back from the beach, heart hurts

just ran a little, for about 30 seconds, and heart hurts now periodically. i'm a mess.. going on sabbatical from my pc for a week starting to morrow. i really hope i'll be alright.

already backed up my mp3 player with music and playlists, got some books from library/borders, and about to stream the last movie in a while. review is coming up in a few hours, then i'm MIA. but hopefully i'll survive this craziness.

1 week sabatical from using my PC

I just saw a Shaman, and she told me to not use a computer for at least a week to see if it helps me sleep. So, I won't be blogging, checking my e-mail, or even surfing the web/going to youtube. it will be strictly reading, maybe watching a dvd I get from netflix 2 or 3x per week, but outside of that just studying, meditating, and really going deep into all the books I have stacked up on my list to read. Hopefully I will start the first day tomorrow, because today I got some stuff to order from Amazon and upload some music to my mp3 player.

be back in a week. peace.

La Femme Nikita, 2012, Food Inc. REVIEWS

La Femme Nikita - I just wrote the review and the blogger accidentally deleted it by auto-saving... FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! What I said was, this movie is solid. But it is old and was released in the 1990s. If you saw it back then, you would've loved it. But it is now outdated, and especially because there is no depth revealed about Nikita. So we do not learn anything about her outside of the whole movie plot. So, 3.5 stars out of 5 because it was good. Something was just missing to make it great.















2012 - Great movie. I really enjoyed it. I guess it's because I just got back into movies, or maybe I really liked this one. I don't know. Whatever reason is, it was very solid and a fun ride. I just think they did not cover ALL of the prophecies and subjects that are about 2012. One of the things they did not cover in this movie was... SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION!!! I will not go into that. If you want to learn about it, go back to my 2012 FROM THE GREATER VANTAGE post and watch the whole playlist. Other then that, 4 out of 5 stars.
















Food Inc. - THE TRUTH ON WHAT IS GOING ON! IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU PUT IN YOUR STOMACH, AND WHAT FOOD COMPANIES DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE, HOW THEY PROCESS THEIR FOOD, THE WAYS THEY USE PEOPLE, WHO ARE EITHER POOR LOCALS OR ILLEGAL IMMIGRANTS, AND ALL THE DARK SECRETS OF THEIR DIRTY BUSINESS, WATCH THIS FILM! IF YOU WANT TO STAY IN THE DARK AND BUY WHATEVER IS THE CHEAPEST IN YOUR LOCAL SUPER MARKET, THEN  STEER AWAY AND STAY IN THE DARK. 5 FUCKING STARS OUT OF 5. REMEMBER, ALL THIS MOVIE OFFERS YOU IS THE TRUTH.

my mom's b/f is a fucking ASSHOLE!

3 of us were in family therapy today. so this douch bag started talking about the whole episode of him attacking me. and he kind of mentioned "for that i am sorry". and before we were leaving i was like.. yeah, i gotta q. why it took you so long to apologize? this is 3 weeks after it happened! he's like.. because blah blah blah blah blah blah blahb lah blah.. and it wasnt even a full apology, its a half apology... mannnn FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!! he didnt even apologize to me (was talking to the shrink) and now he is talking about "its a half apology" arghhhh fucking ass!!! I dont even consider that half apology. more like 1/4th of an apology. the shrink was like "its apology... so why you saying its half? say it like you mean it".. fucking douch.. he was like "its a lesson, that if he does anything to my woman, its nature and i will defend her." fucking ass... the only lesson I learned is that you 1) dont understand wtf is going on, and 2) is an asshole. fucking ASSHOLE!!!! I AM SO FUCKING MAD. i dont think ill ever look at him the same again. ass wipe didnt to this day understand what happened and thinks he is "half" right. idiot!!!!!

Slept 4 hours

I buried all my stones and could not sleep more than 4 hours. This could be due to me getting accustomed to the protective energies of the stones, and now they are gone. Oh well.. I haven't cleansed them in a long time and really needed to bury them. been thinking about it since I moved here.

Now I'll just work with my new stones I purchased a few months ago and didn't even get to!

Salt, Machinist, Knight & Day REVIEWS

Salt - 2 words, bad ass! One of the most action packed movies I've seen in a while. James Bond type of movie. I never guessed any of the plots or surprises that took place. Really, really awesome movie. Good story, good action, good surprises, and good acting. This was the Theatrical Version, and it was the best imo. I also checked the Unrated Extended Cut and it was different, and nowhere near as good. 4.5 out of 5 stars because it was a little slow at the beginning, but picked up REAL quick.
















