I practice has nothing to do with cardio, but more to do with building POWER! This prevents my lungs and brain from getting enough air. So, sometimes I got to breath really heavy by doing breathwork for maybe 5 to 10 minutes, or I do some forms that have more to do with moving around instead of standing in one spot. Another interesting fact is, if I do too much cardio (running, or playing any sort of sport too long like basketball, soccer, etc., I get a cluster headache). Which brings me to our next point...

3) Messaging Carotid Arteries - One time I had a severe case of a cluster headache when I was on a bus. I was in desperate need and as I looked out the window, I saw a Chinese acupressure place. I went in with my left eye all red dripping in tears explaining to the doctor about my headaches. He did a bunch of pressure work on me, and explained to me that my Carotid arteries are thinner than in some people. This prevents from blood fully getting to my brain. Hence, why I get these headaches when I exercise too much. I was going to this doctor for about a year with him doing acupressure work on me. The best way to do this is putting your palm around the back of your neck. Then wrap your hand around and press on the one carotid artery with your thumb, and the other with your remaining fingers. Then message your arteries with your fingers front to back while applying just enough pressure to the side of your neck. This will help to move the blood flow to your brain. Doing this a few times a week could decrease the number of cluster headaches you have.

4) Food - sometimes I would get cluster headaches when not eating enough food. This happened to me a few times. Let's say if I don't eat for 5 hours straight. It doesn't matter if I drink water. If I don't eat food, I could get a cluster headache. The best way to prevent this is to eat small portions of food every few hours WITH water, lol. And believe it or not, the type of food you eat also matters. I used to eat a lot of crap food. And this was around the time when I just started getting cluster headaches. By eating healthy, I prevent cluster headaches from occurring. Stay away from grease (french fries seem to be okay), junk food, or anything else that isn't healthy, and you'll decrease the amount of cluster headaches you have. Again, this may just be my body, as we all have bodies that function differently. So, use your own discretion on what your body needs as far as food, and what it doesn't. You put enough poison in your system, you will pay for it at some point. I just happen to pay with lots of pain. So, these headaches are keeping me healthy, so to speak.

*Edit* Stay away from Wheat Starch or Starch in general, as they cause Cluster Headaches https://libraliving.blogspot.com/2018/11/wheat-starch-triggered-cluster-headaches.html

5) Alcohol - One time I had a friend who suggested I drink one glass of red wine per day because "it's very healthy". Boy was I sorry. It was the biggest mistake of my life! I had a cluster headache from the pits of hell for 2 hours NON-STOP! I was screaming and holding my head as my blood vessels were bursting on my forehead, feeling like blood pressure was so high that it would pop my veins that were pumping blood in and out. It was that bad. Now, some guy recently told me that headaches occur from drinking red wine due to sulfites in it, but it may not be the case. All I will say is, STAY AWAY FROM ALCOHOL! This is the case for me. I could drink one beer, but after I drink more, I'll feel a headache coming. If I drink even more, then I'm screwed and low and behold cluster headache will greet me with open arms. Red wine just makes it 100x worse and hits me like a ton of bricks. But drinking alcohol in general, always gives me headaches. The only way I could drink is if I mix it with lots of water, orange juice, or other form of non-alcoholic liquid. I even gotta be careful drinking malt liquor, which has a very low alcohol.

6) Sleep - This may or may not be the case. But I remember back when I used to not sleep enough, I would get cluster headaches much more easily. So, get sufficient amount of sleep every night and you'll decrease the amount of headaches you have. Again, this has to do with what "sufficient" sleep means for YOUR body. I need 7-8 hours. I knew one guy who needed 5. Some people only need 3-4. You have to know your body, and give it what it needs, or suffer because you neglect it.

7) Bowel Movement - This is a very rare case, but it happened to me a few times. So, I feel like it is worth mentioning. This very last headache that I had earlier today had after shocks, sort of like an earthquake. So, I had tiny bits of pains popping up in my head even after drinking 2 glasses of water. That's the thing about cluster headaches. You got to do everything you can not to have one, or there may be another around the corner. Or worse is, most of the headache will dissipate, but the aftershocks of it will bug you. Or even in the worse case, which happened to me a few times, you will have a cluster headache for the rest of the day! So, back to today. After me feeling the after shocks, I emptied my bowels. And then the headache almost entirely disappeared. I did have a few more after shocks throughout the day, but they weren't as strong. So, make sure you don't need to go to the bathroom. And if you do, DO NOT PUSH OR FORCE IT OUT! You don't want to get hemorrhoids because you were too desperate to get rid of a headache.


Following this formula helps me to prevent having cluster headaches; maybe it will help you too. I cut down cluster headaches to about 2-5 per year, and they always tend to be seasonal and happen within a certain month. And when they do happen, it has to do with sinus. I always had allergies in my sinus. So, when I get these headaches, my left side of my nose and sinus above my eye gets clogged up draining discharge with my left eye turning red filled with tears. I am not sure how to stop these from occurring, exactly. I even used to cleanse my sinus with water filled with himalayan salt, but it doesn't appear to do anything long term.

Anyway, good luck and if you got any other methods that help you to prevent cluster headaches, leave a comment below so it could help other people. Thank you.

As a Man Thinketh BOOK REVIEW

As a Man Thinketh by James Allen. An interesting little book. It is only 32 pages, and you could read it in one sitting. But I had to pause and take the information in; I read this book two times before writing this review. I really enjoyed it. This book was released in 1902, before any of this Law of Attraction that's in the mainstream today. But that's what this book is about. Your thoughts, and the consequences of them. With thoughts, you create and shape your life and reality that you live in.

I really believe in this. Even at birth, your soul chooses the body, and the path it will walk on. Many people like to blame others for their circumstance, but the circumstance was created by the person in order for him to overcome whatever barriers he set for himself. Once you overcome those barriers, you grow stronger, gain more experience, and become wiser. That is just my take on it, but the book is also spiritual and talks about basic laws and principles of the universe, in the physical world and beyond.

Thoughts, visions, and dreams. These three elements are how you could get yourself out of the circumstance you're in. First, it is the thoughts that you must change. Negative thoughts and judging others will only bring you negative people. I actually see this at work all the time. People of low vibrations 'find' each other. Same goes for people of high vibrations. Like attracts like. I see this happen ALL THE TIME! Then comes the vision. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? If you have no vision, it would be hard to make changes. Then comes the dreams. People with big dreams, accomplish big things. This is what I got from the book. It is short, and sweet. But it is also deep and thought provoking. This is a great little book for anyone looking to change his life, and getting better at living. I highly recommend it to all the self-help junkies. 4.5 stars out of 5!

New Music, March 2014

it's that time again. I got some more new music I discovered for myself. sharing it with all my followers. if I find anymore in March, I'll edit it below

With Snoop Dogg now being Snoop Lion, this video song actually isn't all that bad. This makes me want to smoke some herb again. And I haven't in a good while because I feel like I don't need it. one day, though... one day...


Snoop Lion - Smoke The Weed


INNA - Caliente


Inna - Hot


Evan Bartholomew - Secret Entries Into Darkenss


E-Mantra - Ecouri