and i am one of the loneliest people out there. I got dont connect with nobody from my family. i feel so lonely... wow... sometimes it really gets to me and i think "does it even matter if i approach women or conquer my fears?" ok, lets say i do it and get a number and then there is a date.. then what? ill tell my date that i am 32, never had sex, afraid of people, dont go out or to parties, still live with my mama, trying to be an IT tech but cant get hired because have no experience? and whats the point? how much work i put it and will she really accept my insane circumstance or even myself?
i had a female co-worker that wanted to fuck me in Los Angeles when i was working and had my own spot. but the more she found out about me the more she kept asking the same phrase to me "why are you so weird?"... imagine if she really knew my world and my lack of life experience.. wow... i pushed her away as i do everyone...
2012... i really hope you will bring me happyness, success, power. strenght, self esteem, and thirst for life and living it to the fullest the way i want it.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Limitless
This movie is AMAZING. it was so good I am going to watch it again tonight, and the 3rd time whenever I got time. 5/5 Stars! If you haven't seen Limitless, you are missing out.
Friday, December 23, 2011
so I lit up for the first time since the summer...
I thought what the heck, its 1 day away from chistmaass right... and then I stumble onto this..
he looks so much alike like the real Tim hitting a blunt. I swear, weed always brings me crazy things.
he looks so much alike like the real Tim hitting a blunt. I swear, weed always brings me crazy things.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
12/21/2011 OBE Present to All
okay. so, today is a special day. exactly 1 year from now, the 2012 "event" date will come. Not sure what is going to happen, if anything. But I found something amazing and wanted to share it as a present to all the people visiting my blog.
A few years back I purchased a book called "Out-of-Body Experiences: How to Have Them and What to Expect" by Robert Peterson. Then I remember on one night, last summer, I was sleeping with my Black Tourmaline stone. And all of the sudden I wake up with my whole body vibrating. I GOT FREAKED OUT and just shook the vibrations off. Then it happened again a few nights later, and again the next week. At some point I read a book on crystals and it actually said that black tourmaline strengthens Astral Travel! BUT... it happened after a few months of reading Robert Peterson's book. So both, the book and the stone, contributed to me having these experiences. But as much as I loved Peterson's book and exercises on how to induce OBEs, it was missing something... As a result, for about a year and a half I have had numberous OBEs, but they always happened sporadically. I wanted to be able to have OBEs by actually following some sort of a plan. And then... I found a book that actually has this PLAN to have conscious Out-of-Body Experiences!!! And the best part about it is... it is FREE!
I have only gone through 23 pages, the 'basics' of how to have OBEs, and already had 6 experiences! 3 OBEs and 3 Lucid Dreams. What is so exciting about this, is that I actually had more than 1 experience at a time. I had 2 Lucid Dreams in a row 2 nights ago, and 2 OBEs this morning. I LOVE THIS BOOK!!!
ALL I ASK OF YOU IS TO PLEASE PURCHASE THE HARD COPY IF IT HELPS YOU IN ANY WAY! It's only $50 on the website(don't buy the one from amazon, it's incomplete-missing around 200 pages. that's why it's cheaper). If you got any sort of questions, ask. Other then that, here is my gift to you. Happy travels!!!!!!!!! (o:
School of Out-of-Body Travel by Michael Raduga
A few years back I purchased a book called "Out-of-Body Experiences: How to Have Them and What to Expect" by Robert Peterson. Then I remember on one night, last summer, I was sleeping with my Black Tourmaline stone. And all of the sudden I wake up with my whole body vibrating. I GOT FREAKED OUT and just shook the vibrations off. Then it happened again a few nights later, and again the next week. At some point I read a book on crystals and it actually said that black tourmaline strengthens Astral Travel! BUT... it happened after a few months of reading Robert Peterson's book. So both, the book and the stone, contributed to me having these experiences. But as much as I loved Peterson's book and exercises on how to induce OBEs, it was missing something... As a result, for about a year and a half I have had numberous OBEs, but they always happened sporadically. I wanted to be able to have OBEs by actually following some sort of a plan. And then... I found a book that actually has this PLAN to have conscious Out-of-Body Experiences!!! And the best part about it is... it is FREE!
I have only gone through 23 pages, the 'basics' of how to have OBEs, and already had 6 experiences! 3 OBEs and 3 Lucid Dreams. What is so exciting about this, is that I actually had more than 1 experience at a time. I had 2 Lucid Dreams in a row 2 nights ago, and 2 OBEs this morning. I LOVE THIS BOOK!!!
ALL I ASK OF YOU IS TO PLEASE PURCHASE THE HARD COPY IF IT HELPS YOU IN ANY WAY! It's only $50 on the website(don't buy the one from amazon, it's incomplete-missing around 200 pages. that's why it's cheaper). If you got any sort of questions, ask. Other then that, here is my gift to you. Happy travels!!!!!!!!! (o:
School of Out-of-Body Travel by Michael Raduga
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Married with Children is GREAT!
one of my favorite TV shows of all time, hands down. I don't even watch tv, but netflix just put this show up on streaming, so I'm going through all the seasons. 1st isn't all that great, but with 2nd season it starts to get REALLY FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you have netflix, check out
S2:E12 - Earth Angel
S2:E16 - Master the Posibilities
S2:E18 - The Great Escape
I should really buy some weed and watch this show, it's already funny w/out it. Too bad with all the stupid drug tests every other job I apply for requests. Otherwise, I'd be up in the clouds... someday........
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
1 Month Tantra
okay, so I been practicing Tantra for a few years on and off and I just got my biggest record ever. 1 month without cumming. I started on Monday, 11/7/11 and just released like 5 minutes ago on Tuesday, 12/6/11. That is 4 weeks and 1 day. WOW! I feel great. and I did NOT release by accident. it was intentionally and conciously because I wanted to do it. I could go on for another month but I felt like what the heck, 1 week was my record up until now so I may as well make it 1 month. Next one will be 2 months, or maybe 3.
getting passed the first week was the hardest. after that it got easier and I got to the point where I didn't even want to cum. cumming feels WEAK, not cumming feels amazing. it felt so good that I didn't want to cum ever again. but I am sort of a begginer so I'll just chill for now.
Also been working my PC muscle in between so that helped me to control my orgasm as well. Tantra rules. That's all I gotta say.
getting passed the first week was the hardest. after that it got easier and I got to the point where I didn't even want to cum. cumming feels WEAK, not cumming feels amazing. it felt so good that I didn't want to cum ever again. but I am sort of a begginer so I'll just chill for now.
Also been working my PC muscle in between so that helped me to control my orgasm as well. Tantra rules. That's all I gotta say.
2012... I AM SCARED!
okay so, I have been talking to my spirit guides for a few years now, and been asking them to bring me more and more information regarding 2012 and the truth behind it. I have been receiving a lot of it already, and reading a book with tons of 2012 research, but now I just watched this video and I AM FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A HUGE PANIC ATTACK RIGHT NOW, AND REALLY SEE THIS HAPPENING COMES THE GALACTIC ALIGNMENT! we will be going through the black hole gravitation center disk of our galaxy next year, and the guy said it will be pitch black for 30 hours!!!!!!!!! that means no electricity, no light, no stars!! NOTHING!!!!! PITCH... BLACK!!!!!!!!! AND I AM SCARED OF DARKNESS!!! I HAVE A REALLY HARD TIME BEING IN THE DARK FOR MORE THAN 10 SECONDS!!! OMG I AM REALLY FREAKING OUT! okay.. I gotta relax... I am going to practice this little by little. I can really see people dying from fear due to this. if everything I have learned is true, fear will take you out in the new eneriges that will come forth. if you are reading this... WATCH THIS VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
visual Waves in Meditation
this morning I started to see these waves about 15 mins into meditation. every time I'd breath out, I would see a wave coming from the top towards me. it wasn't anything colorful or visual but more of a subtle energy amongst the darkness. then at some point it started to move from top to left. *breath out* wave coming from top left towards me.. *breath out* more left... then at some point it started to come from my left and disappeared.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
my friend treats me like a Credit Card
so I just got back home from my friend's Thanksgiving dinner, and feel like shit. yesterday he calls me "hey man i need a favor". I'm like ok, whats up? "i need you to let me borrow $15 because there is this turkey that is on sale for 5 and i need to buy groceries worth $20. I'm like okay... he helped me with some approaches and being social with people, and I'll help.
I get my ass there within a few hours and then the $5 turkeys are gone, and now there is $10 turkeys. so the $15 favors turns into a $50 favor. and I feel like i just got used again.. by him.
at the dinner today I couldnt eat ANYTHING because everything was meat, I paid for his turkey, his chicken, his cheese, and since I am mostly a vegan, i just sat there stared at the food. I am so fucking mad. I feel like he calls me when none of his other friends can help and hes like "oh, i know exactly who to call". like im a fucking credit card that he can just access whenever his friends wont help. and the most fucked up part about it is, I DONT EVEN WORK! i am using my savings to help him while his friends with JOBS dont want to do shit for him. and the most fucked up thing about it is, whenever i go around HIS friends he talks to them 90% and me 10% of the time. it's like he changes completely and his attention gets divided 90/10 when his friends are around.. i mean like... WTF!?!?!?!? and I'm supposed to keep helping him when he is in need? FUCK YOU! I will never buy anything for him anymore, ESPECIALLY meat since I dont even spend $ on meant myself.
THIS IS JUST........ STRAIGHT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the even more fucked up thing is, when he was helping out in public teaching me how to approach people he said he is planning on making a free workshop to help guys on being social and he needs $40 for a sylabis he will print at Kinkos or wherever the fuck... and I was like 'ok, ill pay for it since it will be free for everyone' on some.. ill sponsor that shit. but now that he got a job and starts on monday, most likely THERE WILL BE NO FREE WORKSHOP. so I just paid him $40 for absolutely NOTHING and $50 that was supposed to be $15.. WHAT TYPE OF BULLSHIT IS THIS!??!!?!
and even worse thing is, he thinks he is my best friend since he is my ONLY friend. but he treats me like shit. like whenever he needs a credit card he just calls my ass and charges me or some shit.. i didnt wanna ruin his thanksgiving and not said anything, but the next time hell call me for ANOTHER favor ill be like FUCK YOU, you are a really bad friend.
thank GOD his girl (friend) was a vegan so i could at least talk to her, but his male friend was all joking with us like "how do you know they [chickens, cows, etc..] dont like it [being tortured, boiled alive, etc..]" and im thinking like.. "i know im not the best socializer or the one who understands social things but that shit is just RUDE!" how you gonna make jokes like that when we feel so strongly against all the animal cruelties and try to be funny. i dont know. i just think its rude and tacky. im gonna fucking post a lecture by Gary soon on what really goes down in the meat industry for however little people visit my blog. i am tired of all the sheep consuming energy that is stolen from nature without its permission. humans make me sick sometimes.
there is so much more i wanna say about my friend, but ill leave it at that for now. fucking TIRED of his ass using me and ill tell him next time when he asks for yet ANOTHER favor. THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get my ass there within a few hours and then the $5 turkeys are gone, and now there is $10 turkeys. so the $15 favors turns into a $50 favor. and I feel like i just got used again.. by him.
at the dinner today I couldnt eat ANYTHING because everything was meat, I paid for his turkey, his chicken, his cheese, and since I am mostly a vegan, i just sat there stared at the food. I am so fucking mad. I feel like he calls me when none of his other friends can help and hes like "oh, i know exactly who to call". like im a fucking credit card that he can just access whenever his friends wont help. and the most fucked up part about it is, I DONT EVEN WORK! i am using my savings to help him while his friends with JOBS dont want to do shit for him. and the most fucked up thing about it is, whenever i go around HIS friends he talks to them 90% and me 10% of the time. it's like he changes completely and his attention gets divided 90/10 when his friends are around.. i mean like... WTF!?!?!?!? and I'm supposed to keep helping him when he is in need? FUCK YOU! I will never buy anything for him anymore, ESPECIALLY meat since I dont even spend $ on meant myself.
THIS IS JUST........ STRAIGHT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the even more fucked up thing is, when he was helping out in public teaching me how to approach people he said he is planning on making a free workshop to help guys on being social and he needs $40 for a sylabis he will print at Kinkos or wherever the fuck... and I was like 'ok, ill pay for it since it will be free for everyone' on some.. ill sponsor that shit. but now that he got a job and starts on monday, most likely THERE WILL BE NO FREE WORKSHOP. so I just paid him $40 for absolutely NOTHING and $50 that was supposed to be $15.. WHAT TYPE OF BULLSHIT IS THIS!??!!?!
and even worse thing is, he thinks he is my best friend since he is my ONLY friend. but he treats me like shit. like whenever he needs a credit card he just calls my ass and charges me or some shit.. i didnt wanna ruin his thanksgiving and not said anything, but the next time hell call me for ANOTHER favor ill be like FUCK YOU, you are a really bad friend.
thank GOD his girl (friend) was a vegan so i could at least talk to her, but his male friend was all joking with us like "how do you know they [chickens, cows, etc..] dont like it [being tortured, boiled alive, etc..]" and im thinking like.. "i know im not the best socializer or the one who understands social things but that shit is just RUDE!" how you gonna make jokes like that when we feel so strongly against all the animal cruelties and try to be funny. i dont know. i just think its rude and tacky. im gonna fucking post a lecture by Gary soon on what really goes down in the meat industry for however little people visit my blog. i am tired of all the sheep consuming energy that is stolen from nature without its permission. humans make me sick sometimes.
there is so much more i wanna say about my friend, but ill leave it at that for now. fucking TIRED of his ass using me and ill tell him next time when he asks for yet ANOTHER favor. THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
Water - The Great Mystery (Full Documentary)
Did you know that water retains memory, and will remember what you say to it? FASCINATING MOVIE!
