Sunday, August 28, 2011

Blast from the Past is an AMAZING MOVIE!!!

Holy balls. This movie is FUNNY!!!!!!!!! I been meaning to watch it since it came out, and I finally found it through netflix. Haven't seen a movie in a few weeks because most movies are so fucking boring. I kinda lost all the hope in movies lately, since more than half are total crap and i hate wasting my time.

there should be a formula for good movies, and that formula should be like this movie was made. UNBELIEVABLY GOOD STORY AND EXCELLENT SENSE OF HUMOR! I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 fucking stars. this movie makes me remember just why I watch movies in the first place.



Saturday, August 27, 2011

my Dad is a clueless fucker

the last time i seen him was when he called me on the phone apologizing begging me to "forgive" him. i went over to his home and it was the same shit... him sitting there not knowing what to say to me or how to talk to me. so i was like.. LOOK, i forgive you for you never being there for me, etc.. but... WHO ARE YOU!?!!? he was all sweating not knowing what to say. i told him, no one knows you. me, my mom, all the members in my extended family have not a single clue who you are. who are you? once you figure it out, call me... and i left.

now a year later i no longer live in LA. last night he calls me leaving a message. "hi, its your father. i miss you. maybe i can come visit, or maybe you can come visit me. we can get together and talk" i was like WTF!?!?!?? ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED!!?!!!?!??! wow.... im speechless. this guy is like a little kid. he just dont get it. and i honestly dont have the patience to baby sit him.

the only thing i gotta say to my biological dad is, PEACE. I'll see you in a next lifetime (hopefully not).

Thursday, August 25, 2011

DUMB ASS cleaning lady threw away my shit

i am SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW. REAL FUCKING MAD. a STUPID ASS CLEANING LADY THREW AWAY A RECIEPT TO MY LAPTOP!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!! FUCKING STUPID ASS BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got this cheap $250 laptop and its real nice but i was gonna return it because it is slow as shit. now.. im staying in a hotel and the FUCKING DUMB ASS RETARDED CUNT ASS CLEANING LADY CAME IN, AND THREW AWAY THE PLASTIC BAG THE RECIEPT WAS IN!!! OMFG...

I AM SO SICK AND TIRED LIVING IN THIS WORLD WITH INCONSIDERATE FUCKS THAT DONT EVER THINK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE AROUND THEM AND THEIR BELONGINGS!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU ALL TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my fucking mom was throwing away my shit damn near all my life, until i put a lock on the door of my room. she threw away so much of my shit, including this RARE book from Brazil on slums in Rio, that i always felt like how i feel right now. now.. i am actually staying at a hotel and feel like im a kid back living with my mama. FUCK!!!!!!! I HATE THIS SHIT!!!!

FUCK YOU STUPID ASS OLD TRAMP ASS BITCH!!!!!!!! I HOPE YOU GET FIRED! I REALLY DO. THIS WILL BE THE BIGGEST FUCKING LESSON OF YOUR LIFE NOT TO FUCKING THROW AWAY OTHER PEOPLES' BELONGINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW? IM GONNA TRY TO RETURN IT TO WALMART TOMORROW FIRST, BUT IF THEY DONT TAKE IT IM GONNA 1) COME BACK AND TALK TO THE SUPERVISOR OF THIS HOTEL, AND 2) GONNA SUE THE FUCK OUTTA THESE PIECES OF SHITS IF JUSTICE IS NOT SERVED. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF DEALING WITH THIS BULLSHIT AND NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!! I NEVER EVEN TOOK ANYONE TO COURT, BUT I COULD HAVE A GOOD CASE HERE. WHAT IF I FUCKING BOUGHT A $3,000 EQUIPMENT AND CHANGED MY MIND??? FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID ASS PEOPLE MAN!!!!!!!!!

I AM TIRED OF DEALING WITH STUPID PEOPLE ALL MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Naps are amazing... THANK YOU SETH!

I been struggling with napping but finally my body is used to napping when I'm feeling sleepy. just had a 2 hour nap and I feel.... AMAZING. rejuvinated, like i just ate some food after being hungry for 5 hours straight. i used to be stubborn about napping during the day bein afraid not to sleep during the night. but after i read my first Seth book, he got me looking at it in a different way.

Seth says that back in the cave days we had to be alert and couldn't sleep longer than a few hours while constantly being on the look out for predators. Nowadays with our 9-6 schedules we exhaust our bodies, and then take LONG night rests of 8 hours. hence, why you wake up sleepy not wanting to get up, and then yawning throughout the day. this fucks our bodies up even further due to us overwhelming them with continuous rest, and then work. that's why animals take short naps whenever they feel sleepy, it rejuvinates them, fills them with energy, and keeps them alert for predators. but in our fucked up backwards society, we have completely been disconnected with ourselves. so we overwhelm our bodies during the day, and then during the night. I FEEL GREAT! again, THANK YOU SETH!

