so I sneaked in last night to that 'potential' apartment I was thinking of moving. at first it was kinda quiet, that I got nervous on some 'this is weird.. it's too quiet for me. will it always be like this?' then i thought "bring the noise" kinda jokingly. then eventually fell asleep on the floor at 1:30amsh... time goes by.... 3:30am......... BAAAAAH WWAAAAAH *LOUD NOISE COMING FROM THE WALL* what do you know... it's the neighbors watching their tv. 3:30 in the morning. LOUD AS FIZUK. so loud I thought to myself "i better put my earplugs on". Then the second later I realized they were on, lol...
I was like okay... technically I am not here so I can't do nothing. 10 mins.. 20 mins.. same thing... I started banging on the wall at the bottom to make it look like im banging from the floor below. nothing... did it again.. they bang back... then like 10 mins later people started hitting their ceiling from below. over and over and over... i was like wow... this is life...
the second this happened i was like.... wow.... is there no decent human beings in this apartment complex? these are an OLD.. keyword... 'old' Korean couple. They wouldn't even open their door for me when i wanted to talk to them that day earlier about if there is any noise in the area. "who is this?" "what you want?"... so eventually someone started to BANG on their door and they cut the tv off. from 3 to 4 am they wouldnt budge. probably watching their show.
i dont know what im gonna do.. i really dont know. my only options are going there tonight if this neighbor of mine won't let me sleep and do test #2. if that doesnt work start looking for a place ASAP, and i already have last night a little bit. get a lawyer to write a letter to break the lease.
sigh...
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I am outta Here!!!
So this past Saturday I saw a Shaman, and told her all my problems beneath my problems. She did the auric cleansing, and then told me to check back with her next week. From all the research I've been doing on all the Shamans, she was the only one who actually wanted to give me tools so I can use to help myself further. Others are just overpriced and they leave you hanging after-wards. Anyway, last night I had 3 hours of sleep because of this PIECE OF SHIT NEIGHBOR!!! OMFFFFFFFFGGGGGGG, he smokes cigarettes and COUGHS all fucking night!!! And as hard as it is for me to fall asleep, once I awoke last night I just knew that IM OUTTA HERE!!!!! Yes, I have a lease that is like for 5 more months, and yes there are clicking noises that are loud as hell. I looked them up and it seems like the way this cheap ass building was built. They are the nails popping on the roof, and I am on the highest floor. Quiet a few other people had these problems. It can be quiet scary, even with me wearing earplugs it gets extremely loud. I saw another place in this apartment complex but it's most likely the same. I will sleep there tomorrow and see how it goes (left it unlocked). So, if that doesn't work out, which it won't, I will have a lawyer write a letter to the manager to get me outta this lease.
It's 4am right now and this PIECE OF SHIT woke me up... AGAIN!!! Arghh I hate this cunt. I wish he would disappear form the face of the earth.
But last week I was seeing weird #s. Like I would see the # of my building, and then "For Rent" signs 3 or 4 times in a row. I was like "is that my guides trying to tell me to move"? Then after I said I'm moving last night I had 222 appear to me at work twice. I googled it and it said that it means that whatever thoughts you have, you are on the right path. And that it is my angels and/or guides communicating with me, or something I forget. Now I woke up just now, I went to the bathroom, come back and check the clock.... 333. Now as I am typing this blog and look at the clock at the bottom... 444 am.
I've been seeing a lot of these #s withing the last 6 months or so... 111, 222, 333, 444, 555, 777.. the other types too but not as frequent.
All I know is that I AM OUTTA HERE!!! I don't care what it takes. I will start looking tomorrow in north of L.A.. Hopefully close to nature, and I don't care if it's with roommates. I live in my own place and I feel like I'm living with roommates. I need to be around people with 9 to 5s that are quiet and respectful. Someone who understands my need for peace, and quiet when it's time to sleep. I got about 5 hours of sleep and I really hope I'm gonna sleep some more. My heart feels funny, and I'm really concerned for my health. How long will my body take this abuse until it gives out on me?