MUST WATCH! especially if you are drinking water in some form, which means everyone reading this.
MUST WATCH! especially if you are drinking water in some form, which means everyone reading this.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
AstralBooBaby
always speaks the TRUTH! I LOVE YOU ABB!
Keywords: ETs, 2012, Fear, collapse of our reality, 5th dimension
Keywords: ETs, 2012, Fear, collapse of our reality, 5th dimension
Was Calleman’s October 28, 2011 Mayan Calendar End Date a Failed Prediction?
great read
Posted By: Bob [Send E-Mail]
Date: Sunday, 30-Oct-2011 18:56:56
Posted By: Bob [Send E-Mail]
Date: Sunday, 30-Oct-2011 18:56:56
ALL "PREDICTIONS" are fuzzy enough when originally 'created', and therefore,http://www.rumormillnews.com/cgi-bin/forum.cgi?read=219995
'GROW' even fuzzier when the SPECIFIC time, date and or place "ARRIVES" of its so-called
Fulfilment, and thus
The Hundreds of ensuing and, by now, 'expanded' INTERPRETATIONS (as well)
Saying it is TRUE and '50%' saying the exact opposite - FALSE!
by ALL the arm-chair 'experts' (us!) :)
Are we 'getting' IT (our polar and duality conundrum) yet?
Of course WE are, I trust - so then,
Between NOW and December next year,
Let's get OVER and BEYOND this POLARITY crap and grand 'illusions' of our PAST and
Start living and creating from our "HEART" once again!
Bob
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P.S. By the way, who or what was responsible for "obliterating" comet, meteor, asteroid or whatever "ELENIN"??
Any ONE? . . . . OK then
Richard C. Hoagland recently made an amazing discovery that Elenin was not a comet, but a tetrahedron that was possibly sent here by our ancient ancestors.
According to Hoagland, "It shows that AROUND the actual "nucleus" of Elenin suddenly appeared a stunning GEOMETRIC shape ... created by some kind of "force field."
This field, interacting with the stream of charged protons and electrons in the CME (Coronal Mass Ejection - from the sun), made this Elenin "field" suddenly, strikingly visible as an unmistakable ??, 3-D TETRAHEDRON!"
http://www.in5d.com/images/Elenin-tetrahedron-comet.jpg
Elenin 'course changed' from unknown source! - 23 August 2011
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qm9ZmE_cxk&feature=player_embedded (uploaded by Envylife904)
Now, in a developing story, a mysterious unknown force has sent a massive energy wave directed at Elenin, forcing Elenin to seemingly make a directional change in her orbit. The energy source seems to be coming from Jupiter, which is the largest planet in our solar system.
While it is not confirmed by any other source, it remains possible that the energy was directed from a UFO craft or by some other higher form of life and intelligence.
http://www.in5d.com/elenin-update-elenin-gets-blasted-by-mysterious-unknown-source.html
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Was Calleman’s October 28, 2011 Mayan Calendar End Date a Failed Prediction?
October 28, 2011 by Gregg Prescott.
The end date of the Mayan calendar has remained ambiguous with one school of thought saying the calendar ended on October 28, 2011 while the other on December 21, 2012.
Carl Johan Calleman and the late Ian Lungold both subscribed to the October 28, 2011 end date. So was this a failed prediction?
If we look at the core of Calleman’s teachings, he constantly stated that October 28, 2011 would usher in a unity consciousness.
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With the global Occupy protests going on around the world, one could make an argument that Calleman was correct -
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And an "other", ME say, could make an equally 'sound' argument, that this proves the exact OPPOSITE. :)
Calleman and Lungold also stated that October 28, 2011 would be the beginning of conscious co-creation.
It is at this juncture when people are able to co-create a society that is most amicable to their individual and group belief systems.
In other words, the Occupy movement would be the main impetus for the foundation of a peaceful, coexisting society.
Was Calleman’s October 28, 2011 Mayan Calendar End Date a Failed Prediction?If we are all connected as spiritual beings having a human experience, then perhaps just the belief that something special might occur by the end of the Mayan calendar has helped to facilitate unity consciousness.
Lungold believed that by October 28, 2011, everything that could possibly happen, will happen at the same time as every level of the Mayan calendar underworlds would coalesce simultaneously.
While this belief never came to fruition, it is not to say that it doesn’t hold credence in the near future, due to the discrepancy of the Mayan calendar end dates.
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Even the December 21, 2012 end date is a ball park figure;
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NO, that's NOT true!
Oh YES it IS!
Are we getting my (Bob's) drift here?
Despite many indigenous cultures all having this end date.
The Maya were obsessed over time and built calendars and systems to record the procession of time.
To many scholars, the Mayan calendar represents the importance of how history repeats itself throughout time.
If you are paying attention, then you have already noticed the unprecedented number of earth changes that have occurred in recent times,
Including massive earthquakes, volcano eruptions, mass animal die offs, tsunamis, sinkholes, flooding, solar flares, sinkholes and massive land cracks.
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These events have never been experienced at "the same time" in recorded history, yet
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Our governments and main stream media play them off as nothing unusual.
We are currently at the end of a 26,000 year cycle called the Precession of the Equinoxes.
We are also at the beginning of the Age of Aquarius, in which each age ushers in a new vibration and frequency.
While one could argue that Calleman’s Mayan calendar end date accurately predicted the unity consciousness that is being felt globally, it could also be attributed to the new energies of Aquarius.
It’s also possible that BOTH possibilities played a role in unity consciousness. (Right, here we go again! :)
With the exception of Ivan Stein and Patrick Geryl, most Mayan scholars conclude that the Mayan calendar does not represent the end of the world.
While Stein doesn’t outwardly state the world will end, he presents a possible extinction level event that could occur relating to the 103,000 year cycle of global temperatures.
Geryl, on the other hand, has an apocalyptic view in which he has stated, "A very HIGH sunspot is expected in 2012…when that happens… a huge… an enormous… a gargantic…a gargantuan solar flare will be thrown to the Earth and will destroy our civilization."
Many scholars will present data that justifies the Mayan calendar end date, but most agree that this date is a ballpark figure (Drunvalo and 'most' people I know, disagree - haha what a laugh :) in the expectation of any event to occur on that particular day
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Because no one can state what will actually happen in the future with 100% validity.
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While many predictions throughout history have come and gone as idle rhetoric,
Calleman’s unity consciousness prediction holds validity while the conscious co-creation part of it still remains a work in progress.
Gregg Prescott
www.in5d.com
The Mayan Elders, The 13 Crystal Skulls Ceremonial Pilgrimage
"The Mayan Elders, The 13 Crystal Skulls, & the Importance of Their Upcoming Ceremonial Pilgrimage Across the USA
I first heard about the Crystal Skull journey back on the twenty-third of July. At the time I wasn’t quite sure how it would all come together because so many variables, both logistical and ethereal, had to be taken into consideration. Since that day many things have been arranged and rearranged. After several meetings, Hunbatz Men, Mayan Daykeeper and Elder Priest of the Mayan Itza Council, and Pedro Pablo Chuc Pech, President of the Mayan Council of Elders, have announced their plans to lead a group of Mayan Elders on a ceremonial pilgrimage that will carry the Thirteen Crystal Skulls from one coast of the United States to the other. The journey will begin in Manhattan on the 27th of October, 2011; it will culminate in Los Angeles on November 11th, 2011.
On 11:11:11, another group of thirteen Elders will arrive in LA from the Mayaland to come together in a Gateway Event that will be highlighted by the performance of the Mayan Crystal Skull Ceremony. The Elders, whose traditions have always been kept within their inner circle, have been instructed to perform all of their ceremonies in public from this point on; for this reason, the Ceremony of the Thirteen Crystal Skulls, a ceremony that was last performed 26,000 years ago, will be open to the general public.
Enroute from New York to Los Angeles the Elders will stop at specific power points to fulfill a prophecy which states that the time has come to reawaken the Spirit of the North American Continent so that it can reclaim itself as the sacred ground in whose soil would be sown the seeds for the enlightenment of all mankind. At each stop along the way ceremonial gatherings will be held to open the ground and raise the ancient energies that will fuel the Gateway Event in Los Angeles on 11:11:11. All of these gatherings will be open to anyone who feels called to participate.
For those of you who are unfamiliar with the significance of the Thirteen Crystal Skulls, these ancient relics are said to contain information about the history of our planet and the future of mankind. Carved out of pure quartz crystal, and other crystals such as jade, the Skulls generate an energy field that activates human consciousness in a way that expands our perceptions of reality. Ultimately they are the manifestation of Spirit in a form that is now helping to shift the magnetic frequency of Mother Earth. When the Spirits of the Skulls are ceremonially awakened, ancient wisdom, wisdom that has been preserved in a crystalline matrix for eons, enters the unified field and fills the collective consciousness with all the knowledge of everything that has happened on the planet in the last 26,000 years, and perhaps beyond.
If it boggles the mind to consider the full import of these events, the following message from Hunbatz Men and the Mayan Elders will help you to put everything into perspective:
TO ALL OUR SOLAR BROTHERS AND SISTERS:
We are very glad to inform all of you initiates from all over the world that on October 27th, 2011, the pilgrimage journey in which we are going to take the sacred Crystal Skulls, is going to leave from Manhattan, New York, with destination to Los Ángeles, CA, in the United States.All along the way we are going to invoke and implore the Great Cosmic Spirit to enlighten our pathway and the roads we are going to walk on carrying our sacred crystal skulls. This way the skulls will enlighten and activate all the sites where the Great Cosmic Spirit is going to be present. Thus, the sacred sites we are going to visit like Great Serpent Mound, OH; the temples of Cahokia, IL; Sedona, AZ; and many other sacred centers will be activated through this cosmic resonance. Tamuanchán (the original Mayan name for the USA) will be once again the sacred site that must enlighten the whole of mankind in this world.Please help us make this journey of spiritual greatness so the sacred Crystal Skulls take us in these our beloved lands of our eternal Tamuanchán where our Father Sun and our Mother Earth will take care of our sacred spirit forever.May the Great Spirit be always with you,Hunbatz Men Council of Maya Itza Priests and Elders
They say ‘there’s no such thing as too much of a good thing’; believe it or not, there is even more good news fueling this story. The “11:11:11 Crystal Skulls, World Mysteries, LA Gateway Event”, along with all of the ceremonial gatherings that take place as the Elders travel across the United States, are just the beginning; they are a ‘gateway’ to a series of unprecedented live events that will bring the secrets of the ages to the attention of the entire world.
As it turns out, Unify Earth, the organization that is sponsored by the people who gave us ‘Live Aid’, ”We are the World’, and other mega-events with a humanitarian purpose, has gotten behind Hunbatz Men, Pedro Pablo Chuc Pech, and the Mayan Council and they want to provide a vehicle for the Elders’ message to be spread to every corner of the Earth. In collaboration with Cirque de Soleil, ‘Google’, NBC, Santana, Elevate Films, and others, all of the above have come together to sponsor a series of spectacular performances that will carry the seeds that are sown in the soon to be actualized Crystal Skull Ceremonies to hearts and minds all over the planet.
Throughout 2012, on the March 21st Spring Equinox, the June 21st Summer Solstice, and the September 21st, Autumn Equinox, Cirque de Soleil will present special performances with themes that embody the wisdom of the ancients, the secrets of the Great Shift of the Ages, and the connection between the mysteries of the heart and the awakening of human consciousness. At the heart of each performance will be the wish to open the mind and the heart of humanity to the Ascension process, and to the prospect of a beautiful future in a whole new world.
This series of blockbuster performances will culminate in a fourth mega-event that will broadcast live, from the Great Pyramid at Chichen Itza on the 2012 Winter Solstice. On that night Cirque de Soleil will take over the entire Chichen Itza Temple complex. The Chichen Itza Pyramid will be transformed into a stage, upon which the artists and performers of the Cirque de Soleil will work their incredible magic. Carlos Santana, the man who has been a clear channel for the Music of the Spheres for over fifty-years, will be the Master of Ceremonies for the main event. If that isn’t enough, the Winter Solstice show will include an unprecedented, full regalia ceremony with the Mayan Elders. Yes, that’s right folks; the Elders will be there too; they are coming down from the mountains to be part of this.
