so I am chilling on my first laptop provided to me from my job, awaiting the most anticipated date in our lifetimes. so much shit been happening with me I haven't talked about.
I ordered a bunch of shit I been meaning to buy for a LONG ass time. Funny thing is, it's BLACK FRIDAY but none of the shit I bought was on sale. What type of shit is that? That's why I don't fuck with Black Fridays. They only let you have shit they want to get rid of for dirt cheap. Everything else you gotta pay a regular fee. But I am really excited when I get all the goodies in mail, except one that that I gotta pick up from Best Buy.
I gotta work tomorrow and I hear it's gonna be CRAZY. Mad customers and many of them will be cheap. But I don't care. I am excited and looking forward to it. I have never worked retail on holidays, and especially on Black Friday of all days.
what else. oh yeah, I got a car and fixed it up real good already. 2 more things I gotta fix in it and it should be set. My CC bill will be over 1k but I deserve it, and can afford it since I am working. half of the bill is something that I need, the other half is just for the stuff I been holding off on buying.
One guy at work has figured me out and I am kinda nervous. He asked me why I act like I never had sex, so I had to lie to him a little. He wanna hang out and I am open. I just gotta tell him that I am real new at parties and it is an area I suck at. But he is a cool brother. Always tells me about 40 year old virgin, lmao. He is like "that's how you get the girl! like Andy. you just be yourself and don't lie to her. tell her about your real situation." I wanna see how this all turns out. So yeah, there are some good peoples at work, and not just the negative parasites who judge others and look down on people. Met a cool ass girl in my department who is new. EVERYONE likes talking to her, even the 2 people who I had troubles with. The guy of the 2 actually starts talking to me now, and I think it's cuz I talk to everyone and was the first one talking to the new girl for like 3 hours. I am the shit, what else can I say? I don't judge people like I used to, stay to myself, and treat people how they treat me.
more on this later.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Colorado Legalizes Marijuana
Holy balls! I wonder what is next...
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/11/06/amendment-64-passes-in-co_n_2079899.html
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/11/06/amendment-64-passes-in-co_n_2079899.html
Monday, November 5, 2012
the Power of Om (Aum)
Read the part what it says about power of chanting Om daily. I highlighted it and made it bigger fonts with blue color.
The Om (Aum) symbol is a sacred syllable representing Brahman, the impersonal Absolute — omnipotent, omnipresent, and the source of all manifest existence.
By sound and form, AUM symbolizes the infinite Brahman (ultimate reality) and the entire universe.
A stands for Creation
U stands for Preservation
M stands for Destruction or dissolution
This is representative of the Trinity of God in Hindu dharma (Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva)
The three portions of AUM relate to the states of waking, dream and deep sleep and the three gunas (rajas, satva, tamas)
The three letters also indicates three planes of existence, heaven (swarga), earth (martya) and netherworld (patala)
http://www.buddhastatues.org/om.htm
Turiya is a state of pure consciousness, or the experience of ultimate reality and truth. It is a fourth state of consciousness, the momentary silence after each chanting of Aum.
When you experience Turiya you realize nothing is real. Waking is not real, dream is not real, sleep is not real, the world of multiplicity is not real. If that is so, bondage is not real and liberation is not real.
You don't talk of liberation of the Self or Brahman. Liberation and bondage relate to the individual soul and the individual soul itself is unreal. Therefore there is neither bondage nor liberation.
However, this remarkable realization is experienced only through enlightened intellect. It is only upon waking up from a horrible dream that you realize there was no horror. While you are trapped in the dream world your experiences are very real to you. As long as the intellect has not been enlightened, even though you are in the state of Turiya all the time, your problems have not ended. You are trapped in a world, a dream within a dream. Only when you wake up from the long dream of the world-process through enlightenment do you understand your true identity as Turiya Consciousness.
Thus, meditation on Om--A, U, M, and the ardha matra--leads the mind gradually to the higher levels of samadhi in which all sublime truths are revealed.
http://www.yrf.org/Om2.html
The Power of Chanting Om:
1. The chanting of Om drives away all worldly thoughts and removes distraction and infuses new vigor in the body.
2. When you feel depressed, chant Om fifty times and you will be filled with new vigor and strength. The chanting of Om is a powerful tonic.