I took this abuse for 4 and a half months, and in my last place it was for 3 months before I made 100% decision to move. I am sick and tired of sacrificing myself and stay passive. HELL TO THE NO!!! I gotta take care of myself, because if I don't then who will? No one gives a crap.
So, yeah.. it's 5am now and I'll try to get some sleep...
It's 4am right now and this PIECE OF SHIT woke me up... AGAIN!!! Arghh I hate this cunt. I wish he would disappear form the face of the earth.
But last week I was seeing weird #s. Like I would see the # of my building, and then "For Rent" signs 3 or 4 times in a row. I was like "is that my guides trying to tell me to move"? Then after I said I'm moving last night I had 222 appear to me at work twice. I googled it and it said that it means that whatever thoughts you have, you are on the right path. And that it is my angels and/or guides communicating with me, or something I forget. Now I woke up just now, I went to the bathroom, come back and check the clock.... 333. Now as I am typing this blog and look at the clock at the bottom... 444 am.
I've been seeing a lot of these #s withing the last 6 months or so... 111, 222, 333, 444, 555, 777.. the other types too but not as frequent.
All I know is that I AM OUTTA HERE!!! I don't care what it takes. I will start looking tomorrow in north of L.A.. Hopefully close to nature, and I don't care if it's with roommates. I live in my own place and I feel like I'm living with roommates. I need to be around people with 9 to 5s that are quiet and respectful. Someone who understands my need for peace, and quiet when it's time to sleep. I got about 5 hours of sleep and I really hope I'm gonna sleep some more. My heart feels funny, and I'm really concerned for my health. How long will my body take this abuse until it gives out on me?
I took this abuse for 4 and a half months, and in my last place it was for 3 months before I made 100% decision to move. I am sick and tired of sacrificing myself and stay passive. HELL TO THE NO!!! I gotta take care of myself, because if I don't then who will? No one gives a crap.
So, yeah.. it's 5am now and I'll try to get some sleep...
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Lucid Dreaming
Okay, so I wasn't going to post this but I promised myself that if I have my 3rd lucid dream I will make a post. So here it is.
Lucid dreaming has got to be one of the funnest things you could do in your life outside of your every day reality. A lucid dream is basically you 'waking up' in a dream you are having. Ever since I started recording my dreams in a journal, I noticed that my dreams are miles upon miles away. It's as if I am so far away from my body that I don't even realize where I am and what I am doing. That's beside the fact that I don't even realize that I'm dreaming, which is the most important part about most of our dreams; we do not know we are dreaming until we wake up.
I haven't wrote down anything in my dream journal in the last few weeks for reasons I will not state, but my very first Lucid Dream happened exactly 15 days after doing the exercises and keeping track of all my dreams in my journal. The 2nd lucid dream happened 21 days after that, and the 3rd was this Saturday (now that I think about it, it happened on 9/11 around 3am pacific time). I wasn't trying to lucid dream for months now, but it just happened.
What you need to do to start inducing lucid dreaming:
1) Dream journal to write all your dreams in every morning/night you wake up. I would highly suggest writing them down the second you wake up. But if you have a really hard time going back to sleep like me, then record them when you wake up in the morning.
2) Doing reality checks "am I dreaming?" > look at the back of your hands (videos below)
3) Telling yourself "I will induce a lucid dream", "I will have the most vivid lucid dream tonight", or anything of that nature. Create your own affirmation, and say it out loud before going to bed.
Watch these videos. They are very helpful
Ironically, this last lucid dream I had was after watching this video
I have also heard that if you meditate for prolong periods of time (1, 2, 3 years), you will start naturally to lucid dream. So, meditation could also improve your chances on inducing lucid dreams.
I'm not trying to lucid dream at the moment. The last just happened I don't know why exactly. And it was cool as hell! I was lucid for about 5 seconds before waking up, lol.