At 11:11 PM, on the night of the 2012 Winter Solstice spectacular, at the exact moment when our Sun and the Earth go into alignment with the center of the galaxy, the Elders, and the Cirque de Soleil performers will present a guided meditation that will unite over two-billion viewers in their hearts and open the space for all of humanity to embrace the unconditionally-loving light of the Divine Feminine. The time has come; the ‘Quarantine’ is about to be lifted. This event, and all of the ceremonies and performances leading up to it, are the manifestation of a dream, and of a rise in consciousness that will help us to remember who we really are and guide us out of the darkness into the Light.
For those of you who would like to participate in any of these events, please refer to the following itinerary and be sure to go to http://www.cosmicmysteries.com/journey for more detailed information.
ITINERARY
Oct 26 The Elders arrive in New York
Oct 27 New York Ceremony with the 13 Crystal Skulls
Oct 28 Leave New York to go to the Serpent Mound, OH.
Oct 29 Serpent Mound Ceremony with the 13 Crystal Skulls followed by a day of rest.
Oct 30 Leave the Serpent Mound to go to Cahokia, IL.
Oct 31 Cahokia Ceremony with the 13 Crystal Skulls and a day of rest.
Nov 1 Leave Cahokia to go to Hays, KS
Nov 2 Leave Hays to go to Crestone, CO
Nov 3 Crestone Ceremony with the 13 Crystal Skulls, and day of rest.
Nov 4 Leave Crestone to go to to Kaatsi, AZ.
Nov 5 Private Meeting in Kaatsi with Hopi and Tibetan monks including Rinpoche.
Nov 6 The Elders will spend more time with Hopis and Tibetan Bhakha Tulku Rinpoche after which they will drive to Sedona, AZ.
Nov 7 Sedona Ceremony with the 13 Crystal Skulls plus a public event.
Nov 8 The Elders will leave Sedona and drive to Los Angeles
Nov 9 Los Angeles will be a day of rest for some, and return home for others.
Nov 10 This is the day that another group of 13 elders arrive in Los Angeles from Merida
11:11:11 Gateway Ceremony with 13 Mayan Elders and the 13 Crystal Skulls at Crystal Skull Conference in Los Angeles
Nov 12 Crystal Skull Conference in Los Angeles with 13 Mayan Elders and Pilgrimage Participants present.
Nov 13 Host Gabriel Romero is sponsoring a one day seminar in which Mayan Day Keeper Hunbatz Men will impart his wisdom. The seminar will take place on Sunday, November 13, 2011. Please feel free to distribute this information to anyone who might be interested in this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to hear the real Maya talk about 2012 and the sacred Crystal Skulls.
You will find more information about the “11-11-11 Gateway Event” in Los Angeles and the one-day seminar with Hunbatz Men by clicking on the Calendar Listings at: http://www.cosmicmysteries.com/journey
Or contact cosmicm(at)cosmicmysteries.com or Gabriel Romero at mayangod2013(at)gmail.com for more detailed information."
http://wakeup-world.com/2011/10/20/the-mayan-elders-the-13-crystal-skulls-the-importance-of-their-upcoming-ceremonial-pilgrimage-across-the-usa/
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
maybe I got a twisted humor but...
i find this extremely funny. reminds me of when me and my friend would backstab people on starcraft or when id bum rush bases of my team mates with SCVs. the amount of fun you can have in online video games just by fucking around is infinite, lol...
this makes me wanna dust off my Source disk and put it to use XD
this makes me wanna dust off my Source disk and put it to use XD
Monday, October 24, 2011
Freedom
my mom's EX-boyfriend finally left to LA on Sunday. dont know when hell be back or whether or not he'll live here since mom didnt technically kick him out yet. but I have at least a month.
ahhhhhhh.. freedom... i can smell it in the air. i actually WANT to get up early and have a regular schedule because he is not roaming in the kitchen watching tv breathing down my neck.
ahhhhhhh.. freedom... i can smell it in the air. i actually WANT to get up early and have a regular schedule because he is not roaming in the kitchen watching tv breathing down my neck.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Chill Music to listen
I wish all of electronic, techno, trance, etc.. beats were as multi-dimentional as these...
get your Marijuana ready people. this is a good trip
not so multi-dimentional but just awesome!
get your Marijuana ready people. this is a good trip
not so multi-dimentional but just awesome!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
I'm tired of youtube always changing shit
today it looks like this, tomorrow it looks like that... STOP CHANGING SHIT EVERY WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, October 17, 2011
2012 The Online Movie
Highly recommend all watch this, especially if you're interested in 2012
Friday, October 14, 2011
CompTIA A+ certificate
I am now officially certified in A+! I busted my ASS for 6 weeks every day. read a book that is 1,000 pages, and studied 768 questions for part 1 which I passed 2 weeks ago, and 865 questions for part 2 which I passed today.
man... I am just gonna chill out for the weekend and beta test TOR and then start looking for IT work on Monday. I am so happy. Now I can finally get a nice job and get PAID! MO MONEY MO MONEY MO MONEY!!! haha
seriously though, I got a 4 year college degree and the most I could get from it was $15 per hour. nowadays companies care more about certificates than a college degree. crazy, aint it?
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
it's over, pt. 2
"good that stubborn fool left. surprised your mom stayed with him for that long if he was acting like that."
man... he DIDNT leave. he convinced my mom yet again to let him stay here. the first time it was when she told him to go and "make a decision on whether or not you wanna marry me. if the answer is no, its over." he left to LA. then the poor baby did not want to marry my mom and got real depressed. so depressed that he had his friend call my mom telling her in how much of a bad state he is. my mom... took him back in. he didnt wanna marry her, yet... they were still together. now he keeps nagging mom about how imperfect she is, and she finally said you either stop and accept me, or leave. he said what he said and then asked my mom if he could have this home as a "base" to come back to from his long vacations. like if he goes to LA or wherever, comes back here. and he'll pay the rent. so now its like.. WTF? he is still here and ... *scratches head*... its back to my mom taking him back, pt2? i dont know... i am REALLY tired of him. he thinks i got problems and need to fix myself, and i do and not denying that, my mom got problems and need to fix herself, my uncle needs to change, EVERYONE is "coocoo" and needs to change themselves for him, but he is PERFECT... like seriously... what type of bullshit is that?
so like i said.. chaos in the mind. they split up yet he is still here. i dont know what to say at this point. this will either have a part 3 to it, or my mom will simply die from stress of him killing her. i dont know... ill talk to my mom when he is not around to see what she says. until then..........
man... he DIDNT leave. he convinced my mom yet again to let him stay here. the first time it was when she told him to go and "make a decision on whether or not you wanna marry me. if the answer is no, its over." he left to LA. then the poor baby did not want to marry my mom and got real depressed. so depressed that he had his friend call my mom telling her in how much of a bad state he is. my mom... took him back in. he didnt wanna marry her, yet... they were still together. now he keeps nagging mom about how imperfect she is, and she finally said you either stop and accept me, or leave. he said what he said and then asked my mom if he could have this home as a "base" to come back to from his long vacations. like if he goes to LA or wherever, comes back here. and he'll pay the rent. so now its like.. WTF? he is still here and ... *scratches head*... its back to my mom taking him back, pt2? i dont know... i am REALLY tired of him. he thinks i got problems and need to fix myself, and i do and not denying that, my mom got problems and need to fix herself, my uncle needs to change, EVERYONE is "coocoo" and needs to change themselves for him, but he is PERFECT... like seriously... what type of bullshit is that?
so like i said.. chaos in the mind. they split up yet he is still here. i dont know what to say at this point. this will either have a part 3 to it, or my mom will simply die from stress of him killing her. i dont know... ill talk to my mom when he is not around to see what she says. until then..........
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
it's over
so a few days ago my mom told me "looks like we're splitting up" after her b/f left alone to some event and she didnt feel like going. then yesterday he called her and told her that he needs someone who can be on his level.
to make things short, this dude been killing my mom through nagging her constantly regarding her imperfections. "why you do things like this?" "how come you dont understand that?" " why do you say things like this? you should say them like that." he been doing this since they've been together telling her that she isnt perfect enough for him to marry her. and that has been stressing my mom for quiet sometime. she has irregular heart palpitations, and has had chest and stomach pains. a few days ago she said "i cant live like this. you either stop nagging me or leave". he was like uh oh.... im not ready to make a decision yet. she was like well, take your time........
whats really fucked up on it all, is that this guy has been talking sooooooooooooo much shit to me how i stress her out. he is the main fucking reason for her health problems and stress, while this dude takes out his anger on me acting like i contribute to it. im not saying i dont. i dont got a job, still live with my mama, have no career, etc.. but i dont fucking nag my mom telling her to be a certain way.
what really pisses me off is that EVERYONE must change for this man. i must change, my uncle must change, my mom must change for HIM. but he stays the way he is... a perfect being in his own perfect image. what type of shit is that? this whole house has been catered to his needs. he demolished top half of our kitchen wall, and replaced it with small pillars (now people could see me through the living room window when im in the kitchen. I HATE IT!) replaced a kitchen floor, bathroom floor, bathroom sink, and many more changes he has done to the house. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THESE JOBS HE DID. it was all for him. every fucking year he remodels the kitchen, or does some other shit in the house that no one but him cares about. brought all his 200 year old looking furniture that no one but him cares for. and now what... he'll just leave and find his own place.
this reminds me of that book I read-New Earth. chaos in the mind... 1 man thinks that the world should evolve around HIM because of that chaos. never did he step out and realize that it is just his own thoughts, ideas, etc.. in his mind.
he didnt leave my mom for 9 years for the main reason. its easy to stay together and get cooked food, a woman to take care of you, etc.. but its hard to leave and start your own life by yourself. i just feel really bad that my mom had to suffer for this the most. always worrying about what she says, how she says it, etc.. she is not an American, you can hear a fat accent from her, she doesnt understand certain humor and slang that even her b/f from Orange County can. why you gotta be a dick head constantly nagging on her telling her she must change to cater to you? just fucking LEAVE dude. should've left a long time ago.
but anyway, that's all i gotta say. i wish him luck and hope he finds his happiness, but i doubt it. everyone he ever meets has flaws and all he does is point them out. this woman is a foreigner, this man has a crooked eye, this person is crazy, etc.. like only himself is perfect, and everyone is weird or "coo coo". i can see this guy being alone for the rest of his life. every woman he'll ever meet he'll just disregard because of whatever flaws she has.
to make things short, this dude been killing my mom through nagging her constantly regarding her imperfections. "why you do things like this?" "how come you dont understand that?" " why do you say things like this? you should say them like that." he been doing this since they've been together telling her that she isnt perfect enough for him to marry her. and that has been stressing my mom for quiet sometime. she has irregular heart palpitations, and has had chest and stomach pains. a few days ago she said "i cant live like this. you either stop nagging me or leave". he was like uh oh.... im not ready to make a decision yet. she was like well, take your time........
whats really fucked up on it all, is that this guy has been talking sooooooooooooo much shit to me how i stress her out. he is the main fucking reason for her health problems and stress, while this dude takes out his anger on me acting like i contribute to it. im not saying i dont. i dont got a job, still live with my mama, have no career, etc.. but i dont fucking nag my mom telling her to be a certain way.
what really pisses me off is that EVERYONE must change for this man. i must change, my uncle must change, my mom must change for HIM. but he stays the way he is... a perfect being in his own perfect image. what type of shit is that? this whole house has been catered to his needs. he demolished top half of our kitchen wall, and replaced it with small pillars (now people could see me through the living room window when im in the kitchen. I HATE IT!) replaced a kitchen floor, bathroom floor, bathroom sink, and many more changes he has done to the house. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THESE JOBS HE DID. it was all for him. every fucking year he remodels the kitchen, or does some other shit in the house that no one but him cares about. brought all his 200 year old looking furniture that no one but him cares for. and now what... he'll just leave and find his own place.
this reminds me of that book I read-New Earth. chaos in the mind... 1 man thinks that the world should evolve around HIM because of that chaos. never did he step out and realize that it is just his own thoughts, ideas, etc.. in his mind.
he didnt leave my mom for 9 years for the main reason. its easy to stay together and get cooked food, a woman to take care of you, etc.. but its hard to leave and start your own life by yourself. i just feel really bad that my mom had to suffer for this the most. always worrying about what she says, how she says it, etc.. she is not an American, you can hear a fat accent from her, she doesnt understand certain humor and slang that even her b/f from Orange County can. why you gotta be a dick head constantly nagging on her telling her she must change to cater to you? just fucking LEAVE dude. should've left a long time ago.
but anyway, that's all i gotta say. i wish him luck and hope he finds his happiness, but i doubt it. everyone he ever meets has flaws and all he does is point them out. this woman is a foreigner, this man has a crooked eye, this person is crazy, etc.. like only himself is perfect, and everyone is weird or "coo coo". i can see this guy being alone for the rest of his life. every woman he'll ever meet he'll just disregard because of whatever flaws she has.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
I know its the next day after my b/d...
but it really amazes me at how little my mom listens to me or understands me. I told her time and time again... MOM.. PLEASE DONT BUY ME CLOTHES OR SHOES! because I am so picky that I never buy anything 9 out of 10 times when I myself go shopping. so when YOU buy me clothes, 10/10 I won't like it. what did I get for my birthday you ask? a pair of ugly dress shoes. and my mom was like "SEE, and they are Clarks. the best and most comfortable! :)" I was standing there faking it pretending I like them. oh well.. at least I like the white ts she gave me. I can put them to use and donate the shoes when i move out. as much as I love my mom and the support she shows me, I hate her at the same time. some things will never change I guess.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Choppa>95% of the concious rappers
I gotta say, with me not even listening to hip hop anymore Choppa seems like the most down to earth, good guy out there in the music industry. I'm glad things are taking off for him. even if he raps about stupid bullshit like drugs, money, pussy, etc.. God bless him. FUCK these conscious rappers that are just a bunch of self-claimed righteous agenda having ignoramuses. they will talk all about this magic, and spirituality shit, and then turn around and be racist and hateful towards other people. always nit-picking and putting others down but when you see them in the spot light they act like some enlightened souls who know the secrets to the Universe they hardly even understand. props to Choppa for making it. I got a lot of respect for you, and hopefully it will stay that way
Sunday, September 25, 2011
this is how the Bible was created
not through "God", but through contact with beings from higher dimensions who have re-incarnated on planets like ours far more times than any of us have. is what I think, anyway
Saturday, September 24, 2011
4 Life=The Wire prequel
but I swear I thought this was the Wire prequel till I saw it was done in 2007. good thing about the movie is it's all street shit. not like the Wire where they got a lot of politics mixed with it.