3. Those who chant Om will have a powerful, sweet voice.
4. Those who do meditation of Om daily will get tremendous power. They will have luster in their eyes and faces.
Meditation on Om:
Retire to a quite place, sit down, close your eyes and completely relax your muscles and nerves. Concentrate on the space between your eyebrows and quieten and silence the conscious mind. Begin to repeat "Om" mentally while associating the ideas of infinity, eternity, immortality, etc. You must repeat Om with the feeling that you are the infinite and all-pervading.
http://www.omsakthi.org/worship/mantra.html
Be patient and persistent and meditate on the formula of Om again and again. Gradually you will ascend the ladder of Vedantic wisdom in the proper way.
This sound can be heard as the sound of one's own nerve system, and meditators and mystics hear it daily, like the sound made by an electrical transformer or a swarm of bees, or a thousand vinas playing in the distance. It is a strong, inner experience, one that yogis hold with great reverence. Hearing it one draws near to God Consciousness. When we are living in the lower chakras, or when the world too strongly dominates our mind, this sound may, for a time, not be heard. But it returns as awareness withdraws, as the mind becomes perfectly quiescent, silent, still. Listen for this sound in your quietest moments and you will learn to recognize it as a daily encounter with the Divine that lives within all men, within all creatures, within all existence.
http://www.iloveulove.com/spirituality/hindu/omaum.htm
The difference in spelling ["Om" or "Aum"] is merely a matter of transliteration.
http://www.iloveulove.com/spirituality/hindu/omaum.htm
-taken from video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RlWy4hPN3uQ
The Om (Aum) symbol is a sacred syllable representing Brahman, the impersonal Absolute — omnipotent, omnipresent, and the source of all manifest existence.
By sound and form, AUM symbolizes the infinite Brahman (ultimate reality) and the entire universe.
A stands for Creation
U stands for Preservation
M stands for Destruction or dissolution
This is representative of the Trinity of God in Hindu dharma (Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva)
The three portions of AUM relate to the states of waking, dream and deep sleep and the three gunas (rajas, satva, tamas)
The three letters also indicates three planes of existence, heaven (swarga), earth (martya) and netherworld (patala)
http://www.buddhastatues.org/om.htm
Turiya is a state of pure consciousness, or the experience of ultimate reality and truth. It is a fourth state of consciousness, the momentary silence after each chanting of Aum.
When you experience Turiya you realize nothing is real. Waking is not real, dream is not real, sleep is not real, the world of multiplicity is not real. If that is so, bondage is not real and liberation is not real.
You don't talk of liberation of the Self or Brahman. Liberation and bondage relate to the individual soul and the individual soul itself is unreal. Therefore there is neither bondage nor liberation.
However, this remarkable realization is experienced only through enlightened intellect. It is only upon waking up from a horrible dream that you realize there was no horror. While you are trapped in the dream world your experiences are very real to you. As long as the intellect has not been enlightened, even though you are in the state of Turiya all the time, your problems have not ended. You are trapped in a world, a dream within a dream. Only when you wake up from the long dream of the world-process through enlightenment do you understand your true identity as Turiya Consciousness.
Thus, meditation on Om--A, U, M, and the ardha matra--leads the mind gradually to the higher levels of samadhi in which all sublime truths are revealed.
http://www.yrf.org/Om2.html
The Power of Chanting Om:
1. The chanting of Om drives away all worldly thoughts and removes distraction and infuses new vigor in the body.
2. When you feel depressed, chant Om fifty times and you will be filled with new vigor and strength. The chanting of Om is a powerful tonic.
3. Those who chant Om will have a powerful, sweet voice.
4. Those who do meditation of Om daily will get tremendous power. They will have luster in their eyes and faces.
Meditation on Om:
Retire to a quite place, sit down, close your eyes and completely relax your muscles and nerves. Concentrate on the space between your eyebrows and quieten and silence the conscious mind. Begin to repeat "Om" mentally while associating the ideas of infinity, eternity, immortality, etc. You must repeat Om with the feeling that you are the infinite and all-pervading.
http://www.omsakthi.org/worship/mantra.html
Be patient and persistent and meditate on the formula of Om again and again. Gradually you will ascend the ladder of Vedantic wisdom in the proper way.