Lucid dreaming has got to be one of the funnest things you could do in your life outside of your every day reality. A lucid dream is basically you 'waking up' in a dream you are having. Ever since I started recording my dreams in a journal, I noticed that my dreams are miles upon miles away. It's as if I am so far away from my body that I don't even realize where I am and what I am doing. That's beside the fact that I don't even realize that I'm dreaming, which is the most important part about most of our dreams; we do not know we are dreaming until we wake up.
I haven't wrote down anything in my dream journal in the last few weeks for reasons I will not state, but my very first Lucid Dream happened exactly 15 days after doing the exercises and keeping track of all my dreams in my journal. The 2nd lucid dream happened 21 days after that, and the 3rd was this Saturday (now that I think about it, it happened on 9/11 around 3am pacific time). I wasn't trying to lucid dream for months now, but it just happened.
What you need to do to start inducing lucid dreaming:
1) Dream journal to write all your dreams in every morning/night you wake up. I would highly suggest writing them down the second you wake up. But if you have a really hard time going back to sleep like me, then record them when you wake up in the morning.
2) Doing reality checks "am I dreaming?" > look at the back of your hands (videos below)
3) Telling yourself "I will induce a lucid dream", "I will have the most vivid lucid dream tonight", or anything of that nature. Create your own affirmation, and say it out loud before going to bed.
Watch these videos. They are very helpful
Ironically, this last lucid dream I had was after watching this video
I have also heard that if you meditate for prolong periods of time (1, 2, 3 years), you will start naturally to lucid dream. So, meditation could also improve your chances on inducing lucid dreams.
I'm not trying to lucid dream at the moment. The last just happened I don't know why exactly. And it was cool as hell! I was lucid for about 5 seconds before waking up, lol.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Crystals! :)
I have been dealing with a lot of issues within the last year, from which I could not even deal with my REAL issues. I have had trouble sleeping nearly every night. This all came from staying at my cousin's place. Her environment was so negative, and so toxic, that my auric field has absorbed a lot of crap. I had to sleep with ear plugs, and sleeping pills every night to get some sleep in my current place, and even then it wouldn't work most times.
I have been fascinated with crystals for about 5 months now. And I've been putting it off because I have some other books I am interested in reading. Then after listening to Bashar and hear him say that the more steps you put up for yourself, the longer it will take you to get from point A to point B. Get this book first, read it, learn it, study it, after that get another book, read it, study it, then go out and buy crystals. I just skipped all these steps and got to a Crystal Shop. I got the following 6 crystals
About 2 weeks go by, and the noise and chaos in my apartment has calmed down by about 60%. And let me tell you something... I CAN SLEEP NOW!!!! Yes, that's right. I have been so scared for my health. I can hear my heart pump, and nearly every night I would get 3 to 5 hours of sleep, or some nights no sleep at all. I'd wake up not being able to fall back asleep. This has been ongoing for 1 year. But things changed completely. I haven't taken sleeping pills for almost a week.
I just got back from the Crystal shop, and got many other stones, but here are my very first crystals.
Black Tourmaline aka Schorl - this is a very POWERFUL crystal. I sleep with it every night. When I wake up, I can fall right back to sleep. I put it between my 3rd and my 5th eye, and it is like a psychic shield. I carry the natural form with me, and sleep with the melted one. Black tourmaline is one of the most powerful stones for psychic protection. It transmutes negative energy, or whatever comes and tries to attack you psychically, and throws it right back.
Citrine - this is a good stone for lots of various of reasons I won't go into. But protection is one of them. I read that it helps with stage fright, and a lot of other things that I need this stone for.
Citrine (Natural form from Africa) - I couldn't resist buying this. It looks so pure and beautiful.
Cornelian - I bought this for my 2nd Chakra, because I feel that it is damaged. I've been meditating holding this stone over my sex Chakra, and hopefully it is doing its work.
and last, but most important Crystal that I bought...
Aragonite - Stellar Cluster - I read that cluster of crystals is like a big family living together, with their energies bouncing off of each other. This is a very important stone I was told to get dealing with my issues at the current moment, and overall.