Monday, September 19, 2011
sohh is sad as hell
i honestly dont know why i came back there, but i'm out of that bitch. probably will check back in for the next week. but after that i'm out for good.
came there to see if any people actually think differently. nope. they still are ignorant as hell, 12 year old kids running around throwing racial slurs, insulting each other, degrading each other, "sonning" each other. probably 35 year olds are still sitting there watching bet and 106&park.
i posted a few spiritual videos, and one dude already went from accusing me of having "demonic" tendencies, spreading demonic music, and summoning demons with power that dont belong to me. WTF!?!?!? i really dont get these fundamentalist Christians, man. do they ever wake up one morning thinking to themselves "is everything taught to me a lie?" obviously not. brainwashed sheep. that's what they are. i think majority of them are on sohh, because i get like 1 or 2 replies to my videos. the rest are just trolls giving me bad rep with trash talking comments. i remember threads like "how is your relationship with God?" before i left. they in there talking about church and reading the Bible, and fearing "God".
the rest of the site is just as pathetic as it was years ago when i left. talking about the SAME shit. same bullshit drama, who fucked who, fake stories of how "i pickup bitches at a welfare office", replies are the same shit too, hahahahahaha omg so funny ahhahaha. videos of fathers beating the shit out of their children and putting it on worldstarhiphop for the world to see, everyone shitting on trojanman because he is a virgin and has his own issues, everyone still arguing about Jay-Z calling him a camel, same retards dick ride Nas like they were years ago, Jack Tripper is still the biggest attention whore on the site like he was when i left, everyone is still on his dick trying to get his attention like he's something special. i honestly don't understand people on websites like sohh who are 30+. that's like being a teenager and going back to a playground to play with little children (no pedo).
but anyway, i wish all the sohh posters luck with their lives. i am done with that website.
came there to see if any people actually think differently. nope. they still are ignorant as hell, 12 year old kids running around throwing racial slurs, insulting each other, degrading each other, "sonning" each other. probably 35 year olds are still sitting there watching bet and 106&park.
i posted a few spiritual videos, and one dude already went from accusing me of having "demonic" tendencies, spreading demonic music, and summoning demons with power that dont belong to me. WTF!?!?!? i really dont get these fundamentalist Christians, man. do they ever wake up one morning thinking to themselves "is everything taught to me a lie?" obviously not. brainwashed sheep. that's what they are. i think majority of them are on sohh, because i get like 1 or 2 replies to my videos. the rest are just trolls giving me bad rep with trash talking comments. i remember threads like "how is your relationship with God?" before i left. they in there talking about church and reading the Bible, and fearing "God".
the rest of the site is just as pathetic as it was years ago when i left. talking about the SAME shit. same bullshit drama, who fucked who, fake stories of how "i pickup bitches at a welfare office", replies are the same shit too, hahahahahaha omg so funny ahhahaha. videos of fathers beating the shit out of their children and putting it on worldstarhiphop for the world to see, everyone shitting on trojanman because he is a virgin and has his own issues, everyone still arguing about Jay-Z calling him a camel, same retards dick ride Nas like they were years ago, Jack Tripper is still the biggest attention whore on the site like he was when i left, everyone is still on his dick trying to get his attention like he's something special. i honestly don't understand people on websites like sohh who are 30+. that's like being a teenager and going back to a playground to play with little children (no pedo).
but anyway, i wish all the sohh posters luck with their lives. i am done with that website.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Truth about Akult
Akult is a guy on youtube who claims he is a reincarnation of Khafra-an Egyptian pharaoh from the 4th dynasty. With that being said, the first time I heard about him was when I got a friend request. This is my HONEST first impression of Akult right after listening to his music... another rapper using profanity and curse words. I didn't listen to the song for more than 15 seconds and kind of forgot about him... until he started making his 2012 from the greater vantage videos. Then I was hooked on what he had to say. I honestly don't listen to rap anymore, and Akult is a prime example of why. But I was hooked on the 2012 videos since I am a 2012 junkie, and everything was awesome.
Then at some point, for the very first time, I spotted a little bit of ignorance mixed with a lot of confusion coming from Akult. It was in this video where he talks about his views on interracial relationships (if the annotations text is removed, turn it on)
"INTERRACIAL RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT "WRONG". THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG. THERE ARE ONLY CONSEQUENCES. NOW YOU CANNOT SAY YOU ARE UNAWARE OF THE CONSEQUENCES. THEY FEED OFF YOUR ELECTROMAGNETIC FIELD WHETHER THEY KNOW IT OR NOT. IF THIS OFFENDS YOU, SORRY ITS NOT MY FAULT. PEACE."
This really confused me. Who are "THEY"? Black people? White people? Interracially mixed people? Then one mixed guy replied with this message 'I very much know there is truth to this. But here is the complicated part, the offspring of multiracial parents, like myself are a "strange breed"...we have different kinds of "powers", I by chance am a "generator"...so I often draw to myself "absorbers", or feeders. Here is the great conundrum, my mother is a "feeder"...and most of the people in my life have "fed" from me. It has gotten tiresome, it is the primary reason why live a solitary life now, most humans exhaust me'
And here is my beef... I AM A "GENERATOR"... but... I am WHITE! a "Caucasoid" as Akult would call me. I am not interracially mixed, I mean maybe culturally as we ALL are and it's damn near impossible to find someone of PURE breed, but this is why everything he said is BULLSHIT! again, this is my truth and the truth that I see in other people, and he obviously is speaking his. My homeboy Topaz for example... is... BLACK! he is not inter-racially mixed, but he can correct me on that. he is a "generator", like me. So, like I said... ignorance mixed with confusion.
I am very aware of psychic vampires and have met 2 of them. The first one was Arab I think, and the second one was Korean. I don't know if they were mixed. But my closest friend is BLACK (African American). He isn't mixed, I mean maybe ancestrally back in the slave days. Anyway, he is a "feeder". He isn't a psychic vamp, but he needs other people around him ALL THE TIME to EXPRESS his creativity onto them. so, do the math. Me, a whitey, absorber.. Topaz, black man, absorber.. my close friend, black man, feeder. My girl-"FRIEND" I knew in college, mixed-half white, half black, feeder. My white friend when doing martial arts, feeder. I'm sorry, but it doesn't add up... The difference between a psychic vamp and a feeder btw, is that if you have a friend that is "feeder" type, he and you have an exchange of energy going. He expresses, you absorb, and it goes visa versa (maybe not as much if you're are the latter). But a psychic vamp just TAKES TAKES TAKES, and does not want to give anything back other than his physical presence.
Here is Akult's "DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HATE ANY RACE- WE ARE ALL RELATED! I DO NOT JUDGE! I'M JUST GIVING YOU FACTS! LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE! REJOICE! PEACE!"
gotta love the bold part. call it what you want, I call it lies with IGNORANCE. Keep reading, and you'll see why.
Akult's journal
After I was done with his 2012 series, I got his journal. The journal is filled with magic, spells, chi kung, and a whole of other shit about how everything is BLACK. black man is god, god is black, why god is black, BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK. I was like holy shit... if this guy has a favorite color, I already know it is black.
My favorite part of the journal is when he says some offensive and ignorant shit, then follows up with... "if this offends you, put the journal down and stop reading it", "if this offends you, stop reading now", "if this offends you.. this journal is not for you", etc.. He says this statement every 10 to 20 pages. something like "White people were created by black people, and they are our children". There is quiet a bit of subtle & covert racism in his journal. Like when he goes on to belittle all the "Caucasoids" by making fun of them how "they all go tanning in the sun and dont even know why they doing it", etc.. stupid shit like that. It's basically him "judging" when he claimed he doesn't. Any human being that says he doesn't judge, is full of shit.. unless he is Jesus or Buddha or something.
painlessreborn was talking about this in one of his videos how a lot of black folks in this conscious community say racist statements mixing them up with magic, and mysticism. i.e. "look at these white people. they can't even be in the sun without turning red, haha", etc.. and then talk about Pyramids, Egypt, and how "we are melanated people that are 'special'." There is quiet a few of "conscious" black folks like this on youtube, and that's exactly what Akult does. He even does it in his 2012 series when he refers to white archeologists. "Thank you Bob, I am flattered you are interested in my people" or something when he refers to the Mayans. Shit like that. It's him acting like Mayans are his people. Why do black people hijack so many cultures that is not theirs? That shit KILLS ME! Just because you are "melanted people", doesn't automatically make you part of every ancient culture that existed. Mayans, my people, Egyptians, my people, Aztecs, my people, Olmecs, my people, etc.. GTFO! THAT IS NOT YOUR CULTURE! stop the bullshit. That's like me claiming Greeks, Italians, French, etc.. are my people and of my culture because I am white. I won't even go into this, but this book is a great example of what I am talking about: They Came Before Columbus: The African Presence in Ancient America. Screw all the Mayans, Aztecs, Natives of the Americas.. The Africans came there and taught the natives all the the secrets of the universe. Therefore, none of those civilizations had any mind or cultures of their own. This is what the author is saying. Afrocentrism is very dangerous because many black teachers with Phds, Masters, etc.. teach propaganda like this which makes me puke. I had a teacher in college that was teaching the entire black studies class that definition of racism is what "institutional racism" is, which was created by Stokely Carmichael. It's unbelievable, but there are many black people who are being mislead by these ignoramuses world wide. Just because you have a degree, doesn't mean a damn thing. People will take you seriously, and would want to learn from you, but you could be just another racist spreading your hate, and ignorance onto the world.
And don't get me wrong, I agree with how the western man has very limited knowledge and understanding of the Universe. but if you are here 'dropping knowledge' on the cycles of the cosmos and the flow of life, you should understand and accept everything that has happened without belittling every "Caucasoid" you talk about. Akult does this a lot, actually. Caucasoid is his favorite word, right next to "black" of course.
Akult is a racist. There is no other way to say it. The funny thing is, he talks about how you shouldn't have any hate in your heart if you wanna survive the 2012, but he has it on a very subtle level towards white people, the "Caucasoids." This was too evident in his journal. People like him just go around making themselves and others who are of the same race feel superior to all other humans. I've seen this before with other races. like when I was doing Kung Fu with a few Chinese people acting like they were special and everyone was below them. My sifu was cool, but we had a guy who wouldn't even teach anyone that's not Chinese, black, white, whatever. You not Chinese? FUCK YOU! That was his philosophy.
This is how people like Akult get you to follow them... KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, ignorance, "uh... wait a minute.. but.. he is so smart and knowledgeable... he must know what he is talking about", KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, racism, "oh... uh... nahh, he is not racist, he just has a lot of knowledge", KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, racism, "nah, he is smart and must be right, he is not racist", KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, and the rest is history.
Spreading a lot of knowledge, mixed with magic, a little bit of ignorance, and vagueness.. spreading a lot more knowledge, than mix it up with a little tiny bit of racism, more knowledge, racism, way more knowledge and then you can pretty much say anything you want because you got followers who want to learn from you.
It's just sad this man borrows so much knowledge from other cultures like Hinduism (meditation, Buddha), Chinese (martial arts, chi-kong), Mayans, Egyptians, etc.. yet he acts like they are all his cultures because they are "melanated" people. But.. the white man, the caucasoid, the whitey, is "the devil". NO WAY is the whitey related to him in any way. All this knowledge of cycles of life in the cosmos, and he can't even accept the cycle of the white man colonizing the world with his western way of thinking. The same racism that "the white devil" has brought here, lives inside of Akult, as it lives inside of many people in America and the rest of the western world. The same people claiming they aren't racist are the biggest hypocrites on the planet. I have seen this with white people talking about "Nigger this, nigger that", and then they are like.. "oh no, I'm not a racist. I grew up with black people".. yeah, ok buddy. whatever you say.