Seth talks about the concept of sleep in one of the chapters of Seth Speaks. he says we should nap around 1-2 hours per day, and sleep 4-6 hours per night, or something like that. so I been trying to devide the 8 hours with a nap, and sleep. it's fascinating stuff that I never thought about. I highly recommend reading this book. I just re-edited my review http://libraliving.blogspot.com/2011/04/seth-speaks-eternal-validity-of-soul.html . He even has a book on health. I may check it out in the near future.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

my 1st Coke in YEARS!

holy balls... i just had my first coca cola in YEARS and it tasted sooo GOOD. oh man... you will never trully taste the pleasure of something, unless you just let it go. if it comes back to you, it will the greatest thing you ever done in a long ass time. i never realized coca cola tasted this good. but it's my last one for another few years, thats for sure. lol. im never putting any toxic food into my body like i used to. that means no chemical drinks, no alcohol, no junk food of any kind, no meat, except maybe fish, and yes, no weed. at least not for a while, anyway.

but... PEPSI > Coke

Monday, August 22, 2011

people repeal me

so im sitting at my hotel on this laptop i bought from walmart, which i will return when i leave within a few days. a piece of shit wireless has got to be the worst invention in history. anyway, today i had training at school i'm attending. i started saturday and i was the only one. today, monday, many other people came for same class.

so teacher is like "so J here knows how to get the program you need to pass the test, so if i were you i'd be making friends with him" or something. he goes "come see J at lunch break or talk to me to see how to acquire the program." so, lunch comes and goes. i get back from it and we got about 10 minutes before class starts. and the thing that really amazed me was... NOT 1 PERSON CAME UP TO ME. they were all sitting there figuring it out on their own. held back the class 20 minutes from starting, but NO ONE cared to ask me. the teacher was running around desk to desk helping folks how to install the app properly. 9 people, and not 1 soul gave a fuck to save 18 minutes. they would rather waste 20 and have a teacher help them.

it really AMAZES ME how people repeal me. i am like this negative force of nature, and they want nothing to do with it. before the day started i even set a goal to myself to meet 3 new people every day. after this i stopped giving a fuck. 1/3 people and i just stopped caring. i smile, act polite, be friendly, but it is all a waste of my energy. people still don't want to be around me. then they find out i'm kinda weird socially anyway. came home from lunch, took a nap. naps rules! 1.5 hours of sleep made me feel much better, refreshed, and all.

it's almost as if i got this auric field filled with fear, insecurities, and lack of self of steem. and people can sense it. they stear clear and don't want to talk to me, let alone greet me. i sat at a lunch table with 3 guys. they were all talking amongst themselves, and i sort of got involved but not 1 gave a fuck about carring a convo with me. they all left after talking to each other.

i really dont wanna be bothered at this point. i just wanna be away from everyone. it is a good thing im away from my fam, though. i can at least relax, but i gotta study my ass off right now. so i'm out.

Headache at Hotel

so I'm staying at a hotel in Fremont and I really needed to get some sleep. went to bed 4 hours before I had to wake up, and 1.5 hours later fucking cluster headache strikes. wake up all fucked up holding my head for 1 hour. had about an hour and a half of sleep. these headaches hurt so bad. i dont wanna exist when they strike me. i alredy got enough problems. headaches don't help me 1 bit.

Friday, August 12, 2011

I was selected to test Star Wars: The Old Republic

wholy shit. but the funny thing is, I won't have that much time to play it, haha

according to Amazon it comes out on the new years. so, i got plenty of time fucking around with it.

reading books>>>>>>>>>>>>MMOs... unless i'm bored to death, of course. then it's the other way around :(

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

being sick sux

IT SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS

FUCKING SINUS HURTS THE WORST. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..

WE SHOULD ALL BE IN A HOSPITAL ON A 3 DAY SLEEP MEDS WEVERY TIME WE ARE SICK.

yeah that would be noooice

:(

Monday, August 8, 2011

Kanye West has mental problems

i am convinced. i used to think he had a huge ego, but it's deeper than that... look at this pathetic interview. i feel sad for not just Kaney West, but all the ignorance he spreads throughout the world with his outbursts, and then you gotta love his emotional interviews like this where he sounds mental

the funny thing is... Kanye West is a fucking racist... he even stopped talking once he realized it "it was my frustration from seeing year and years of.... *silence*" uh.. what... black people not getting awards? black women not getting awards? just goes back to RACE... it's amazing how race is emphasized in our culture from within and without. people on the bottom and people on the top. it's hard to find people who aren't racist in some shape, way, or form...


Thursday, August 4, 2011

people who complain

so i'm at work, and this is something that really irritates me and i gotta talk about it.

we are not busy. nothing is happening. and we got a shit load of work for about 15 minutes. i am a temp and everyone else is hired there. so when the work comes in this one guy starts complaining.. "ohhh... blah blah blah..." "ahhhh... blah blah blah" "why we gotta do this?" INFRONT OF THE BOSS. Im like wtf!?!?! all this guy does is COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN

im thinking.. dude..... SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a fucking temp, and you are hired at a law firm with all the benefits. you dont do SHIT most of the time, but when you do get work all you do is COMPLAIN... wtf is wrong with people? they want to get paid and not do SHIT!!! do your fucking job and shut your trap. stop complaining. you should be thanking the fucking law firm for hiring your trifling ass in the first place. I AM SICK OF THESE PEOPLE WHO COMPLAIN 24/7. I really dont like being around him. i havent seen a day where he didnt complain.

thank god its my last day tomorrow, friday. after that i am OUT of that bitch.