Machinist - Psychological Thriller. It was a little slow at the beginning, but I was NEVER bored, not even once. It was dark, and gloomy, and had me guessing the entire film. Not once did I guess the plot correctly. At the very end it unfolds, and I loved every minute of this movie. Every story has a root of the insomnia, I could never guessed his until the very end. My poor insomniacs suffering world wide. You should all see this movie. CLASSIC! 5 out of 5 stars.
















Knight & Day - Funny... a kick ass action. I really enjoyed this movie, and the humor in it. This sort of film reminds me why I love watching movies, and miss that experience so much. I'm glad I got back into this. Netflix rules, and so do movies. 5 stars out of 5.

Border closing w/ everything 40% Off

1/3rd of Borders are closing. I got myself a book for $13 that I wanted to get for a while now, and 2 CDs for $6 each. That's cheaper then on Amazon! I feel bad cuz I like Borders, but at least 1 store will still be open in this city.

Family Therapy

So my mom is real concerned with my insomnia, and I haven't slept yet again because I had to see a shrink (if I know I have to see someone or have an appointment, I tend to think too much and not sleep.) Yes, I am seeing a shrink and it is my idea. I told my mom that I want us all in family therapy and I am also seeing him separately. Mom's insurance covers it, and that is a good thing. Man my heart hurts again. It is 8pm and I am going to sleep.......

Noise, Avatar, Strangers w/ Candy - Season 1 REVIEWS

What I am going to be doing now is doing what I always wanted to do with my life. One of those things is get netflix and watch all the movies I missed out on and put off on watching. Anything above 3 will get a review, and anything below I'll mention in like a sentence.


Noise - This is what I went through in LA! It is about inconsiderate pieces of shits who do not give a fuck about you or me. This is life in a big city, and it is hard. I almost died living like this and let me tell you that I laughed, I cried, and I still could not believe I found this movie. Netflix is the shit! It's like youtube, and I only wish they had more movies that are streamable. If you want to know what my life was like in Los Angeles, watch Noise. This movie should win an Oscar. 5 out of 5 stars!















Avatar - *SPOILER ALERT! IF YOU HAVE NOT WATCHED IT STOP READING THIS AND SKIP TO THE RATING IN BOLD BUT AVOID THE NON-BOLD TEXT AT ALL TIMES* The movie is amazing. From the story of how he interlinked with his avatar and was actually able to do all of the things in a different body, to the rapings and destruction of the culture. This movie represents the truth of what happened to Native Americans when the European man came, destroyed all their culture, raped their women, and killed them all off. It didn't even stop until today where many cases of castrations have taken place, without the women being informed. It is really sickening to what the Euro man have done to the people of this land, and I cried watching this movie so many times. I give it 4.5 stars out of 5 because the good guys won at the end, WHICH IS BULLSHIT! The Native Americans were very spiritual, and knew their places in this and other worlds. They didn't need a white man to tell them how to live or any "President" to exist within their society. All that culture just got nuked and they are still feeling the result of the genocide. I know it's history but I was just sad seeing this movie having the "good" ending, when it wasn't the case in this country. Na'vis in the movie=Native Americans on this land. Just remember when watching that movie again.















Strangers with Candy, Season 1 - CLASSIC! Funniest tv show probably in history. The most meaningful, on point, and amazing comedy I have seen in a looooooong time. There are so many messages that are in this DVD, that it's sad too many pot heads are giggling away watching the Chapelle Show instead. MUST SEE if you have any sort of awareness with what is going on with our school system, and how little people actually care. 5 stars out of 5.
















3s and lower

Inception - bleh. nothing but hype, the movie is overrated. 3 stars at most because I wasn't bored.

Kevin Hart: Seriously Funny - One of my favorite comics, does one of the worst stand ups in history. I guess I am getting old or something. "fuck this, fuck that, shit this, fuck shit, shit, fuck, fuck fuck rfuck gblahb lah blah". This should've been renamed to "how many times I can say curse words". 1 star!

Isis and Ra

I am getting into Egypt. Went to library skimming through every book and then found out about God of Sun - Ra. So, it turns out the Goddess of the Moon is named Isis. Then going really deep into this and it turns out tonight at 6pm the moonrise on west coast. And that this day is the closest day our moon has been to earth within the last 18 years so that was back in 1993. So, tonight supposed to be crazy with the Moon being SO CLOSE that it would probably be 10x its size maybe? I don't know. I want to see it, but it is raining right now, and nothing but clouds. Maybe the moon doesn't want me to see it tonight, and effect me with its energies. Anyway, it's fascinating.