Feeling behind the message
Maybe Akult is right on some of the things, or even all of the things I disagree with. But it's not about him being right or wrong, it's the feeling behind his message that he brings. The feeling of vagueness, confusion, racism, ignorance, and fear. There is always different ways to carry the message across, and Akult always brings forth these dark feelings whether he realizes it or not. Seth is a great example of this. Reading Seth Speaks was fascinating and very loving at the same time. I felt great thirst for knowledge wanting to know more about the real history of aliens, the ancients, Atlantis, the original humans, those that created us, etc.. Akult on the other hand, I don't want to read more than that 1 chapter. I feel like some fucking reject of humanity with the same label being uttered to describe me, "Caucasoid". Every 10 pages or so there is this similar phrase "if this offends you, blah blah blah", etc. The truth is, if you don't say offensive statements, you wouldn't need to say "if this offends you, [fill in the blank]". But Akult does, so he must say the latter. He should've just put a big fat disclaimer before writing his journal that would go something like this... "IF YOU ARE NOT BLACK, THIS JOURNAL MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOU". That's it! No more "if you are offended, stop reading" every 10 pages.
There is a reason why people in the New Age spiritual community stay away from hip hop guys like Akult. That reason is these nit picking bullshit belittling moments where he puts certain races down. If you ever had a chance to join any of the New Age online communities, you'd know that you will be accepted no matter your race, sex, or background. No one will accuse you or your kind to be "the devil" or a "consequence" of your parents. You are accepted and "LOVED beyond measure" (funny thing is, the guy who is constantly saying this is on Akult's 13 "XMEN" list.) Saying that the white man is the devil, even if referring to The Training Day, and Denzel (black man) being god, and all the other ignorant shit Akult says in his journal really brings his true feelings to the surface. Did he study Elijah Muhammad teachings? is he a 5%er? Most times he never cites his sources, so it's just reading a bunch of blah blah blah.. Aliens came, blah blah, they created humans blah blah, humans created other humans, blah blah. Did you channel this? Did you uh... read this in a book? Where you get it from? *silence*... or... "DON'T ASK ME FOR THE SOURCE."
Akult Hiding his true self
It's really interesting how Akult always hides his face throughout his videos. He showed it once I believe in the 2012 series, and even then he looks down or away, never directly looking at the camera. I think it is a subconscious thing because he is afraid to show his true self. That same true self that comes out in his journal. Only recently he put his face in his youtube avatar, but it is very small and hard to see. Other recent videos with his pics in them, the written text covers his face so you don't really get to see it in full. Fascinating. It's sort of like that scene in Narc. [SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!! If you haven't seen the movie Narc, do so before reading further or you will know the entire film's story. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!] There is 2 cops sitting in the car. And the scene is shot from the outside of the windshield. One cop you can clearly see through the glass, but for the second cop there is always distortions like there is a reflection of a tree branch with leaves, etc.. The first cop is clean; the 2nd cop is dirty. And in every scene throughout the movie a clean cop has a clear view, but a dirty cop has distortions of some sort surrounding his face, like he's got something to hide[/SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!] It's that same subtle, subconscious signs you can clearly see happening with Akult in ALL his videos. He has stuff all over him that he hides and doesn't want people to see. And it all becomes clear once you read the first chapter he gives out for "FREE."
The truth is, NOTHING in the Universe is free. EVERYTHING has a price.
I'm surprised clecquot is one of Akult's closest friends cuz he is like the total opposite. Every time I seen his videos he always shows his entire face, looks directly at the camera. It's like he has nothing to hide. clecquot is a typical good guy. is what I see anyway.
Akult represents true Hip-Hop
In hip hop there is a lot of racism going on. Most people, especially young white kids who buy the records, don't notice it, ignore it, or start hating themselves (I went through this, myself.) the word "Cracka" is technically a racist term, but it has been said so much that it's just a regular word in hip hop now. Akult though says "Cacasions" or "Caucasoids" but there is racism underneath it if you really tune into the energy of those 2 words. Hip Hop represents the essence of the true American culture, which is filled with racism, ignorance, hate, fear, homophobia, etc.. That's why if you go to any popular hip hop website like sohh, allhiphop, etc.. and just browse the forums there, you will see a lot of kids saying racial slurs. "Nigga" is a must; everyone says it because it's so "cool" after listening to so much hip hop, cracka, chink, spic, wet back, etc etc.. shit is pitiful. Hip hop is just a racist ass culture. Even if you are someone like Talib Kweli, chances are you saying some racist shit. Like when he was dissing his white fans by calling them crackas when 85% of his fans are white. fucking pathetic man... I have lost all of faith in hip hop culture.
Ignorance
Akult is against homosexuality and thinks it can be "dangerous" because it doesn't represent "ying & yan" energies (LoL!). What people like Akult don't get due to the fact they can't for the life of them think outside of the ignorance box, is that homosexuality represents ying & yan in its purest form. Male/female, day/night, light/dark, black/white, straight/gay. IT IS INEVITABLE! I'm willing to bet homosexuality exists on every planet with life on it. There were gays amongst Egyptians, Mayans, and probably in every civilization known to man. But of course, you will not hear this from Akult. Dangerous??? Maybe if it was as rampant back when there were hardly any people, but now with 6 billion humans? It's actually helping the planet from overpopulating, which is what homosexuality really is imo, just a form of population control nature creates for its own purposes. Look at all the animals like ram, monkeys, dogs, etc.. who engage in homosexual activities. Is that "dangerous" too? or is he going to say some shit like how a white man went all over the globe and gave them all a shot to change their DNA? Akult is against joining groups. And I am one of the most loneliest people on earth, so I should just be alone all my life without joining any clubs that could help me meet people with similar interests? He is against interracial relationships, but I bet he is half white or mixed with something, and he still hasn't accepted his mixed side. Point is, Akult is IGNORANT as hell. He says some crazy shit, and never cites his sources. Where you get this info, man? channeled? astral travel? book? something?
You can see more ignorance from Akult when he talks about how black or "melanated" peoples DNA is mutating. So, let me get this straight. A black person could be drinking 40's, smoking weed, talking a lot of shit about other people and not doing a damn thing with his life, but since he is black, his "DNA is mutating." Me, on the other hand; I could be meditating, reading books, try to discover who I am, try to get ahead by studying to get a degree, or a certificate so that I can have something to show for and make some decent money. But I am just another "caucasoid", aka "white devil", and therefore, my DNA is NOT mutating because I am inferior? How can people not see this form of ignorance/racism is beyond me.
Find your own Path
interested in Magic? here is a great website, http://spellsandmagic.com/, go to the 'Beginners' section. start reading. interested in spirituality? wanna learn about tarot? go do some research and find a good book on the subject. Astrology? kabala? meditation? tantra? Egypt? Mayans? get off your lazy ass and do some research. ask around on which are good books, browse amazon, go to a bookstore. Just don't rely on guys like Akult to give you all this knowledge. And even if you do that, always, always, ALWAYS question what you read, hear, or witness. Someone else's truth may be a total bullshit or just that, their own truth. Akult is just 1 dude with opinions. His opinions are not anymore important than mine or yours. That's all I really wanna say. I could write another 20 pages about this guy, but I won't drag this any longer.
Mixing knowledge with magic, ignorance, racism, and then getting people to follow you and beLIEve you. Now THAT is dangerous.
Peace...
My graditute
p.s. I want to thank Akult for introducing me to the African American Occult/conscious community. I never thought I'd find it, but it found me. I found out about Bobby Hemmit, Bro Panic, and a whole bunch of other folks on youtube. It showed me just how hateful, racist, and negative the conscious community is, and that no matter how much fear and hate people spread or any other form of negativity, we are all connected in this duality. I have nothing personal against Akult, but wish he would stop seeing everything as black and white.
Then at some point, for the very first time, I spotted a little bit of ignorance mixed with a lot of confusion coming from Akult. It was in this video where he talks about his views on interracial relationships (if the annotations text is removed, turn it on)
"INTERRACIAL RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT "WRONG". THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG. THERE ARE ONLY CONSEQUENCES. NOW YOU CANNOT SAY YOU ARE UNAWARE OF THE CONSEQUENCES. THEY FEED OFF YOUR ELECTROMAGNETIC FIELD WHETHER THEY KNOW IT OR NOT. IF THIS OFFENDS YOU, SORRY ITS NOT MY FAULT. PEACE."
This really confused me. Who are "THEY"? Black people? White people? Interracially mixed people? Then one mixed guy replied with this message 'I very much know there is truth to this. But here is the complicated part, the offspring of multiracial parents, like myself are a "strange breed"...we have different kinds of "powers", I by chance am a "generator"...so I often draw to myself "absorbers", or feeders. Here is the great conundrum, my mother is a "feeder"...and most of the people in my life have "fed" from me. It has gotten tiresome, it is the primary reason why live a solitary life now, most humans exhaust me'
And here is my beef... I AM A "GENERATOR"... but... I am WHITE! a "Caucasoid" as Akult would call me. I am not interracially mixed, I mean maybe culturally as we ALL are and it's damn near impossible to find someone of PURE breed, but this is why everything he said is BULLSHIT! again, this is my truth and the truth that I see in other people, and he obviously is speaking his. My homeboy Topaz for example... is... BLACK! he is not inter-racially mixed, but he can correct me on that. he is a "generator", like me. So, like I said... ignorance mixed with confusion.
I am very aware of psychic vampires and have met 2 of them. The first one was Arab I think, and the second one was Korean. I don't know if they were mixed. But my closest friend is BLACK (African American). He isn't mixed, I mean maybe ancestrally back in the slave days. Anyway, he is a "feeder". He isn't a psychic vamp, but he needs other people around him ALL THE TIME to EXPRESS his creativity onto them. so, do the math. Me, a whitey, absorber.. Topaz, black man, absorber.. my close friend, black man, feeder. My girl-"FRIEND" I knew in college, mixed-half white, half black, feeder. My white friend when doing martial arts, feeder. I'm sorry, but it doesn't add up... The difference between a psychic vamp and a feeder btw, is that if you have a friend that is "feeder" type, he and you have an exchange of energy going. He expresses, you absorb, and it goes visa versa (maybe not as much if you're are the latter). But a psychic vamp just TAKES TAKES TAKES, and does not want to give anything back other than his physical presence.
Here is Akult's "DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HATE ANY RACE- WE ARE ALL RELATED! I DO NOT JUDGE! I'M JUST GIVING YOU FACTS! LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE! REJOICE! PEACE!"
gotta love the bold part. call it what you want, I call it lies with IGNORANCE. Keep reading, and you'll see why.
Akult's journal
After I was done with his 2012 series, I got his journal. The journal is filled with magic, spells, chi kung, and a whole of other shit about how everything is BLACK. black man is god, god is black, why god is black, BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK. I was like holy shit... if this guy has a favorite color, I already know it is black.
My favorite part of the journal is when he says some offensive and ignorant shit, then follows up with... "if this offends you, put the journal down and stop reading it", "if this offends you, stop reading now", "if this offends you.. this journal is not for you", etc.. He says this statement every 10 to 20 pages. something like "White people were created by black people, and they are our children". There is quiet a bit of subtle & covert racism in his journal. Like when he goes on to belittle all the "Caucasoids" by making fun of them how "they all go tanning in the sun and dont even know why they doing it", etc.. stupid shit like that. It's basically him "judging" when he claimed he doesn't. Any human being that says he doesn't judge, is full of shit.. unless he is Jesus or Buddha or something.
painlessreborn was talking about this in one of his videos how a lot of black folks in this conscious community say racist statements mixing them up with magic, and mysticism. i.e. "look at these white people. they can't even be in the sun without turning red, haha", etc.. and then talk about Pyramids, Egypt, and how "we are melanated people that are 'special'." There is quiet a few of "conscious" black folks like this on youtube, and that's exactly what Akult does. He even does it in his 2012 series when he refers to white archeologists. "Thank you Bob, I am flattered you are interested in my people" or something when he refers to the Mayans. Shit like that. It's him acting like Mayans are his people. Why do black people hijack so many cultures that is not theirs? That shit KILLS ME! Just because you are "melanted people", doesn't automatically make you part of every ancient culture that existed. Mayans, my people, Egyptians, my people, Aztecs, my people, Olmecs, my people, etc.. GTFO! THAT IS NOT YOUR CULTURE! stop the bullshit. That's like me claiming Greeks, Italians, French, etc.. are my people and of my culture because I am white. I won't even go into this, but this book is a great example of what I am talking about: They Came Before Columbus: The African Presence in Ancient America. Screw all the Mayans, Aztecs, Natives of the Americas.. The Africans came there and taught the natives all the the secrets of the universe. Therefore, none of those civilizations had any mind or cultures of their own. This is what the author is saying. Afrocentrism is very dangerous because many black teachers with Phds, Masters, etc.. teach propaganda like this which makes me puke. I had a teacher in college that was teaching the entire black studies class that definition of racism is what "institutional racism" is, which was created by Stokely Carmichael. It's unbelievable, but there are many black people who are being mislead by these ignoramuses world wide. Just because you have a degree, doesn't mean a damn thing. People will take you seriously, and would want to learn from you, but you could be just another racist spreading your hate, and ignorance onto the world.