I was skeptical at first, and didn't know what to expect. But these crystals helped me to sleep peacefully every night, and also brought peace into my home. Another thing that I've noticed is how these crystals make me feel. Their shape, color, and size. Just these 3 alone put certain feelings into me, aside from their energetic and/or spiritual properties.
I am so amazed and fascinated with crystals, especially now after seeing them work for me. I already ordered 2 books from Amazon on crystals, and they should arrive here Monday. This is so exciting!!!
Crystals, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! :)
I have been fascinated with crystals for about 5 months now. And I've been putting it off because I have some other books I am interested in reading. Then after listening to Bashar and hear him say that the more steps you put up for yourself, the longer it will take you to get from point A to point B. Get this book first, read it, learn it, study it, after that get another book, read it, study it, then go out and buy crystals. I just skipped all these steps and got to a Crystal Shop. I got the following 6 crystals
About 2 weeks go by, and the noise and chaos in my apartment has calmed down by about 60%. And let me tell you something... I CAN SLEEP NOW!!!! Yes, that's right. I have been so scared for my health. I can hear my heart pump, and nearly every night I would get 3 to 5 hours of sleep, or some nights no sleep at all. I'd wake up not being able to fall back asleep. This has been ongoing for 1 year. But things changed completely. I haven't taken sleeping pills for almost a week.
I just got back from the Crystal shop, and got many other stones, but here are my very first crystals.
Black Tourmaline aka Schorl - this is a very POWERFUL crystal. I sleep with it every night. When I wake up, I can fall right back to sleep. I put it between my 3rd and my 5th eye, and it is like a psychic shield. I carry the natural form with me, and sleep with the melted one. Black tourmaline is one of the most powerful stones for psychic protection. It transmutes negative energy, or whatever comes and tries to attack you psychically, and throws it right back.
Citrine - this is a good stone for lots of various of reasons I won't go into. But protection is one of them. I read that it helps with stage fright, and a lot of other things that I need this stone for.
Citrine (Natural form from Africa) - I couldn't resist buying this. It looks so pure and beautiful.
Cornelian - I bought this for my 2nd Chakra, because I feel that it is damaged. I've been meditating holding this stone over my sex Chakra, and hopefully it is doing its work.
and last, but most important Crystal that I bought...
Aragonite - Stellar Cluster - I read that cluster of crystals is like a big family living together, with their energies bouncing off of each other. This is a very important stone I was told to get dealing with my issues at the current moment, and overall.
I was skeptical at first, and didn't know what to expect. But these crystals helped me to sleep peacefully every night, and also brought peace into my home. Another thing that I've noticed is how these crystals make me feel. Their shape, color, and size. Just these 3 alone put certain feelings into me, aside from their energetic and/or spiritual properties.
I am so amazed and fascinated with crystals, especially now after seeing them work for me. I already ordered 2 books from Amazon on crystals, and they should arrive here Monday. This is so exciting!!!
Crystals, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! :)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
New Music, Vol. 1
From now on I'll be posting new music I find just cuz I feel like it. It will be positive, uplifting, carry higher frequencies, or all of the above.
One youtube user of this song has 7,420,250 views. Daymn! I liked this video the best though
Just found out about this group. Their voices are so cute!!
One youtube user of this song has 7,420,250 views. Daymn! I liked this video the best though
Just found out about this group. Their voices are so cute!!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Mediumship and Channeling
Lately I've been listening to some channeling. It's crazy how people have been doing this for thousands of years, yet with technology we have today, we can get these messages instantly just by typing up the search words.
You can schedule phone sessions with them for helping you with your problems. Bashar waiting period is 3 months...
Bashar - more info on bashar.org
Dr Williams
There are others, but they don't resonate with me that much.
*Edit*
Here is Darryl Anka talking about how he started channeling Bashar
You can schedule phone sessions with them for helping you with your problems. Bashar waiting period is 3 months...
Bashar - more info on bashar.org
Dr Williams
There are others, but they don't resonate with me that much.
*Edit*
Here is Darryl Anka talking about how he started channeling Bashar
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