So I am at work today and step out to get some candy from the store across the street. I was about to take a regular exit, and guess who I see... my Palestinian girl standing there talking to a co-worker. I'm like GREAT... so I go around and sneak out the employee entrance. She saw me... I don't think much of it and go in the store browsing for some candy to buy.
I get my Calypso drink and some dried mangos, turn the isle, and GUESS WHO I SEE! I was like hey! what's up? long time no see.. she is like yeah, blah blah and I just talked to her for a few minutes. Then I'm like okay, well it was nice seeing you again. she says yes me too.
here is the thing.. at this point... I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! she seems very interested in me, but I am at a point where she either asks me out, or this will not happen. I got too many issues and my biggest fear is letting anyone, or especially a girl who is a co-worker into my life, letting her see my flaws and especially predicaments that I'm in. but if she gets at me... I'm down to hang out. I am just tired of being the only one doing all the work. I feel like she needs to face her fears. If she likes me, she should say so and go from there. If she won't, oh well...
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Friday, March 28, 2014
Palestinian girl, pt. 5
So, yeah. A strange thing happened on the way home back on Monday from a long day of work.
I get on the train and see the Palestinian girl co-worker that I had some history with. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK EVER! and completely ignore her walking behind her. She was standing next to a stand looking at her phone. I was like okay whatever. I go waaaaaay back. I'd say 3 trains at least. It's crowded. And I'm thinking, well I'm glad that's over. Then I get on the train, grab a seat, start reading my book. 20 seconds later... I look up... guess who I see. This girl is standing there looking all foxy. High heals, see through dark yellow stockings. I am like WTF? I guess she really like me. no fucking way she would come rush 3 trains ahead within like a minute. So, I'm like okay whatever. Keep reading my book. A seat becomes available next to me... She doesn't take it. I'm like hmmm... okay I guess this is a coincidence. If you like me, this your perfect chance to come sit next to me and say hello. I mean we are co-workers. Another seat becomes available to the front right perpendicular to me, right next to exit. She sits there. I'm like okay. My stop is next. I get up and go towards the door. She has her head in her right hand like she's nervous or something. I am like okay cool. No eye contact. See ya!!! Get to the door, wait like 20 seconds which seemed like 20 minutes standing right next to her on my right.
It's really interesting. My other co-worker told me that this girl is passive. I didn't understand what she meant cuz she couldn't give me a good example. But now I see why. You can't even say hi to me first? Wow... well, there is nothing I can do baby. If you like me, you're just gonna have to grow some balls and initiate a convo at least... face your fears.
I saw her linkedin page and she is going places. I am just surprised she still works at retail that is like a shit job, which pays you not so well.. but yeah, if anything else happens with this girl, I'll post it.
I get on the train and see the Palestinian girl co-worker that I had some history with. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK EVER! and completely ignore her walking behind her. She was standing next to a stand looking at her phone. I was like okay whatever. I go waaaaaay back. I'd say 3 trains at least. It's crowded. And I'm thinking, well I'm glad that's over. Then I get on the train, grab a seat, start reading my book. 20 seconds later... I look up... guess who I see. This girl is standing there looking all foxy. High heals, see through dark yellow stockings. I am like WTF? I guess she really like me. no fucking way she would come rush 3 trains ahead within like a minute. So, I'm like okay whatever. Keep reading my book. A seat becomes available next to me... She doesn't take it. I'm like hmmm... okay I guess this is a coincidence. If you like me, this your perfect chance to come sit next to me and say hello. I mean we are co-workers. Another seat becomes available to the front right perpendicular to me, right next to exit. She sits there. I'm like okay. My stop is next. I get up and go towards the door. She has her head in her right hand like she's nervous or something. I am like okay cool. No eye contact. See ya!!! Get to the door, wait like 20 seconds which seemed like 20 minutes standing right next to her on my right.
It's really interesting. My other co-worker told me that this girl is passive. I didn't understand what she meant cuz she couldn't give me a good example. But now I see why. You can't even say hi to me first? Wow... well, there is nothing I can do baby. If you like me, you're just gonna have to grow some balls and initiate a convo at least... face your fears.
I saw her linkedin page and she is going places. I am just surprised she still works at retail that is like a shit job, which pays you not so well.. but yeah, if anything else happens with this girl, I'll post it.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Palestinian Girl, pt. 4 - FINAL CHAPTER -
the chapter is now officially CLOSED. haha!
so I am going home. I get to BART and guess who is at the station... yep. So, at first I wasn't even going to talk to her cuz I got so nervous. But the train was coming right away as I saw her and as I get to the train doors, she sees me and is getting into the same ones. Keep in mind, I wasn't supposed to work today but was scheduled there for some reason.