And don't get me wrong, I agree with how the western man has very limited knowledge and understanding of the Universe. but if you are here 'dropping knowledge' on the cycles of the cosmos and the flow of life, you should understand and accept everything that has happened without belittling every "Caucasoid" you talk about. Akult does this a lot, actually. Caucasoid is his favorite word, right next to "black" of course.
Akult is a racist. There is no other way to say it. The funny thing is, he talks about how you shouldn't have any hate in your heart if you wanna survive the 2012, but he has it on a very subtle level towards white people, the "Caucasoids." This was too evident in his journal. People like him just go around making themselves and others who are of the same race feel superior to all other humans. I've seen this before with other races. like when I was doing Kung Fu with a few Chinese people acting like they were special and everyone was below them. My sifu was cool, but we had a guy who wouldn't even teach anyone that's not Chinese, black, white, whatever. You not Chinese? FUCK YOU! That was his philosophy.
This is how people like Akult get you to follow them... KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, ignorance, "uh... wait a minute.. but.. he is so smart and knowledgeable... he must know what he is talking about", KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, racism, "oh... uh... nahh, he is not racist, he just has a lot of knowledge", KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, racism, "nah, he is smart and must be right, he is not racist", KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, KNOWLEDGE, and the rest is history.
Spreading a lot of knowledge, mixed with magic, a little bit of ignorance, and vagueness.. spreading a lot more knowledge, than mix it up with a little tiny bit of racism, more knowledge, racism, way more knowledge and then you can pretty much say anything you want because you got followers who want to learn from you.
It's just sad this man borrows so much knowledge from other cultures like Hinduism (meditation, Buddha), Chinese (martial arts, chi-kong), Mayans, Egyptians, etc.. yet he acts like they are all his cultures because they are "melanated" people. But.. the white man, the caucasoid, the whitey, is "the devil". NO WAY is the whitey related to him in any way. All this knowledge of cycles of life in the cosmos, and he can't even accept the cycle of the white man colonizing the world with his western way of thinking. The same racism that "the white devil" has brought here, lives inside of Akult, as it lives inside of many people in America and the rest of the western world. The same people claiming they aren't racist are the biggest hypocrites on the planet. I have seen this with white people talking about "Nigger this, nigger that", and then they are like.. "oh no, I'm not a racist. I grew up with black people".. yeah, ok buddy. whatever you say.
Feeling behind the message
Maybe Akult is right on some of the things, or even all of the things I disagree with. But it's not about him being right or wrong, it's the feeling behind his message that he brings. The feeling of vagueness, confusion, racism, ignorance, and fear. There is always different ways to carry the message across, and Akult always brings forth these dark feelings whether he realizes it or not. Seth is a great example of this. Reading Seth Speaks was fascinating and very loving at the same time. I felt great thirst for knowledge wanting to know more about the real history of aliens, the ancients, Atlantis, the original humans, those that created us, etc.. Akult on the other hand, I don't want to read more than that 1 chapter. I feel like some fucking reject of humanity with the same label being uttered to describe me, "Caucasoid". Every 10 pages or so there is this similar phrase "if this offends you, blah blah blah", etc. The truth is, if you don't say offensive statements, you wouldn't need to say "if this offends you, [fill in the blank]". But Akult does, so he must say the latter. He should've just put a big fat disclaimer before writing his journal that would go something like this... "IF YOU ARE NOT BLACK, THIS JOURNAL MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOU". That's it! No more "if you are offended, stop reading" every 10 pages.
There is a reason why people in the New Age spiritual community stay away from hip hop guys like Akult. That reason is these nit picking bullshit belittling moments where he puts certain races down. If you ever had a chance to join any of the New Age online communities, you'd know that you will be accepted no matter your race, sex, or background. No one will accuse you or your kind to be "the devil" or a "consequence" of your parents. You are accepted and "LOVED beyond measure" (funny thing is, the guy who is constantly saying this is on Akult's 13 "XMEN" list.) Saying that the white man is the devil, even if referring to The Training Day, and Denzel (black man) being god, and all the other ignorant shit Akult says in his journal really brings his true feelings to the surface. Did he study Elijah Muhammad teachings? is he a 5%er? Most times he never cites his sources, so it's just reading a bunch of blah blah blah.. Aliens came, blah blah, they created humans blah blah, humans created other humans, blah blah. Did you channel this? Did you uh... read this in a book? Where you get it from? *silence*... or... "DON'T ASK ME FOR THE SOURCE."
Akult Hiding his true self
It's really interesting how Akult always hides his face throughout his videos. He showed it once I believe in the 2012 series, and even then he looks down or away, never directly looking at the camera. I think it is a subconscious thing because he is afraid to show his true self. That same true self that comes out in his journal. Only recently he put his face in his youtube avatar, but it is very small and hard to see. Other recent videos with his pics in them, the written text covers his face so you don't really get to see it in full. Fascinating. It's sort of like that scene in Narc. [SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!! If you haven't seen the movie Narc, do so before reading further or you will know the entire film's story. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!] There is 2 cops sitting in the car. And the scene is shot from the outside of the windshield. One cop you can clearly see through the glass, but for the second cop there is always distortions like there is a reflection of a tree branch with leaves, etc.. The first cop is clean; the 2nd cop is dirty. And in every scene throughout the movie a clean cop has a clear view, but a dirty cop has distortions of some sort surrounding his face, like he's got something to hide[/SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!] It's that same subtle, subconscious signs you can clearly see happening with Akult in ALL his videos. He has stuff all over him that he hides and doesn't want people to see. And it all becomes clear once you read the first chapter he gives out for "FREE."
The truth is, NOTHING in the Universe is free. EVERYTHING has a price.
I'm surprised clecquot is one of Akult's closest friends cuz he is like the total opposite. Every time I seen his videos he always shows his entire face, looks directly at the camera. It's like he has nothing to hide. clecquot is a typical good guy. is what I see anyway.
Akult represents true Hip-Hop
In hip hop there is a lot of racism going on. Most people, especially young white kids who buy the records, don't notice it, ignore it, or start hating themselves (I went through this, myself.) the word "Cracka" is technically a racist term, but it has been said so much that it's just a regular word in hip hop now. Akult though says "Cacasions" or "Caucasoids" but there is racism underneath it if you really tune into the energy of those 2 words. Hip Hop represents the essence of the true American culture, which is filled with racism, ignorance, hate, fear, homophobia, etc.. That's why if you go to any popular hip hop website like sohh, allhiphop, etc.. and just browse the forums there, you will see a lot of kids saying racial slurs. "Nigga" is a must; everyone says it because it's so "cool" after listening to so much hip hop, cracka, chink, spic, wet back, etc etc.. shit is pitiful. Hip hop is just a racist ass culture. Even if you are someone like Talib Kweli, chances are you saying some racist shit. Like when he was dissing his white fans by calling them crackas when 85% of his fans are white. fucking pathetic man... I have lost all of faith in hip hop culture.
Ignorance
Akult is against homosexuality and thinks it can be "dangerous" because it doesn't represent "ying & yan" energies (LoL!). What people like Akult don't get due to the fact they can't for the life of them think outside of the ignorance box, is that homosexuality represents ying & yan in its purest form. Male/female, day/night, light/dark, black/white, straight/gay. IT IS INEVITABLE! I'm willing to bet homosexuality exists on every planet with life on it. There were gays amongst Egyptians, Mayans, and probably in every civilization known to man. But of course, you will not hear this from Akult. Dangerous??? Maybe if it was as rampant back when there were hardly any people, but now with 6 billion humans? It's actually helping the planet from overpopulating, which is what homosexuality really is imo, just a form of population control nature creates for its own purposes. Look at all the animals like ram, monkeys, dogs, etc.. who engage in homosexual activities. Is that "dangerous" too? or is he going to say some shit like how a white man went all over the globe and gave them all a shot to change their DNA? Akult is against joining groups. And I am one of the most loneliest people on earth, so I should just be alone all my life without joining any clubs that could help me meet people with similar interests? He is against interracial relationships, but I bet he is half white or mixed with something, and he still hasn't accepted his mixed side. Point is, Akult is IGNORANT as hell. He says some crazy shit, and never cites his sources. Where you get this info, man? channeled? astral travel? book? something?
You can see more ignorance from Akult when he talks about how black or "melanated" peoples DNA is mutating. So, let me get this straight. A black person could be drinking 40's, smoking weed, talking a lot of shit about other people and not doing a damn thing with his life, but since he is black, his "DNA is mutating." Me, on the other hand; I could be meditating, reading books, try to discover who I am, try to get ahead by studying to get a degree, or a certificate so that I can have something to show for and make some decent money. But I am just another "caucasoid", aka "white devil", and therefore, my DNA is NOT mutating because I am inferior? How can people not see this form of ignorance/racism is beyond me.
Find your own Path
interested in Magic? here is a great website, http://spellsandmagic.com/, go to the 'Beginners' section. start reading. interested in spirituality? wanna learn about tarot? go do some research and find a good book on the subject. Astrology? kabala? meditation? tantra? Egypt? Mayans? get off your lazy ass and do some research. ask around on which are good books, browse amazon, go to a bookstore. Just don't rely on guys like Akult to give you all this knowledge. And even if you do that, always, always, ALWAYS question what you read, hear, or witness. Someone else's truth may be a total bullshit or just that, their own truth. Akult is just 1 dude with opinions. His opinions are not anymore important than mine or yours. That's all I really wanna say. I could write another 20 pages about this guy, but I won't drag this any longer.
Mixing knowledge with magic, ignorance, racism, and then getting people to follow you and beLIEve you. Now THAT is dangerous.
Peace...
- Akult's youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/akult777
- mixtape: http://www.datpiff.com/AKULT-Akults-start-By-Stopping-Album-mixtape.236259.html
- 2012 - FROM A GREATER VANTAGE: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLC2546B6CB8DC3321
- Akult's rants - here is his latest: "I HAVE FELT A DEEP DISGUST LATELY, and i didnt know why... but now i realize its because i am totally done with this human existence. im done wih this shit. this shit is putrid to me now. i will not reincarnate here again. you either leave as well or fucking die here and be recycled. im out this motherfucker. fuck all of you!" - 9/3/2011
My graditute
p.s. I want to thank Akult for introducing me to the African American Occult/conscious community. I never thought I'd find it, but it found me. I found out about Bobby Hemmit, Bro Panic, and a whole bunch of other folks on youtube. It showed me just how hateful, racist, and negative the conscious community is, and that no matter how much fear and hate people spread or any other form of negativity, we are all connected in this duality. I have nothing personal against Akult, but wish he would stop seeing everything as black and white.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Blast from the Past is an AMAZING MOVIE!!!
Holy balls. This movie is FUNNY!!!!!!!!! I been meaning to watch it since it came out, and I finally found it through netflix. Haven't seen a movie in a few weeks because most movies are so fucking boring. I kinda lost all the hope in movies lately, since more than half are total crap and i hate wasting my time.
there should be a formula for good movies, and that formula should be like this movie was made. UNBELIEVABLY GOOD STORY AND EXCELLENT SENSE OF HUMOR! I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5 fucking stars. this movie makes me remember just why I watch movies in the first place.
there should be a formula for good movies, and that formula should be like this movie was made. UNBELIEVABLY GOOD STORY AND EXCELLENT SENSE OF HUMOR! I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5 fucking stars. this movie makes me remember just why I watch movies in the first place.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
my Dad is a clueless fucker
the last time i seen him was when he called me on the phone apologizing begging me to "forgive" him. i went over to his home and it was the same shit... him sitting there not knowing what to say to me or how to talk to me. so i was like.. LOOK, i forgive you for you never being there for me, etc.. but... WHO ARE YOU!?!!? he was all sweating not knowing what to say. i told him, no one knows you. me, my mom, all the members in my extended family have not a single clue who you are. who are you? once you figure it out, call me... and i left.
now a year later i no longer live in LA. last night he calls me leaving a message. "hi, its your father. i miss you. maybe i can come visit, or maybe you can come visit me. we can get together and talk" i was like WTF!?!?!?? ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED!!?!!!?!??! wow.... im speechless. this guy is like a little kid. he just dont get it. and i honestly dont have the patience to baby sit him.
the only thing i gotta say to my biological dad is, PEACE. I'll see you in a next lifetime (hopefully not).
now a year later i no longer live in LA. last night he calls me leaving a message. "hi, its your father. i miss you. maybe i can come visit, or maybe you can come visit me. we can get together and talk" i was like WTF!?!?!?? ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED!!?!!!?!??! wow.... im speechless. this guy is like a little kid. he just dont get it. and i honestly dont have the patience to baby sit him.
the only thing i gotta say to my biological dad is, PEACE. I'll see you in a next lifetime (hopefully not).