This sound can be heard as the sound of one's own nerve system, and meditators and mystics hear it daily, like the sound made by an electrical transformer or a swarm of bees, or a thousand vinas playing in the distance. It is a strong, inner experience, one that yogis hold with great reverence. Hearing it one draws near to God Consciousness. When we are living in the lower chakras, or when the world too strongly dominates our mind, this sound may, for a time, not be heard. But it returns as awareness withdraws, as the mind becomes perfectly quiescent, silent, still. Listen for this sound in your quietest moments and you will learn to recognize it as a daily encounter with the Divine that lives within all men, within all creatures, within all existence.
http://www.iloveulove.com/spirituality/hindu/omaum.htm
The difference in spelling ["Om" or "Aum"] is merely a matter of transliteration.
http://www.iloveulove.com/spirituality/hindu/omaum.htm
-taken from video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RlWy4hPN3uQ
Women with problems
So I bought a car about a week ago and was at DMV to get it registered. I see this one cute black girl around my height and weight. I was like damn I gotta talk to her. I was in line and she was in a different line so I didn't wanna go do it right then cuz it seemed out of sync. So I wait in line... My PTSD went through the roof thinking about it. I got more nervous, then more, and more until I felt like my heart is about to jump out of my chest. I was like... maybe I should think about not doing it so I'll feel better. Then Im thinking FUCK NO! The fear will go away but I'll feel like shit at the end.
So after 10 mins I get a # at the window to sit and wait. I see her sitting in the 2nd row. I'm thinking I'll just go up to her and holla. I get there and there is a seat next to her with some forms on it. I go up like I'm about to sit, she takes her forms while talking on the phone. I'm thinking... I'll just wait till she gets off the phone... then... I sit down next to her... she starts talking
Her: MAN, WHY DID YOU DO THAT? WHY DIDNT YOU JUST TELL ME THAT INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR SO LONG? THAT'S MESSED UP! NOW YOU GO AND TELL ME THAT?
*hangs up the phone*
YOU WISH YOU WERE MY MOTHER YOU STUPID ASS BITCH!
THAT'S SOME BULLSHIT! YOU WAKE ME UP IN THE MORNING JUST TO TELL ME JORDAN GOTTA GO? THEN YOU WANT ME TO WORK FOR YOU? WHO THE FUCK WOULD WANNA WORK FOR YOU WHEN YOU ACTING LIKE THIS? YOU KICKING OUT YOUR OWN SON IN THE MORNING? THEN MY COUSINS WANNA GO TO THE CLUB TO FLIRT. THAT'S SOME BULLSHIT, MAN!
then I turn to my left and look at her. she looks into the distance ahead of her without looking anywhere else...
Her: my mother could be real stresful sometimes...
I was thinking DAMN! This may not be the time or the place for me to do what I wanna do. I feel bad for her. At first I thought she still talking on her phone, with an earpiece but she was just venting all the stress her fam put her through. My family is just as dysfunctional, only we are not crazy dysfunctional, but more low key dysfunctional. Either way, it's all the same shit in the end.
I am still not sure if I should've said something, but felt like it was best not to.
Peace and love to her. Hopefully everything will work itself out in her fam.
So after 10 mins I get a # at the window to sit and wait. I see her sitting in the 2nd row. I'm thinking I'll just go up to her and holla. I get there and there is a seat next to her with some forms on it. I go up like I'm about to sit, she takes her forms while talking on the phone. I'm thinking... I'll just wait till she gets off the phone... then... I sit down next to her... she starts talking
Her: MAN, WHY DID YOU DO THAT? WHY DIDNT YOU JUST TELL ME THAT INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR SO LONG? THAT'S MESSED UP! NOW YOU GO AND TELL ME THAT?
*hangs up the phone*
YOU WISH YOU WERE MY MOTHER YOU STUPID ASS BITCH!
THAT'S SOME BULLSHIT! YOU WAKE ME UP IN THE MORNING JUST TO TELL ME JORDAN GOTTA GO? THEN YOU WANT ME TO WORK FOR YOU? WHO THE FUCK WOULD WANNA WORK FOR YOU WHEN YOU ACTING LIKE THIS? YOU KICKING OUT YOUR OWN SON IN THE MORNING? THEN MY COUSINS WANNA GO TO THE CLUB TO FLIRT. THAT'S SOME BULLSHIT, MAN!
then I turn to my left and look at her. she looks into the distance ahead of her without looking anywhere else...
Her: my mother could be real stresful sometimes...
I was thinking DAMN! This may not be the time or the place for me to do what I wanna do. I feel bad for her. At first I thought she still talking on her phone, with an earpiece but she was just venting all the stress her fam put her through. My family is just as dysfunctional, only we are not crazy dysfunctional, but more low key dysfunctional. Either way, it's all the same shit in the end.
I am still not sure if I should've said something, but felt like it was best not to.
Peace and love to her. Hopefully everything will work itself out in her fam.
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