I said hey, she said hey. Then I became quiet. Everything told me to go talk to her. So, we get in and she picks a seat that is next to some dude. There was no other seats available. I come up to her and just started talking. Now... I ask her what she did for the valintines day... she goes "oh... nothing... worked... and hung out with my b/f" haha! I was like ohhhhhhhhhhhh shit!! I was actually gonna tease her and ask her out to lunch. But I felt this big weight just lifted off my shoulder like PHEEWWWWWWWWWWWW... Now I dont gotta ever worry about talking to her EVER again. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! we talked about all sorts of shit for the remainder of the 10 minute ride home. and she the convo got dead at the end right before my stop. I just said alright see ya later, blah blah, my stop is next. and she said ok...
I am going out tonight with my co-worker friend who was actually guiding me throughout the whole process and kept encouraging me to talk to her. I just hope he won't be like "nah man, it dont matter she gotta b/f. you should keep talking to her". cuz if thats what he'll say id be like pissed off.
I am just glad this is over and I dont ever have to date ANYONE from work. no more of this bullshit for me. I will NEVER try talking to any co-workers because I got WAY TOO MANY skeletons in my closet and I dont want ANYONE in my work place knowing about them. that is all.
so I am going home. I get to BART and guess who is at the station... yep. So, at first I wasn't even going to talk to her cuz I got so nervous. But the train was coming right away as I saw her and as I get to the train doors, she sees me and is getting into the same ones. Keep in mind, I wasn't supposed to work today but was scheduled there for some reason.
I said hey, she said hey. Then I became quiet. Everything told me to go talk to her. So, we get in and she picks a seat that is next to some dude. There was no other seats available. I come up to her and just started talking. Now... I ask her what she did for the valintines day... she goes "oh... nothing... worked... and hung out with my b/f" haha! I was like ohhhhhhhhhhhh shit!! I was actually gonna tease her and ask her out to lunch. But I felt this big weight just lifted off my shoulder like PHEEWWWWWWWWWWWW... Now I dont gotta ever worry about talking to her EVER again. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! we talked about all sorts of shit for the remainder of the 10 minute ride home. and she the convo got dead at the end right before my stop. I just said alright see ya later, blah blah, my stop is next. and she said ok...
I am going out tonight with my co-worker friend who was actually guiding me throughout the whole process and kept encouraging me to talk to her. I just hope he won't be like "nah man, it dont matter she gotta b/f. you should keep talking to her". cuz if thats what he'll say id be like pissed off.
I am just glad this is over and I dont ever have to date ANYONE from work. no more of this bullshit for me. I will NEVER try talking to any co-workers because I got WAY TOO MANY skeletons in my closet and I dont want ANYONE in my work place knowing about them. that is all.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Palestinian girl, take 3
okay so today, Saturday, I start work. open both registers at 9:30 and I keep thinking about this girl, because I KNOW she is upstairs when she comes in around 10am. I know I shouldnt care and stop thinking so much, but that's just how I am. I think and over analize everything. So, all of the sudden I see her going to the bathroom in a distance.
I was like OH SHIIIIIIIT. fear kicks in right away. I get all discouraged, and go walk towards another counter with no people at it. was thinking of just staying there like a pussy and wait till she comes out and leaves. but then decided to just walk back and face my fears. I dont know why but my fear with her gets SOOOOOOOO intense, I feel like running away as far as I can.
There is barely any people around and it's about 11:15ish am. maybe about 2-3 customers on the floor. then as I am behind my register looking straight into the distance, she comes walking by from the left... i look over, and she is looking right at me "hey, you still work here?" and engaged me. we talked for about 5 minutes and I was gonna ask her whatever happened to that lunch we were gonna go on but a customer came with a question, and she left.
I talk to my co worker and he was like 'I TOLD YOU!!! don't even think about her. let her come to you. she just dont want you to be talking to her in front of all her co workers and have everybody talking gossip about you 2'... so that's what im gonna do. and he was right all along.
i just got my proof that she does like me. just not really sure what will come out of this. more on this soon if anything else happens.
I was like OH SHIIIIIIIT. fear kicks in right away. I get all discouraged, and go walk towards another counter with no people at it. was thinking of just staying there like a pussy and wait till she comes out and leaves. but then decided to just walk back and face my fears. I dont know why but my fear with her gets SOOOOOOOO intense, I feel like running away as far as I can.
There is barely any people around and it's about 11:15ish am. maybe about 2-3 customers on the floor. then as I am behind my register looking straight into the distance, she comes walking by from the left... i look over, and she is looking right at me "hey, you still work here?" and engaged me. we talked for about 5 minutes and I was gonna ask her whatever happened to that lunch we were gonna go on but a customer came with a question, and she left.