Thursday, August 25, 2011
DUMB ASS cleaning lady threw away my shit
i am SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW. REAL FUCKING MAD. a STUPID ASS CLEANING LADY THREW AWAY A RECIEPT TO MY LAPTOP!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!! FUCKING STUPID ASS BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got this cheap $250 laptop and its real nice but i was gonna return it because it is slow as shit. now.. im staying in a hotel and the FUCKING DUMB ASS RETARDED CUNT ASS CLEANING LADY CAME IN, AND THREW AWAY THE PLASTIC BAG THE RECIEPT WAS IN!!! OMFG...
I AM SO SICK AND TIRED LIVING IN THIS WORLD WITH INCONSIDERATE FUCKS THAT DONT EVER THINK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE AROUND THEM AND THEIR BELONGINGS!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU ALL TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my fucking mom was throwing away my shit damn near all my life, until i put a lock on the door of my room. she threw away so much of my shit, including this RARE book from Brazil on slums in Rio, that i always felt like how i feel right now. now.. i am actually staying at a hotel and feel like im a kid back living with my mama. FUCK!!!!!!! I HATE THIS SHIT!!!!
FUCK YOU STUPID ASS OLD TRAMP ASS BITCH!!!!!!!! I HOPE YOU GET FIRED! I REALLY DO. THIS WILL BE THE BIGGEST FUCKING LESSON OF YOUR LIFE NOT TO FUCKING THROW AWAY OTHER PEOPLES' BELONGINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW? IM GONNA TRY TO RETURN IT TO WALMART TOMORROW FIRST, BUT IF THEY DONT TAKE IT IM GONNA 1) COME BACK AND TALK TO THE SUPERVISOR OF THIS HOTEL, AND 2) GONNA SUE THE FUCK OUTTA THESE PIECES OF SHITS IF JUSTICE IS NOT SERVED. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF DEALING WITH THIS BULLSHIT AND NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!! I NEVER EVEN TOOK ANYONE TO COURT, BUT I COULD HAVE A GOOD CASE HERE. WHAT IF I FUCKING BOUGHT A $3,000 EQUIPMENT AND CHANGED MY MIND??? FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID ASS PEOPLE MAN!!!!!!!!!
I AM TIRED OF DEALING WITH STUPID PEOPLE ALL MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got this cheap $250 laptop and its real nice but i was gonna return it because it is slow as shit. now.. im staying in a hotel and the FUCKING DUMB ASS RETARDED CUNT ASS CLEANING LADY CAME IN, AND THREW AWAY THE PLASTIC BAG THE RECIEPT WAS IN!!! OMFG...
I AM SO SICK AND TIRED LIVING IN THIS WORLD WITH INCONSIDERATE FUCKS THAT DONT EVER THINK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE AROUND THEM AND THEIR BELONGINGS!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU ALL TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my fucking mom was throwing away my shit damn near all my life, until i put a lock on the door of my room. she threw away so much of my shit, including this RARE book from Brazil on slums in Rio, that i always felt like how i feel right now. now.. i am actually staying at a hotel and feel like im a kid back living with my mama. FUCK!!!!!!! I HATE THIS SHIT!!!!
FUCK YOU STUPID ASS OLD TRAMP ASS BITCH!!!!!!!! I HOPE YOU GET FIRED! I REALLY DO. THIS WILL BE THE BIGGEST FUCKING LESSON OF YOUR LIFE NOT TO FUCKING THROW AWAY OTHER PEOPLES' BELONGINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW? IM GONNA TRY TO RETURN IT TO WALMART TOMORROW FIRST, BUT IF THEY DONT TAKE IT IM GONNA 1) COME BACK AND TALK TO THE SUPERVISOR OF THIS HOTEL, AND 2) GONNA SUE THE FUCK OUTTA THESE PIECES OF SHITS IF JUSTICE IS NOT SERVED. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF DEALING WITH THIS BULLSHIT AND NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!! I NEVER EVEN TOOK ANYONE TO COURT, BUT I COULD HAVE A GOOD CASE HERE. WHAT IF I FUCKING BOUGHT A $3,000 EQUIPMENT AND CHANGED MY MIND??? FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID ASS PEOPLE MAN!!!!!!!!!
I AM TIRED OF DEALING WITH STUPID PEOPLE ALL MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Naps are amazing... THANK YOU SETH!
I been struggling with napping but finally my body is used to napping when I'm feeling sleepy. just had a 2 hour nap and I feel.... AMAZING. rejuvinated, like i just ate some food after being hungry for 5 hours straight. i used to be stubborn about napping during the day bein afraid not to sleep during the night. but after i read my first Seth book, he got me looking at it in a different way.
Seth says that back in the cave days we had to be alert and couldn't sleep longer than a few hours while constantly being on the look out for predators. Nowadays with our 9-6 schedules we exhaust our bodies, and then take LONG night rests of 8 hours. hence, why you wake up sleepy not wanting to get up, and then yawning throughout the day. this fucks our bodies up even further due to us overwhelming them with continuous rest, and then work. that's why animals take short naps whenever they feel sleepy, it rejuvinates them, fills them with energy, and keeps them alert for predators. but in our fucked up backwards society, we have completely been disconnected with ourselves. so we overwhelm our bodies during the day, and then during the night. I FEEL GREAT! again, THANK YOU SETH!
Seth talks about the concept of sleep in one of the chapters of Seth Speaks. he says we should nap around 1-2 hours per day, and sleep 4-6 hours per night, or something like that. so I been trying to devide the 8 hours with a nap, and sleep. it's fascinating stuff that I never thought about. I highly recommend reading this book. I just re-edited my review http://libraliving.blogspot.com/2011/04/seth-speaks-eternal-validity-of-soul.html . He even has a book on health. I may check it out in the near future.
Seth says that back in the cave days we had to be alert and couldn't sleep longer than a few hours while constantly being on the look out for predators. Nowadays with our 9-6 schedules we exhaust our bodies, and then take LONG night rests of 8 hours. hence, why you wake up sleepy not wanting to get up, and then yawning throughout the day. this fucks our bodies up even further due to us overwhelming them with continuous rest, and then work. that's why animals take short naps whenever they feel sleepy, it rejuvinates them, fills them with energy, and keeps them alert for predators. but in our fucked up backwards society, we have completely been disconnected with ourselves. so we overwhelm our bodies during the day, and then during the night. I FEEL GREAT! again, THANK YOU SETH!
Seth talks about the concept of sleep in one of the chapters of Seth Speaks. he says we should nap around 1-2 hours per day, and sleep 4-6 hours per night, or something like that. so I been trying to devide the 8 hours with a nap, and sleep. it's fascinating stuff that I never thought about. I highly recommend reading this book. I just re-edited my review http://libraliving.blogspot.com/2011/04/seth-speaks-eternal-validity-of-soul.html . He even has a book on health. I may check it out in the near future.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
my 1st Coke in YEARS!
holy balls... i just had my first coca cola in YEARS and it tasted sooo GOOD. oh man... you will never trully taste the pleasure of something, unless you just let it go. if it comes back to you, it will the greatest thing you ever done in a long ass time. i never realized coca cola tasted this good. but it's my last one for another few years, thats for sure. lol. im never putting any toxic food into my body like i used to. that means no chemical drinks, no alcohol, no junk food of any kind, no meat, except maybe fish, and yes, no weed. at least not for a while, anyway.
but... PEPSI > Coke
but... PEPSI > Coke
Monday, August 22, 2011
people repeal me
so im sitting at my hotel on this laptop i bought from walmart, which i will return when i leave within a few days. a piece of shit wireless has got to be the worst invention in history. anyway, today i had training at school i'm attending. i started saturday and i was the only one. today, monday, many other people came for same class.
so teacher is like "so J here knows how to get the program you need to pass the test, so if i were you i'd be making friends with him" or something. he goes "come see J at lunch break or talk to me to see how to acquire the program." so, lunch comes and goes. i get back from it and we got about 10 minutes before class starts. and the thing that really amazed me was... NOT 1 PERSON CAME UP TO ME. they were all sitting there figuring it out on their own. held back the class 20 minutes from starting, but NO ONE cared to ask me. the teacher was running around desk to desk helping folks how to install the app properly. 9 people, and not 1 soul gave a fuck to save 18 minutes. they would rather waste 20 and have a teacher help them.
it really AMAZES ME how people repeal me. i am like this negative force of nature, and they want nothing to do with it. before the day started i even set a goal to myself to meet 3 new people every day. after this i stopped giving a fuck. 1/3 people and i just stopped caring. i smile, act polite, be friendly, but it is all a waste of my energy. people still don't want to be around me. then they find out i'm kinda weird socially anyway. came home from lunch, took a nap. naps rules! 1.5 hours of sleep made me feel much better, refreshed, and all.
it's almost as if i got this auric field filled with fear, insecurities, and lack of self of steem. and people can sense it. they stear clear and don't want to talk to me, let alone greet me. i sat at a lunch table with 3 guys. they were all talking amongst themselves, and i sort of got involved but not 1 gave a fuck about carring a convo with me. they all left after talking to each other.
i really dont wanna be bothered at this point. i just wanna be away from everyone. it is a good thing im away from my fam, though. i can at least relax, but i gotta study my ass off right now. so i'm out.
so teacher is like "so J here knows how to get the program you need to pass the test, so if i were you i'd be making friends with him" or something. he goes "come see J at lunch break or talk to me to see how to acquire the program." so, lunch comes and goes. i get back from it and we got about 10 minutes before class starts. and the thing that really amazed me was... NOT 1 PERSON CAME UP TO ME. they were all sitting there figuring it out on their own. held back the class 20 minutes from starting, but NO ONE cared to ask me. the teacher was running around desk to desk helping folks how to install the app properly. 9 people, and not 1 soul gave a fuck to save 18 minutes. they would rather waste 20 and have a teacher help them.
it really AMAZES ME how people repeal me. i am like this negative force of nature, and they want nothing to do with it. before the day started i even set a goal to myself to meet 3 new people every day. after this i stopped giving a fuck. 1/3 people and i just stopped caring. i smile, act polite, be friendly, but it is all a waste of my energy. people still don't want to be around me. then they find out i'm kinda weird socially anyway. came home from lunch, took a nap. naps rules! 1.5 hours of sleep made me feel much better, refreshed, and all.
it's almost as if i got this auric field filled with fear, insecurities, and lack of self of steem. and people can sense it. they stear clear and don't want to talk to me, let alone greet me. i sat at a lunch table with 3 guys. they were all talking amongst themselves, and i sort of got involved but not 1 gave a fuck about carring a convo with me. they all left after talking to each other.
i really dont wanna be bothered at this point. i just wanna be away from everyone. it is a good thing im away from my fam, though. i can at least relax, but i gotta study my ass off right now. so i'm out.
Headache at Hotel
so I'm staying at a hotel in Fremont and I really needed to get some sleep. went to bed 4 hours before I had to wake up, and 1.5 hours later fucking cluster headache strikes. wake up all fucked up holding my head for 1 hour. had about an hour and a half of sleep. these headaches hurt so bad. i dont wanna exist when they strike me. i alredy got enough problems. headaches don't help me 1 bit.
Friday, August 12, 2011
I was selected to test Star Wars: The Old Republic
wholy shit. but the funny thing is, I won't have that much time to play it, haha
according to Amazon it comes out on the new years. so, i got plenty of time fucking around with it.
reading books>>>>>>>>>>>>MMOs... unless i'm bored to death, of course. then it's the other way around :(
according to Amazon it comes out on the new years. so, i got plenty of time fucking around with it.
reading books>>>>>>>>>>>>MMOs... unless i'm bored to death, of course. then it's the other way around :(
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
being sick sux
IT SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS
FUCKING SINUS HURTS THE WORST. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
WE SHOULD ALL BE IN A HOSPITAL ON A 3 DAY SLEEP MEDS WEVERY TIME WE ARE SICK.
yeah that would be noooice
:(
FUCKING SINUS HURTS THE WORST. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
WE SHOULD ALL BE IN A HOSPITAL ON A 3 DAY SLEEP MEDS WEVERY TIME WE ARE SICK.
yeah that would be noooice
:(
Monday, August 8, 2011
Kanye West has mental problems
i am convinced. i used to think he had a huge ego, but it's deeper than that... look at this pathetic interview. i feel sad for not just Kaney West, but all the ignorance he spreads throughout the world with his outbursts, and then you gotta love his emotional interviews like this where he sounds mental
the funny thing is... Kanye West is a fucking racist... he even stopped talking once he realized it "it was my frustration from seeing year and years of.... *silence*" uh.. what... black people not getting awards? black women not getting awards? just goes back to RACE... it's amazing how race is emphasized in our culture from within and without. people on the bottom and people on the top. it's hard to find people who aren't racist in some shape, way, or form...
the funny thing is... Kanye West is a fucking racist... he even stopped talking once he realized it "it was my frustration from seeing year and years of.... *silence*" uh.. what... black people not getting awards? black women not getting awards? just goes back to RACE... it's amazing how race is emphasized in our culture from within and without. people on the bottom and people on the top. it's hard to find people who aren't racist in some shape, way, or form...