I remember reading about Warlocks (they are a male witch), and they studied and practiced magic to do many things. And the western world oppressed them, burned them at the stake, and created false stories of witches and warlocks being bad and being involved with evil magic. This even goes as back as the webster dictionary, which prints these stereotypes

WITCH

1

: one that is credited with usually malignant supernatural powers; especially : a woman practicing usually black witchcraft often with the aid of a devil or familiar : sorceress — compare warlock

2

: an ugly old woman : hag

3

: a charming or alluring girl or woman

4

: a practitioner of Wicca

5

: witch of agnesi

 

 

and "Wicca" is not "evil". It is just a form of magic. I worked with a girl who was practicing Wicca. They use crystals and any other form of tools that is used by even new age people, like candles, oils, prayers, and rituals. Many of this magic is GOOD, in other words it used to contact your spirit guides, your ancestors for guidance, etc.. So yes, some people chose it for bad but it is a personal choice. I personally, have not found a certain magic fascinating enough for me to study it, but have one crystal book that has Pagan rituals with crystal grids. Like one is to contact your guides, another is to gain prophetic and guiding dreams. understand mystical wisdom. and many others.. I have not tried any YET, but just saying these are common things used by old cultures long forgotten in our western world, and are just shoved in "fantasy magic". 

So, I was going over the Isis Goddess, and found this...

" Militant monotheism dehumanized the Pagans, demonized their gods, and destroyed their civilization in a violent power struggle to gain control of Rome."

This is some fascinating stuff

2012 - FROM A GREATER VANTAGE

These are one of the most important keys of information regarding 2012. I am linking the first video, and the playlist of the series, in which the rest of the keys lay. Whether or not you chose to follow through with it is totally up to you. But know this; Time is running out and great event is coming followed by many changes. Wake up now, or get left behind.

I have been doing a lot of research after watching some of the videos, and still am researching. Time is running out my friends. Better get to work now. I hope I am not too late...



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Solfeggio Harmonics are AWSOME!

Just bought these last week. They are great for meditation or even strengthening your Chakras. HIGHLY RECOMMEND FOR EVERYONE!

5 out of 5 stars!

Another cluster headache from hell

THIS SHIT HURTS LIKE HELL. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE I FUCKING HATE MY PROBLEMS. I FUCKING HATE MY MOM'S BOYFRIEND I HOPE HE FUCKING DIES. OKAY I DONT MEAN THAT BUT IT HURTS REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REAAAAAAAAAAAALLYBABAAAAADDDJFDKJFDLSJKJJJJJJJJJJJJJKLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLUJHUIOTGIL.GKL;JHKLJHJKLHJKHKJHJKHJKGHJKGHJKGJKGJKGKJGUKOGDC9O 8,L7TYFI, C667RBFVC,6CGH V
BIEEN UP FOR LIKE 30 MINS AT LEAST. FUCKING SHIT WOKE ME UP AT 3AM NOW I CANT FUCKING SLEEP AGAIN FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MY LIFE THI SHIT IS THE WOST SHIT LIN TEH FORSTOFLDFJDKSLFJSADLKJFAS;LKJFAS[GJIOP'SEDFMKL;Gsrml:tG[KOP'MMY

MY LEFT NOSE IS COMPLETELY CLOGGED CANT BREATH THROUGH IT AND MY LEFT HEAD HURTS LIKE A FUCKING SOMEONE POKING A FUCKING ICE PICK THROUGH IT.


DRANK A LOT THROUGHOUT THE DAY SO WTF!??????????

MY MOM'S B/FS FRIEND IS FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE FUCKING THAT FUCK . STFU YOU DUMB CUNT STOP TALKING ABOUT HER!!!! EVERY FUCKING TIME THAT RFUCKIN IDIOT OPENS HIS FUCKING TRAP ABOUT HER ... "SUSAN THIS SUSAN THAT" STFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT BITCH IS DUMB STOP TALKING ABOUT HER!!!!. LIKE WE TALKING ABOUT A FUCKING SUBJECT.... "NO, I TALKED TO SUSAN.. SHE SAID ITS OKAY" STFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT BITCH IS NOT AFUCKING AUTHORITY ON WHAT IS REAL AN D WHAT IS NOT JESSUS CHRIST YOU FUCKING CUNT STUF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!