I talk to my co worker and he was like 'I TOLD YOU!!! don't even think about her. let her come to you. she just dont want you to be talking to her in front of all her co workers and have everybody talking gossip about you 2'... so that's what im gonna do. and he was right all along.
i just got my proof that she does like me. just not really sure what will come out of this. more on this soon if anything else happens.
Friday, February 1, 2013
Palestinian girl, take 2
it's really funny. I just checked my blog and it's been 3 months since that whole episode with the girl happened. but here is what happened afterwards...
when she was acting weird and i scheduled a date for the NEXT saturday, and the next saturday actually came. I came there looking for her but she wasn't there. when I came back again, she was acting weird again, and i looked like a complete IDIOT!!!!!!! talking about lunch and all that shit IN FRONT OF ALL HER CO-WORKERS. it was THE most emberrasing moment in a LOOOONG time. in fact, it took me back to college when I first started talking to women. what else can I say, it was totally all my fault and I did this out of fear.
After that I split and never been in that department since. i completely gave up on talking to her or ANY female co-workers. one of the reasons was this: i didnt want anyone knowing all my skeletons in my closet. cuz once one girl finds out, her whole department may know if she tells them that the date was boring, i was quiet, awkward, etc..
you think that was bad? well, it gets better. I have a co-worker and he actually likes this OTHER girl that works in the Palestinian girl's department. he did the whole Ricko Suave shit and they are hanging out, talking on the phone, etc.. now. now this girl he hanging with is friends with the Palestinian girl. and my co-worker tells me that whenever my girl comes down to our floor, instead of her going the path to avoid the counter where I and everyone else stands, she walks by the counter to see who is there. I of course am never there when this happens. and he keeps trying to convince me to go talk to her. now, of couse I won't go there EVER again since EVERYONE knows my face and who I am now (fucking emberrasing I tell you). but all this preasure and indication that she is interested got me thinking of just talking to her when she comes by and I'm there.
but it gets even better.. I AM REALLY NERVOUS AROUND HER! in fact, she takes me back to college days and i run out of words to say and act weird and shit. like for example, i used to 'save' different topics for an actual 'date'. like if i think of 12/21/2012 and it is next week, i see the girl, i wouldnt say nothing and just wait until we actually hang out, which never ever happened, and THEN id think 'thats when i would talk about it, so i wouldnt run out of things to say'. and thats another reason why i avoided this girl like the plague. but all this preasure and information about her got me EVEN MORE NERVOUS talking to her. so everytime im on my floor i cant stop thinking about it and it is driving me crazy.
i dont really know whats gonna happen but i am nervous as i type this.
another thing is, my co-worker has a lot of experience with women and in life. but i am the opposite. so, his girl may think that i am similar and tell my girl about how amazing, awesome, and fun her guy is, and my girl probably thinks the same about me which is the complete opposite.
either way, i will post whatever outcome occurs. but i really almost dont want nothing to happen because of all my life problems and me being scared revealing all this bullshit to her, and then have her eventually leave me and tell all her co-workers how much clueless, friendless, and whatever others things I am. thats the scarriest part to me. one department knowing about me, or ANYONE for that matter.
when she was acting weird and i scheduled a date for the NEXT saturday, and the next saturday actually came. I came there looking for her but she wasn't there. when I came back again, she was acting weird again, and i looked like a complete IDIOT!!!!!!! talking about lunch and all that shit IN FRONT OF ALL HER CO-WORKERS. it was THE most emberrasing moment in a LOOOONG time. in fact, it took me back to college when I first started talking to women. what else can I say, it was totally all my fault and I did this out of fear.
After that I split and never been in that department since. i completely gave up on talking to her or ANY female co-workers. one of the reasons was this: i didnt want anyone knowing all my skeletons in my closet. cuz once one girl finds out, her whole department may know if she tells them that the date was boring, i was quiet, awkward, etc..
you think that was bad? well, it gets better. I have a co-worker and he actually likes this OTHER girl that works in the Palestinian girl's department. he did the whole Ricko Suave shit and they are hanging out, talking on the phone, etc.. now. now this girl he hanging with is friends with the Palestinian girl. and my co-worker tells me that whenever my girl comes down to our floor, instead of her going the path to avoid the counter where I and everyone else stands, she walks by the counter to see who is there. I of course am never there when this happens. and he keeps trying to convince me to go talk to her. now, of couse I won't go there EVER again since EVERYONE knows my face and who I am now (fucking emberrasing I tell you). but all this preasure and indication that she is interested got me thinking of just talking to her when she comes by and I'm there.