Thursday, August 4, 2011
people who complain
so i'm at work, and this is something that really irritates me and i gotta talk about it.
we are not busy. nothing is happening. and we got a shit load of work for about 15 minutes. i am a temp and everyone else is hired there. so when the work comes in this one guy starts complaining.. "ohhh... blah blah blah..." "ahhhh... blah blah blah" "why we gotta do this?" INFRONT OF THE BOSS. Im like wtf!?!?! all this guy does is COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN
im thinking.. dude..... SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a fucking temp, and you are hired at a law firm with all the benefits. you dont do SHIT most of the time, but when you do get work all you do is COMPLAIN... wtf is wrong with people? they want to get paid and not do SHIT!!! do your fucking job and shut your trap. stop complaining. you should be thanking the fucking law firm for hiring your trifling ass in the first place. I AM SICK OF THESE PEOPLE WHO COMPLAIN 24/7. I really dont like being around him. i havent seen a day where he didnt complain.
thank god its my last day tomorrow, friday. after that i am OUT of that bitch.
we are not busy. nothing is happening. and we got a shit load of work for about 15 minutes. i am a temp and everyone else is hired there. so when the work comes in this one guy starts complaining.. "ohhh... blah blah blah..." "ahhhh... blah blah blah" "why we gotta do this?" INFRONT OF THE BOSS. Im like wtf!?!?! all this guy does is COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN
im thinking.. dude..... SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a fucking temp, and you are hired at a law firm with all the benefits. you dont do SHIT most of the time, but when you do get work all you do is COMPLAIN... wtf is wrong with people? they want to get paid and not do SHIT!!! do your fucking job and shut your trap. stop complaining. you should be thanking the fucking law firm for hiring your trifling ass in the first place. I AM SICK OF THESE PEOPLE WHO COMPLAIN 24/7. I really dont like being around him. i havent seen a day where he didnt complain.
thank god its my last day tomorrow, friday. after that i am OUT of that bitch.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Cataclysmic dreams
for a few years I been having cataclysmic dreams which are scary as hell.
this morning I woke up from one. i was at work in a modern building, an unknown location i never seen or been to before, and my coworker was attacked by some huge dude. he wrapped his hands behind his back with a thin thread and i jumped on him. he comes running me into wall, I let go & he rams into it and gets knocked out. I cut the thread w/ a knife and free my coworker. then another coworker comes from the outside and locks us inside, but i got the keys so im not worried. then my mom shows up, the window is broken. i come out and tell her to call the cops. then I go back inside and lots of people show up. now it's a gathering/party/whatever, and all of the sudden... EVERYONE STARTS SCREAMING, and I hear a loud thunder like death is near. I was about to jump out of the window, and I wake up.
The other dreams are the same Tsunami nightmares. I have a dream, and then it ends up me turning around and seeing this BIG Tsunami wave coming at me. and it's like... i KNOW this isnt real, it isnt the real reality, but it feels so fucking real... and right before the wave swallows me i wake up. in one dream i actually leave my dream body and rise up out of it, but then wake up eventually.. i dont know if these are just my own fears of 2012, or they are prophetic dreams. either way, they are scary as hell!
this morning I woke up from one. i was at work in a modern building, an unknown location i never seen or been to before, and my coworker was attacked by some huge dude. he wrapped his hands behind his back with a thin thread and i jumped on him. he comes running me into wall, I let go & he rams into it and gets knocked out. I cut the thread w/ a knife and free my coworker. then another coworker comes from the outside and locks us inside, but i got the keys so im not worried. then my mom shows up, the window is broken. i come out and tell her to call the cops. then I go back inside and lots of people show up. now it's a gathering/party/whatever, and all of the sudden... EVERYONE STARTS SCREAMING, and I hear a loud thunder like death is near. I was about to jump out of the window, and I wake up.
The other dreams are the same Tsunami nightmares. I have a dream, and then it ends up me turning around and seeing this BIG Tsunami wave coming at me. and it's like... i KNOW this isnt real, it isnt the real reality, but it feels so fucking real... and right before the wave swallows me i wake up. in one dream i actually leave my dream body and rise up out of it, but then wake up eventually.. i dont know if these are just my own fears of 2012, or they are prophetic dreams. either way, they are scary as hell!
Saturday, July 30, 2011
The YES man
wow... this is my life... i am the no man..
THIS MOVIE IS GENIUS!
THIS MOVIE IS GENIUS!
Friday, July 29, 2011
I make people uneasy
so im at a temp job for 3 weeks. and people here seem to be cool... but they all don't really care to talk to me because I make them uneasy, or what? I dont know. I am just tired of it. tomorrow I'll just sit and read my book. fuck them all. if they come talking to me, I'll be talkative. if not, fuck em. i am comfortable at being quiet. as long as i feel grounded, i dont care.
maybe its just how things are though. they are mostly philipinos and they all gather up and chit caht joking and being retarded. i dont wanna be part of their corny ass click anyway. this one fucker NEVER say shit to me.. and we are the only 2 people the last 2 hours there. like wow dude, you play like we're cool but you probably look down on me inside.
and i thought they were some cool people. but at least half of them are cool, and talk to me when I speak with them longer than a fucking minute... female boss is cool, phillipino guy with 2 kids is cool, and one other dude is cool. women are moody and/or quiet and the rest never say a word to me.
maybe its just how things are though. they are mostly philipinos and they all gather up and chit caht joking and being retarded. i dont wanna be part of their corny ass click anyway. this one fucker NEVER say shit to me.. and we are the only 2 people the last 2 hours there. like wow dude, you play like we're cool but you probably look down on me inside.
and i thought they were some cool people. but at least half of them are cool, and talk to me when I speak with them longer than a fucking minute... female boss is cool, phillipino guy with 2 kids is cool, and one other dude is cool. women are moody and/or quiet and the rest never say a word to me.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
David Wilcock on 2012
Even though I heard a lot about him (good and bad), I never heard him speak before
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
San Francisco Police Department
the most corrupted police department in our country. this is what happens when you dont pay your bus fair
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
I am tired of life
I am really tired of it. that's all i can say right now. with 2012 on the way, i dont know where it will take us and especially i dont know where it will take me. but im fucking tired of life.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Friday, June 17, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
smoking Male Marijuana plant
it aint that bad. I mean I am only about 30% high compared to female but... I smoked like 3x the amount. dont ask me where I got it from. it isnt a complete no high like people say, but its weak as fuck!!!
but who knows. maybe I just 'think' im high like Paz with his dud weed. I was laughing at mewaing at the cat and making strange noises after a few hits, then started laughing uncontrollably. But still... maybe this isn't high. i dont know man.
but who knows. maybe I just 'think' im high like Paz with his dud weed. I was laughing at mewaing at the cat and making strange noises after a few hits, then started laughing uncontrollably. But still... maybe this isn't high. i dont know man.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
I gotta start LYING to my fam
straight lie my ass off. focus on life goals, never talk about "crazy conspiracy theorists" and act dumb. tomorrow at family therapy ill just say ill shift my focus from "the crazy people" and focus on my life from now on. and yes, they are right. we probably went to the moon (rofl, yeah right) and that I am here to better my life and be a normal person of society.
yep, that is the lie for tomorrow in therapy... this is how you live LIFE... and survive. never be honest with those, that will NEVER ever EVER see you for who you are.
Lie #1 coming up! hahahahaha
p.s. Growing Op was hiiiiiigh
yep, that is the lie for tomorrow in therapy... this is how you live LIFE... and survive. never be honest with those, that will NEVER ever EVER see you for who you are.
Lie #1 coming up! hahahahaha
p.s. Growing Op was hiiiiiigh
My graduation was HELL, & am I a black SLAVE in a parallel reality?
ahhh shit. I just thought of it after making a comment on graduation.. and family. FUCK! it was horrible. I was there with my folks and they were emberrasing as HELL! I wanted to DIIIIEIEEEEEE. BUT.. it was inevitable. my mom made me wear this gay ass GREEN shirt like WTF!??!?! i swear to god that this is what I need to listen to right now
but on the real note. I had this CRAZY ass Lucid Dream right. it was about 2 months ago, and I woke up in my dream. I saw a mirror on my right side. I was in some sort of old apartment. the furniture there was light mahogany brown but kinda dated. anyway, when I saw the mirror I came closer to it, and when I looked inside to look at myself, there was an elderly black male. he was about 50, and my size and shape. now this black male... was ME. but his eyes were closed and I couldnt look inside of them. now.. I know that dreams carry meanings, but what if these 'dreams' is when I am lucid and totally AWARE of what is happening? would that mean that these messages would be more precise? I was reading Seth Speaks at the TIME!!! omg.... it was the book that I was driven to to find out what could be my parallel reality! it talked about the same structure and meaning in dreams, and Lucid Dreams. both of dream type is when we are OUT OF OUR BODIES! in other words, when we are dreaming we are travelling so to speak in other times and realities. but when we wake up, we completely forget because part of our consciousness is kinda blurry and stuck in this world. but the reason why we always see things like they are in our waking day life, is because that is the best way we know how to process information in this HUMAN FORM. that's just my own interpertation of it. anyway, I really think there is a strong chance that I am living as a black male somewhere.
Here is why I think I may be a slave. I am in this fucking house, having family gay ass meetings cuz of family therapist went rambo on my ass to show me he is in charge (piece of shit man, he is what's wrong with our society). anyway, now mom's bitch ass b/f told my mom to be military style and i have to report back to her what i did every day. I must have a schedule to do 3things every day, and more hopefully. and If I dont something she gonna do or put me out, etc.. So... after taking a few hits it got me thinking. I AM A SLAVE IN THIS BITCH! my mom's b/f is my massa... YESSA MAASSAAA YESAAA SIR. I DO EVERYTHING YOU SAY SINCE YOU KNOW HOW TO BE A CORPORATE WORLD LEADER AND I SHALL AGREE TO EVERYYYTHING YOU SAY. YES WE WENT TO THE MOON. ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK NOT ARE 'CRAZY AND SCARY' CONSPIRACY THEORISTS' I SURE AS HELL NOT ONE OF THEM!!
anyway, you get the point. they are, mainly my mom's b/f bitch ass, trying to put me to sleep and in either way even if i am 'OUT ON MY OWN IN THE "REAL WORLD"' i should still be a good boy, go back to sleep, and think like everyone else that the world is a happy place, we really DID go to the moon, and how about we go and mingle and have happy happy times. so, anyway.. yeah.. I am in HELL and am a fucking SLAVE on this fucking plantation. I just wish to knwo more about my parellel life or LIVES because I am in this hell and need to figure out a plan to get out of it.
but on the real note. I had this CRAZY ass Lucid Dream right. it was about 2 months ago, and I woke up in my dream. I saw a mirror on my right side. I was in some sort of old apartment. the furniture there was light mahogany brown but kinda dated. anyway, when I saw the mirror I came closer to it, and when I looked inside to look at myself, there was an elderly black male. he was about 50, and my size and shape. now this black male... was ME. but his eyes were closed and I couldnt look inside of them. now.. I know that dreams carry meanings, but what if these 'dreams' is when I am lucid and totally AWARE of what is happening? would that mean that these messages would be more precise? I was reading Seth Speaks at the TIME!!! omg.... it was the book that I was driven to to find out what could be my parallel reality! it talked about the same structure and meaning in dreams, and Lucid Dreams. both of dream type is when we are OUT OF OUR BODIES! in other words, when we are dreaming we are travelling so to speak in other times and realities. but when we wake up, we completely forget because part of our consciousness is kinda blurry and stuck in this world. but the reason why we always see things like they are in our waking day life, is because that is the best way we know how to process information in this HUMAN FORM. that's just my own interpertation of it. anyway, I really think there is a strong chance that I am living as a black male somewhere.
Here is why I think I may be a slave. I am in this fucking house, having family gay ass meetings cuz of family therapist went rambo on my ass to show me he is in charge (piece of shit man, he is what's wrong with our society). anyway, now mom's bitch ass b/f told my mom to be military style and i have to report back to her what i did every day. I must have a schedule to do 3things every day, and more hopefully. and If I dont something she gonna do or put me out, etc.. So... after taking a few hits it got me thinking. I AM A SLAVE IN THIS BITCH! my mom's b/f is my massa... YESSA MAASSAAA YESAAA SIR. I DO EVERYTHING YOU SAY SINCE YOU KNOW HOW TO BE A CORPORATE WORLD LEADER AND I SHALL AGREE TO EVERYYYTHING YOU SAY. YES WE WENT TO THE MOON. ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK NOT ARE 'CRAZY AND SCARY' CONSPIRACY THEORISTS' I SURE AS HELL NOT ONE OF THEM!!
anyway, you get the point. they are, mainly my mom's b/f bitch ass, trying to put me to sleep and in either way even if i am 'OUT ON MY OWN IN THE "REAL WORLD"' i should still be a good boy, go back to sleep, and think like everyone else that the world is a happy place, we really DID go to the moon, and how about we go and mingle and have happy happy times. so, anyway.. yeah.. I am in HELL and am a fucking SLAVE on this fucking plantation. I just wish to knwo more about my parellel life or LIVES because I am in this hell and need to figure out a plan to get out of it.
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