but it gets even better.. I AM REALLY NERVOUS AROUND HER! in fact, she takes me back to college days and i run out of words to say and act weird and shit. like for example, i used to 'save' different topics for an actual 'date'. like if i think of 12/21/2012 and it is next week, i see the girl, i wouldnt say nothing and just wait until we actually hang out, which never ever happened, and THEN id think 'thats when i would talk about it, so i wouldnt run out of things to say'. and thats another reason why i avoided this girl like the plague. but all this preasure and information about her got me EVEN MORE NERVOUS talking to her. so everytime im on my floor i cant stop thinking about it and it is driving me crazy.
i dont really know whats gonna happen but i am nervous as i type this.
another thing is, my co-worker has a lot of experience with women and in life. but i am the opposite. so, his girl may think that i am similar and tell my girl about how amazing, awesome, and fun her guy is, and my girl probably thinks the same about me which is the complete opposite.
either way, i will post whatever outcome occurs. but i really almost dont want nothing to happen because of all my life problems and me being scared revealing all this bullshit to her, and then have her eventually leave me and tell all her co-workers how much clueless, friendless, and whatever others things I am. thats the scarriest part to me. one department knowing about me, or ANYONE for that matter.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
THE WORLD IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So it hit me today. THE WORLD IS MINE! IT'S MINE!!!!!!!!!! I asked this Palestinian girl out at my work from a different floor and she said yes. I said to myself that I gotta do some approaches before the date because I was nervous. Approached 2 women in the mall. felt the adrenaline running through my veins like WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! so I am all charged up like BRING IT ON! and she tells me she cant get off just yet. I tried to schedule it sometime later but said fuck it, NEXT WEEK. so i got a date in 1 week.
isn't it funny? a Jewish guy dating a Palestinian girl. I know my uncle from Canada is gonna have a heart attack but I DONT GIVE A FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so after the date didnt go through I was like fuck this and went to the mall. on the way there I noticed something, NO ONE CARES! No one is paying any attention to me, no one is watching me, no one notices me, no one cares what I am doing, NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ME! I started to scan the area, front, sides, back, and it was like I woke up for the first time. I started to see things I haven't seen before. 1 brother spitting game at this chick, 2 16 year olds in the mall were trying to talk to 2 girls (happened a few days ago), and then as I got to the mall these words came to me... THE WORLD IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so pre occupied with worrying how people see or perceive me, what they think of me, what they think when they see me approach a girl, that I never realized that not only are most people miserable and never face their own fears, but they also DONT CARE ABOUT ME. In fact, when that brother was spitting game, and she turned his ass down of course, NO ONE EVEN NOTICED BUT ME! it seemed like they were both part of the crowd.
so to sum it all up, i hit on 4 more women (6 women in total) 1 of which was a girl at Samsung station
her: what do you want? (asking me about which product i wanna test)
me: I wanna get your phone # :)
1 mixed tall girl, with her lesbian g/f right behind her haha
1 married black woman who lit up when i said hi
and a couple of miserable women whom i wouldnt touch with a 6 foot pole
it was cool. i came out on top as a victor who conquered his fears. it would really be nice to have a wing man who i am friends with, though. doing this alone is extra hard. i just got so tired cuz i worked since 9:30am and was walking around looking for potential marks/targets. my feet were hurting at the end of the day.
THE WORLD IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
isn't it funny? a Jewish guy dating a Palestinian girl. I know my uncle from Canada is gonna have a heart attack but I DONT GIVE A FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so after the date didnt go through I was like fuck this and went to the mall. on the way there I noticed something, NO ONE CARES! No one is paying any attention to me, no one is watching me, no one notices me, no one cares what I am doing, NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ME! I started to scan the area, front, sides, back, and it was like I woke up for the first time. I started to see things I haven't seen before. 1 brother spitting game at this chick, 2 16 year olds in the mall were trying to talk to 2 girls (happened a few days ago), and then as I got to the mall these words came to me... THE WORLD IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so pre occupied with worrying how people see or perceive me, what they think of me, what they think when they see me approach a girl, that I never realized that not only are most people miserable and never face their own fears, but they also DONT CARE ABOUT ME. In fact, when that brother was spitting game, and she turned his ass down of course, NO ONE EVEN NOTICED BUT ME! it seemed like they were both part of the crowd.
so to sum it all up, i hit on 4 more women (6 women in total) 1 of which was a girl at Samsung station
her: what do you want? (asking me about which product i wanna test)
me: I wanna get your phone # :)
1 mixed tall girl, with her lesbian g/f right behind her haha
1 married black woman who lit up when i said hi
and a couple of miserable women whom i wouldnt touch with a 6 foot pole
it was cool. i came out on top as a victor who conquered his fears. it would really be nice to have a wing man who i am friends with, though. doing this alone is extra hard. i just got so tired cuz i worked since 9:30am and was walking around looking for potential marks/targets. my feet were hurting at the end of the day.
THE WORLD IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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